For sometime I have been coming to grips with the fact that in most cases understanding that something happens is much more important than understanding why it happens. The reason for this is it is very rare to fully understand why; there are too many variables that can hinder the conclusion and upon finding each one you will instantly try to eliminate it to solve the why, leaving the whole process stunted and flawed. But when you just understand that it will happen one can mentally prepare for the coming juxtaposition on anything. As long as every situation is analyzed logically it can quickly be taken as truth and everyone concerned can proceed on, still realizing that very soon it will change again. It’s extremely hard for people to be this versatile when it comes to discussing reality. To most, this is this and that is that. Period. For me it has never been that way and I can not perceive it ever being that way. Reality and perception are so often tossed around as definitive states. Reality exists as it does and our perception of it falls in line accordingly, each person’s being minutely different. It is just not so (many of you may be shaking your heads saying ‘obviously, I knew that’ for all intensive purposes just shut up and read.) Perception and reality are things that must constantly change in accordance to the information provided from the world around you. A profound event isn’t needed, not even something novel. In fact, in each instance even the most mundane and repetitive action is a new event. New events which can alter your perception even though you do that very thing everyday. Your heart has beat since the day you were born but in a moment you can feel it in such a way that your perception of why you work at a horrible six dollar and fifty cents an hour job could change. Suddenly you are sitting in a park realizing you quit. All from, and in, a heart beat.
When this sudden pop in the brain occurred and I started to look around me I realized I was extremely alienating to most people. Some call me erratic, others illogical, sometimes even ignorant. None of these descriptions are totally accurate. In the end, people simply misinterpret me and therefore I misrepresent myself. The key to leading a more coherent existence is self control. Not just amongst your vices but in everything. Most important of which is thought. It is the root of all action, even inaction as it is the act of being inactive. One, I, must first learn to focus my mind before I can apply true change and exercise real control over my actions. Meditation. Prayer. Logical computations. All processes that people go threw in order to attain focus and control of their lives.
Self realization is the act of becoming fully aware of who you are. This should the most important priority for every man, woman and child through out the world. The better you understand your own life and thoughts the easier it is for you to understand the thoughts and lives of others. I can not envision a better . . . sorry lost my train of thought.