Hi, my name is Steve and I've not had an orgasm since Sunday. It is now Thursday night.
The change in my mental attitude is measurable, my cognitive faculties questionable... Ease of erection is about 9.4 out of 10.
Girlfriend and I agreed not to masturbate while apart this week (expecting only Monday and Tuesday apart). However our plans on Wednesday fell apart and tonight just wasn't doable... So what started as 2 days of "no sex" has turned into a nightmare.
I'm sticking to it, and so is she. She's coming over to mine tomorrow after work and I don't expect us to be productive until nature has taken its course.
My advice? Don't try it, just masturbate, you'll be a nicer person as a result.
Now excuse me, I need a cold shower.
The change in my mental attitude is measurable, my cognitive faculties questionable... Ease of erection is about 9.4 out of 10.
Girlfriend and I agreed not to masturbate while apart this week (expecting only Monday and Tuesday apart). However our plans on Wednesday fell apart and tonight just wasn't doable... So what started as 2 days of "no sex" has turned into a nightmare.
I'm sticking to it, and so is she. She's coming over to mine tomorrow after work and I don't expect us to be productive until nature has taken its course.
My advice? Don't try it, just masturbate, you'll be a nicer person as a result.
Now excuse me, I need a cold shower.
My my, it has been a while. Deliberately so.
At the end of April I posted this:
"Went up to Northampton to see my (hot) friend Emma; her boyfriend was at work so she was bored, I was bored, so we thought we'd do something together."
I saw her the following weekend and had the most amazing time. Turns out the 5 years we've known each other, we'd both fancied each other. We were just never single at the same time (I was in a long term relationship all the time I'd known her, an unhappy one at that). So that's how things have gone.
I'm now with the girl of my dreams, her boyfriend is apparently heartbroken (but they'd been drifting apart for a good year), I'm in love for the first time in many years, having regular amazing sex and very happy.
My right ear is nearly at 10mm now, at which point I'll stop and have a nice flared tunnel in it. Contemplating more piercings and tattoos, but we'll see. Busy times...
At the end of April I posted this:
"Went up to Northampton to see my (hot) friend Emma; her boyfriend was at work so she was bored, I was bored, so we thought we'd do something together."
I saw her the following weekend and had the most amazing time. Turns out the 5 years we've known each other, we'd both fancied each other. We were just never single at the same time (I was in a long term relationship all the time I'd known her, an unhappy one at that). So that's how things have gone.
I'm now with the girl of my dreams, her boyfriend is apparently heartbroken (but they'd been drifting apart for a good year), I'm in love for the first time in many years, having regular amazing sex and very happy.
My right ear is nearly at 10mm now, at which point I'll stop and have a nice flared tunnel in it. Contemplating more piercings and tattoos, but we'll see. Busy times...
Mother of god my second helix piercing is hurting. It's swollen and a constant, pulsing pain. A pain that increases when blood surges around my body, such as when I sneeze, stand up, run or sit on the toilet (har har, indeed).
I fortunately have 6 days off work now, so I'm going to sleep like a trooper, see a few good friends, sort out some business, see Opeth and get inked.
Just could do without a constant pain in my ear ^_^
I fortunately have 6 days off work now, so I'm going to sleep like a trooper, see a few good friends, sort out some business, see Opeth and get inked.
Just could do without a constant pain in my ear ^_^
Another piercing, mostly on the spur of the moment.
Went up to Northampton to see my (hot) friend Emma; her boyfriend was at work so she was bored, I was bored, so we thought we'd do something together.
Went over, played with her kittens (literally, not a metaphor...), chatted, went into town to do some shopping. She was going to get her nipple pierced, but the piercer she knew from one studio wasn't in, so didn't. Instead we went to the other end of town to a different studio. She got her helix done like I have. I then opted to get another helix piercing too.
Fun times.
Getting inked in just over a week too - even more fun times!
Just been out for a run in an attempt to be less of a lazy fatboy... Was a good one too.
Business as usual, nothing to see here, move along.
Went up to Northampton to see my (hot) friend Emma; her boyfriend was at work so she was bored, I was bored, so we thought we'd do something together.
Went over, played with her kittens (literally, not a metaphor...), chatted, went into town to do some shopping. She was going to get her nipple pierced, but the piercer she knew from one studio wasn't in, so didn't. Instead we went to the other end of town to a different studio. She got her helix done like I have. I then opted to get another helix piercing too.
Fun times.
Getting inked in just over a week too - even more fun times!
Just been out for a run in an attempt to be less of a lazy fatboy... Was a good one too.
Business as usual, nothing to see here, move along.
Funny how things work out sometimes isn't it?
A couple of weeks ago I was bummed out, indescribably so, with problems I couldn't really express. I have an awesome weekend away with friends seeing awesome bands and my whole world is placed right back into perspective.
As a result I've decided to cut down my working hours (freelance that is, I'm still going to work my regular job), so I'm doing less but actually only working on "well paid" work, i.e. stuff where I'll turn a decent profit per hour.
I finally got off my arse and booked my Sonisphere and Download tickets, so my summer of awesome can go ahead as planned.
Got tomorrow off work to relax (sleeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeep) and catch up with some freelance stuff. No gigs until April 5th, which is Opeth at the royal albert hall. And, simply as a matter of coincidence, I'm booked in for tattoo work on the 7th. Having this on my right arm/shoulder area:
As simple line-work.
Good times. No more piercings planned, but then they just tend to "happen" when I feel the urge.
A couple of weeks ago I was bummed out, indescribably so, with problems I couldn't really express. I have an awesome weekend away with friends seeing awesome bands and my whole world is placed right back into perspective.
As a result I've decided to cut down my working hours (freelance that is, I'm still going to work my regular job), so I'm doing less but actually only working on "well paid" work, i.e. stuff where I'll turn a decent profit per hour.
I finally got off my arse and booked my Sonisphere and Download tickets, so my summer of awesome can go ahead as planned.
Got tomorrow off work to relax (sleeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeep) and catch up with some freelance stuff. No gigs until April 5th, which is Opeth at the royal albert hall. And, simply as a matter of coincidence, I'm booked in for tattoo work on the 7th. Having this on my right arm/shoulder area:
As simple line-work.
Good times. No more piercings planned, but then they just tend to "happen" when I feel the urge.
So, Steel Panther was last night - what a fun evening. I love my gig-heavy lifestyle.
Saw so many boobs last night too, something you don't get at Machine Head... Regrettably the first set of boobs I've seen for several months now which can't be good! Awesome evening though.
The thing I enjoy most about my adventures are the randoms; the Australian girls I met while waiting for the opening act, the dudes behind me with the sex doll, the random drunk people on the train. Well, apart from the drunk girl who decided that I "could be cute if you lost some weight and got a hair cut".
"Psh, shows what you know. I rock" was my obvious reply, which I stand by. Chubby guys have more fun anyway xD
I'm going to try and spend the entire day in my dressing gown now, this is my first free weekend in god-knows how long, so I'm going to chill in my pants. Good idea? Nay, the best of ideas. Anyone up for a pants party?
Saw so many boobs last night too, something you don't get at Machine Head... Regrettably the first set of boobs I've seen for several months now which can't be good! Awesome evening though.
The thing I enjoy most about my adventures are the randoms; the Australian girls I met while waiting for the opening act, the dudes behind me with the sex doll, the random drunk people on the train. Well, apart from the drunk girl who decided that I "could be cute if you lost some weight and got a hair cut".
"Psh, shows what you know. I rock" was my obvious reply, which I stand by. Chubby guys have more fun anyway xD
I'm going to try and spend the entire day in my dressing gown now, this is my first free weekend in god-knows how long, so I'm going to chill in my pants. Good idea? Nay, the best of ideas. Anyone up for a pants party?
My interesting life continues.
I was bummed for a good week, having found out my ex is not only dating again, but sexually active again. While this is awesome for her it suddenly made me realise that my canary had died (mining metaphor...).
It'll have been a year of being single come May 1st and I've not really had a SNIFF of interest from anyone in that time. Well, I have, but nothing I was willing to pursue. I'm old school, I like to have a real connection with someone and I didn't feel that with anyone who expressed an interest in me.
However, I've had an awesome weekend away from my life visiting friends, attending a music festival and then two individual gigs in my University city; which was awesome. Seeing my metal friends from Uni (who I don't see anywhere near enough now we've all graduated, and have been for nearly 4 years now) was righteous. The music was excellent, the partying was excellent and I've come away from it feeling rather good.
The pressures of my work have all waited for me though, which isn't ideal. But what can you do? I might knock this "do my own company" thing on the head for a while, I was much happier when I wasn't caring about work so much.
Round and round we go. Still single, still sexless, still rocking. Yep yep, I'm back. Got a new piercing too, got my helix done. Booked in for tattoo work on April 7th too, so updates to come following that ^^
I was bummed for a good week, having found out my ex is not only dating again, but sexually active again. While this is awesome for her it suddenly made me realise that my canary had died (mining metaphor...).
It'll have been a year of being single come May 1st and I've not really had a SNIFF of interest from anyone in that time. Well, I have, but nothing I was willing to pursue. I'm old school, I like to have a real connection with someone and I didn't feel that with anyone who expressed an interest in me.
However, I've had an awesome weekend away from my life visiting friends, attending a music festival and then two individual gigs in my University city; which was awesome. Seeing my metal friends from Uni (who I don't see anywhere near enough now we've all graduated, and have been for nearly 4 years now) was righteous. The music was excellent, the partying was excellent and I've come away from it feeling rather good.
The pressures of my work have all waited for me though, which isn't ideal. But what can you do? I might knock this "do my own company" thing on the head for a while, I was much happier when I wasn't caring about work so much.
Round and round we go. Still single, still sexless, still rocking. Yep yep, I'm back. Got a new piercing too, got my helix done. Booked in for tattoo work on April 7th too, so updates to come following that ^^
I always retreat to my SG blog whenever things are tough or I feel that I need to vent in some capacity. It's comforting just writing my thoughts down, safe in the knowledge that no one mentioned is on the site.
Things are tough at the moment, not so much in an unhappy way, far from it, I'm a rather happy chap at the moment, but things are difficult all the same.
I've been working a lot (things are somewhat hectic at work, unfortunately) so I've barely had any free time lately, and any free time I've had has been used for my freelance. Fortunately I'm about at the end of the busy work period (although freelance will continue to roll over) and lots of gigs are coming. Lamb of God, Machine Head, HIM, Trivium, Opeth, Steel Panther all booked, need to get tickets for Arch Enemy sorted out too.
However, I'm finding myself drawn into ever decreasing circles; I'm not lonely as such nor do I crave companionship, but I'm finding it increasingly hard to distance my emotional tie to my Austrian dream-girl. I thought it'd be easier once she moved back to Austria but the mixed messages continue; she's in my dreams occasionally (never in a sexual context though, always in a romantic one, if that makes sense).
Maybe it's because she fits every criteria I ever laid out for a girl, maybe it's because we get on so well... I just don't understand. Quite early into meeting her I expressed an interest in her, to which she insisted remaining friends was easier. The optimist in me assumes that was because she was returning to Austria a couple of months later, which almost certainly isn't the reason. Yet the mixed messages continue and I find myself torn between sitting on my hands or taking a punt on it. We're a LOT closer now than when I tested the water for her affections, we know each other pretty well, so as much as I already know the answer I'm torn between trying again or being sensible and waiting for the green light.
She's back in the country for 3 years in September, which is awesome news. But my dilemma remains. As I realised not long into meeting her (maybe 3-4 day trips together), I'd not felt quite so strongly about someone for a very long time (maybe since Lucy, who I was with at 18).
I'd declare "FUCK MY LIFE" at this point, but I'm in a succesful job, earning plenty of money, got lots of awesome friends and got awesome gigs lined up. Yet, she's the thing I want most. Yep, this is exactly how I imagined my life going xD
Things are tough at the moment, not so much in an unhappy way, far from it, I'm a rather happy chap at the moment, but things are difficult all the same.
I've been working a lot (things are somewhat hectic at work, unfortunately) so I've barely had any free time lately, and any free time I've had has been used for my freelance. Fortunately I'm about at the end of the busy work period (although freelance will continue to roll over) and lots of gigs are coming. Lamb of God, Machine Head, HIM, Trivium, Opeth, Steel Panther all booked, need to get tickets for Arch Enemy sorted out too.
However, I'm finding myself drawn into ever decreasing circles; I'm not lonely as such nor do I crave companionship, but I'm finding it increasingly hard to distance my emotional tie to my Austrian dream-girl. I thought it'd be easier once she moved back to Austria but the mixed messages continue; she's in my dreams occasionally (never in a sexual context though, always in a romantic one, if that makes sense).
Maybe it's because she fits every criteria I ever laid out for a girl, maybe it's because we get on so well... I just don't understand. Quite early into meeting her I expressed an interest in her, to which she insisted remaining friends was easier. The optimist in me assumes that was because she was returning to Austria a couple of months later, which almost certainly isn't the reason. Yet the mixed messages continue and I find myself torn between sitting on my hands or taking a punt on it. We're a LOT closer now than when I tested the water for her affections, we know each other pretty well, so as much as I already know the answer I'm torn between trying again or being sensible and waiting for the green light.
She's back in the country for 3 years in September, which is awesome news. But my dilemma remains. As I realised not long into meeting her (maybe 3-4 day trips together), I'd not felt quite so strongly about someone for a very long time (maybe since Lucy, who I was with at 18).
I'd declare "FUCK MY LIFE" at this point, but I'm in a succesful job, earning plenty of money, got lots of awesome friends and got awesome gigs lined up. Yet, she's the thing I want most. Yep, this is exactly how I imagined my life going xD
I'm sitting here at 2:41am having spent the day bouncing between unpaid overtime work and moments of fleeting inanity.
It's a strange existence, some aspects of my life are happening with greater ease than others. It amuses me how your own life and happiness seem to work using stampede theory (the pack moves at the speed of the slowest animal). So if one aspect is slowing you down, everything else seems to be throttled back.
I'm in good health, although overweight and unfit. I'm fairly happy in most areas at the moment. My ex is dating again which is great for her, she does better with the supportive nature of a relationship behind her. Only today did I realise that it's been 9 months since we decided to go our separate ways; a move that's been more positive for me than her, but she's in a good place with it now.
I've found "myself" again now, I expect I shall continue to find myself for the rest of the year (was with her for 5 years, so not been single for a LONG time).
I'm cool with it all though, I'm happy not having any female involvement whatsoever. My work has been so hectic she'd have dumped me for sure anyway, so had I been dating it would have ended in disaster.
There's one girl in this world I'd do pretty much anything for, so unless she decides she wants me I'm going to keep my head down, get the next 5-6 weeks out of the way and see how things look from there. It's a curious existence being me.
Still, it's not a bad thing when you're happy being you. Just a shame that things don't always work out like you hope.
It's a strange existence, some aspects of my life are happening with greater ease than others. It amuses me how your own life and happiness seem to work using stampede theory (the pack moves at the speed of the slowest animal). So if one aspect is slowing you down, everything else seems to be throttled back.
I'm in good health, although overweight and unfit. I'm fairly happy in most areas at the moment. My ex is dating again which is great for her, she does better with the supportive nature of a relationship behind her. Only today did I realise that it's been 9 months since we decided to go our separate ways; a move that's been more positive for me than her, but she's in a good place with it now.
I've found "myself" again now, I expect I shall continue to find myself for the rest of the year (was with her for 5 years, so not been single for a LONG time).
I'm cool with it all though, I'm happy not having any female involvement whatsoever. My work has been so hectic she'd have dumped me for sure anyway, so had I been dating it would have ended in disaster.
There's one girl in this world I'd do pretty much anything for, so unless she decides she wants me I'm going to keep my head down, get the next 5-6 weeks out of the way and see how things look from there. It's a curious existence being me.
Still, it's not a bad thing when you're happy being you. Just a shame that things don't always work out like you hope.
So Christmas is over; I've barely been around lately. Work has been killing me, just lots of hours and I just end up coming home and monging, so I'm fairly sure I've put on a few lbs which isn't ideal.
Too much cold and snow, too little rest and relaxation. Too little sex! By that I mean no sex at all. Boo.
Looks like 2010 has started pretty much as 2009 left off, but I'm expecting the non-sex aspects to improve in the next 30-40 days or so.
~rawr~
Too much cold and snow, too little rest and relaxation. Too little sex! By that I mean no sex at all. Boo.
Looks like 2010 has started pretty much as 2009 left off, but I'm expecting the non-sex aspects to improve in the next 30-40 days or so.
~rawr~
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