relethed

sigh.

wtf

what's the point.
what does this matter.
nothing changes, i don't change, circumstances don't change.

oh, the melodrama, and no meaning

what do i think i'm building? who will see it? what good is a piece of work that only attracts cobwebs?
if only i could start life at a different time, all by myself, on a different planet.

with sky blue water,...
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a lonely week. my friend was on vacation from work last week, and had promised to call so we could hang out--she never called. then didn't mention it when we next saw each other. it's also been difficult to get anything going here on the site with people--i guess everyone has their own life. hell, i haven't posted to my journal but twice in the...
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things were looking up, then i found out i have a viral infection and laryngitis...so now things are just looking straight across.

my story is not shaping up. now i know why reverie is so appealing--because, in it, everything is just how we imagine it to be. whereas my screen-bound story is just...everything it really is.

i had an awful dream last night. i was...
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how did i manage to put the same thing in twice?

so.
i guess as i am a brand new member i will pay my dues of loneliness for a while. i suppose starting a journal will be one good step--sort of emotive masturbation.
hello? hello? i am the tree.

so although the internet community idea has been around for years now, i still find myself asking the same ?'s--how true are people to themselves, how...
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