so i got some few months here. that is incredibly awesome and i owe my incredible benefactor a cute picture. hit me up and i will send you a partial nude.
thanks for the little bit of sunshine in my life right now.
although the sun hasnt been going down until about 5.30 now instead of 3.30.
sunday is my birthday im having sushi.
yum.
thanks for the little bit of sunshine in my life right now.
although the sun hasnt been going down until about 5.30 now instead of 3.30.
sunday is my birthday im having sushi.
yum.
so i guess its time to update. here is my big news. i have none. there thats it. nothing to report. which i guess is in and of itself news. no gnews is good gnews with gary gnu.
and oh yeah i just bought Prisoner
and oh yeah i just bought Prisoner
ok so things are going well now. i have been teaching english to a group, which is fun. I still am exhausted and don't really think that any extra iron is going to help really. Anemia is kinda making me feel older than hell. like going to bed before 8 oclock old. im working on getting the plans together to approach a business partner about opening a clothing shop. he told ove he would back almost anything ove had in mind and we have approached a number of wholesalers and have all the information we need. just need to do a proposal and mock website to present.
im listening to a metal version of tainted love (not marilyn manson) and thats it for me, you?
im listening to a metal version of tainted love (not marilyn manson) and thats it for me, you?
so things have been getting better but i still have days where i slide down, but for some reason i know that things will get better so i can always pick myself up. 
oro's name always cracks me up when i see it because oro means anxiety in swedish.
i just burned my arm on the oven which i had just turned on literally maybe only 3 minutes prior to burning myself and it was on 50 degrees celcius.(ummm how is celcius spelled then?) it doesnt look right and i get a red thing but who knows?
i have a relationship problem...someone is going to get hurt. how do i unhurt someone? what do you do when you want your cake and icing, ice cream, and all the toppings?
oro's name always cracks me up when i see it because oro means anxiety in swedish.
i just burned my arm on the oven which i had just turned on literally maybe only 3 minutes prior to burning myself and it was on 50 degrees celcius.(ummm how is celcius spelled then?) it doesnt look right and i get a red thing but who knows?
i have a relationship problem...someone is going to get hurt. how do i unhurt someone? what do you do when you want your cake and icing, ice cream, and all the toppings?
i have an inner ear infection, it makes me dizzy. i was supposed to go see einsturzende nuebauten yesterday but the pressure in my ears was too bad. that makes me sad. 
but oh well life goes on it does.
ten years ago i would not have been sure. im getting old.
my grandma's hip broke the other day and she fell down. that has got to suck just to be standing there and break a bone.
i have pneumonia too. it sucks to hear yourself breathe like a 98 year old. it would be scary if i woke up and couldnt hear myself at this point. i have a job interview tomorrow.
i dont know it could be too stressful. i am not up to much at this point.
i am going with a friend to get tattooed next week. he is getting swallows carrying a banner with his grandfathers name. his grandfather passed away recently. i think its a nice idea to honour him.
me...i will just fight the urge to get more ink. i need to have several fixed.
but oh well life goes on it does.ten years ago i would not have been sure. im getting old.
my grandma's hip broke the other day and she fell down. that has got to suck just to be standing there and break a bone.
i have pneumonia too. it sucks to hear yourself breathe like a 98 year old. it would be scary if i woke up and couldnt hear myself at this point. i have a job interview tomorrow.
i dont know it could be too stressful. i am not up to much at this point.
i am going with a friend to get tattooed next week. he is getting swallows carrying a banner with his grandfathers name. his grandfather passed away recently. i think its a nice idea to honour him.
me...i will just fight the urge to get more ink. i need to have several fixed.
so, my friends, part of my delay back to sg was because i was hospitalized for manic depression. im more depressed than manic at the moment, which i can deal with but the mania keeps me up and thinking, and not good thoughts.
the depression stage is taking its toll too, i at this moment cant stand anyone or anything, im impatient, im bored, im aggressive, and easy to anger.
i sleep up to 20 hours a day and believe me would do more if i could.
top 10 ways you know youre emo:
1. you listen to my chemical romance
2. you listen to my chemical romance
3. you have teen age girl crushes on my chemical romance.
4. you buy everything you can that says you like afore mentioned band
5. you listen to pantera to get the anger out and it makes you want to fuck so you can be sad again.
6. the rammstein video of mann geghen mann turns you on only cuz you want to see them naked and then look at naked mcr pic.
7. you wish it wasnt that dork pete whats his butt that had penis pictures spread across the internet but mikey way
8 you buy the most square glasses black framed of course and cut you hair short so you can spike it after dying it black.
9. the dead kennedys fail to cheer you up
10. the desert song is on repeat on you play list.
ok
the depression stage is taking its toll too, i at this moment cant stand anyone or anything, im impatient, im bored, im aggressive, and easy to anger.
i sleep up to 20 hours a day and believe me would do more if i could.
top 10 ways you know youre emo:
1. you listen to my chemical romance
2. you listen to my chemical romance
3. you have teen age girl crushes on my chemical romance.
4. you buy everything you can that says you like afore mentioned band
5. you listen to pantera to get the anger out and it makes you want to fuck so you can be sad again.
6. the rammstein video of mann geghen mann turns you on only cuz you want to see them naked and then look at naked mcr pic.
7. you wish it wasnt that dork pete whats his butt that had penis pictures spread across the internet but mikey way
8 you buy the most square glasses black framed of course and cut you hair short so you can spike it after dying it black.
9. the dead kennedys fail to cheer you up
10. the desert song is on repeat on you play list.
ok
sometimes i wonder if my minute miniscule existence matters to anyone but myself. then i know it does.
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