age: 30 (Jul 17, 1982)
MEMBER SINCE: January 2008
body mods: 3 piercings, 4 tats
makes me sad: Being single
sign: Cancer
heroes: My grandfather, Henry George, Paul Stamets, Amory Lovins, Ken Wilber, and the protesters in Iran
crush: Myself
into: Mysticism, reading, writing, festivals, good company, a nice bottle of wine, being out in nature, tattoos, beautiful women, intellectual conversation, love
gets me hot: cuddling
i lost my virginity: The same week as 9/11
fantasy: Being in love
makes me happy: Living in the most awesome city in America
BLOGS
Hey all! I haven't been here for a while. I thought my membership had expired, but I didn't realize it was set to auto-renew, and since I got that unexpected bill from my credit card anyway, I thought I'd go ahead and make another blog post.
Things aren't so great right now. My mom has liver cancer. She's going to start chemo later this week, and hopefully they can shrink it to the point where it's operable. Odds of survival are about 10%. Needless to say, this has been tough on me and my family. I've always been especially close to my mother. I keep praying for a miracle. I want her to be there when I get married, when my kids are born, when I finally launch a career that suits me. It's difficult for me to respond to this situation, because it feels so unreal to me. I feel like if I contemplated the full gravity of it, it would destroy me. And in turn, it would destroy my mother. The last thing she needs right now is to worry about my well-being. So I've got to stay strong and pretend this isn't eating me up inside.
Things aren't so great right now. My mom has liver cancer. She's going to start chemo later this week, and hopefully they can shrink it to the point where it's operable. Odds of survival are about 10%. Needless to say, this has been tough on me and my family. I've always been especially close to my mother. I keep praying for a miracle. I want her to be there when I get married, when my kids are born, when I finally launch a career that suits me. It's difficult for me to respond to this situation, because it feels so unreal to me. I feel like if I contemplated the full gravity of it, it would destroy me. And in turn, it would destroy my mother. The last thing she needs right now is to worry about my well-being. So I've got to stay strong and pretend this isn't eating me up inside.
OCTOBER 2012
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