so I can go any where I want, right? then why am I stuck here in this state of confusion?
once again I'm saying things that I've only said over and over agin the last few years...I need to find people that are intresting my own age, I need to figure out what I want, I need a good job so I'm not always wondering about money and if I have any, I need so much
After Maria I was happy to be alone for a while, well I'm over that now, so I throw myself into these situations that aren't good for me.
so the questions
where should I go
back to school? to Richmond? to school in Richmond?
stay near home? what if mom gets sick again? will I be close enough? oh lord don't let her be dying
thers always St. Louis....jenny could get me a job, eventually go to school out there
Or go out west with Ashley, how long untill I fall in love with her and she breaks my heart? how long untill I realize I'm only wasting money again in a strange town full of strangers?
where's the woman of my dreams? I'm ready for her
I can only sit so long and not feel like I'm not going anywhere
yes I know 21 is young but I feel like I'm wasting my youth...everyone I know is graduationg or on the 5 year plan or something
god damned depression...leave me alone, let me sleep at night again, let me breath, let me live
going to a bar alone is so depressing too, and why do only men hit on me...I'd love to be picked up by a woman, damn if I only had the nearve or the small talk to go up to someone
I hate small talk bullshit...I want to get to know you, get down to whats real
I just want to get to know you, who ever you are, I just don't want to be alone
I just remebered the song from An American tale...the little girl mouse sings..."some where out there...."
I wish I had it in me to cry
I feel so alone these days, I just don't want to be alone anymore
once again I'm saying things that I've only said over and over agin the last few years...I need to find people that are intresting my own age, I need to figure out what I want, I need a good job so I'm not always wondering about money and if I have any, I need so much
After Maria I was happy to be alone for a while, well I'm over that now, so I throw myself into these situations that aren't good for me.
so the questions
where should I go
back to school? to Richmond? to school in Richmond?
stay near home? what if mom gets sick again? will I be close enough? oh lord don't let her be dying
thers always St. Louis....jenny could get me a job, eventually go to school out there
Or go out west with Ashley, how long untill I fall in love with her and she breaks my heart? how long untill I realize I'm only wasting money again in a strange town full of strangers?
where's the woman of my dreams? I'm ready for her
I can only sit so long and not feel like I'm not going anywhere
yes I know 21 is young but I feel like I'm wasting my youth...everyone I know is graduationg or on the 5 year plan or something
god damned depression...leave me alone, let me sleep at night again, let me breath, let me live
going to a bar alone is so depressing too, and why do only men hit on me...I'd love to be picked up by a woman, damn if I only had the nearve or the small talk to go up to someone
I hate small talk bullshit...I want to get to know you, get down to whats real
I just want to get to know you, who ever you are, I just don't want to be alone
I just remebered the song from An American tale...the little girl mouse sings..."some where out there...."
I wish I had it in me to cry
I feel so alone these days, I just don't want to be alone anymore