So I've been here maybe a month now and i havent really done anything constructive.. thinking about writing this has been something of a drag, for two reasons..

first, i never know what to write or what to say.

and

secondly, i have an addiction.. and its name is skyrim..

but seeing as i was up at half 5 this morning ready to drive 100 miles to work, then realised its actually tomorrow, i've had some time to think.

So heres really where i am with things now..

I'm in my early thirties (which isnt as bad as it feels when you're in your late 20's).

I have a steady job that used to be amazing and now its just ok (but with things the way they are im grateful i have a job)..

I work with a guy that at one time i could call a friend, but now we barely speak and i think he's a yes man (luckily for me its a view shared by almost everyone else that works there)..

I've started seeing someone in the last few months that has changed my life for the better and embraced everything about me, my joys and sorrows, my ability to never be wrong ( although i am wrong most of the time.. just dont tell her i admitted it), the fact i have a child from a previous relationship.. everything about my world has been embraced by this amazing woman and i wake up next to her most days and im smiling..

That for me is a first, i've never had a relationship with a woman where i've woken up and smiled.. usually i'm bleary eyed and groggy.. Who knows, i may still be that way, but now i do it with a smile on my face..

I think thats about all i can think of at this early hour.. but if anyone actually reads this and wants to know something, well just comment or send me a message.

until next time,

Red

So I've been here maybe a month now and i havent really done anything constructive.. thinking about writing this has been something of a drag, for two reasons..

first, i never know what to write or what to say.

and

secondly, i have an addiction.. and its name is skyrim..

but seeing as i was up at half 5 this morning ready to drive 100 miles to work, then realised its actually tomorrow, i've had some time to think.

So heres really where i am with things now..

I'm in my early thirties (which isnt as bad as it feels when you're in your late 20's).

I have a steady job that used to be amazing and now its just ok (but with things the way they are im grateful i have a job)..

I work with a guy that at one time i could call a friend, but now we barely speak and i think he's a yes man (luckily for me its a view shared by almost everyone else that works there)..

I've started seeing someone in the last few months that has changed my life for the better and embraced everything about me, my joys and sorrows, my ability to never be wrong ( although i am wrong most of the time.. just dont tell her i admitted it), the fact i have a child from a previous relationship.. everything about my world has been embraced by this amazing woman and i wake up next to her most days and im smiling..

That for me is a first, i've never had a relationship with a woman where i've woken up and smiled.. usually i'm bleary eyed and groggy.. Who knows, i may still be that way, but now i do it with a smile on my face..

I think thats about all i can think of at this early hour.. but if anyone actually reads this and wants to know something, well just comment or send me a message.

until next time,

Red