Alright well the laptop.... is working fine for now. I updated the BIOS and some other shit and I'm hoping it'll be fine for awhile.
Soooo yeah! I'm really happy I've been able to go through the majority of all my stuff and clear out/donate a bunch of stuff! I've got my room organized perfectly
Not much new going on around here... same old thing work and... work! I can't seem to motivate myself to really create anything at the moment, I dunno what that's all about :\
wow..... I just had this sweeping wave of despair wash over me......
So my plans are just falling through... transferring offices with the PO is no go I'll have to reapply and maybe get a job that might pay close to what I'm getting now... the possible roommate situation I thought might work out seems like it isn't going to happen... in about 2 weeks I'm going to have no mode of transportation other than my roller blades... I could use the money in my savings(I've been saving it for emergencies in case I can't find a job in Gville) to buy a motorcycle(I know nothing about them), try and find some way to take the motorcycle class almost 2 hrs away...I have no idea what I'm doing with my life anymore, if I ever knew in the first place... my parents can't help me with anything.... so.... I'm all alone in everything and I feel just a bit like I'm sinking and this time I'm not going to come up.... I don't want to be dependent on anyone but it seems like that's my fate.... I'm too weak to do anything by myself but I'll never ask for help..... I feel so old in a lot of respects and it makes my inexperience and "youngness" aggravatingly and glaringly obvious to me and I can't stand it... I feel like a fish with only one fin, perpetually swimming in a circle until it dies......
*sigh.... I guess I really must be unpleasant, not fun, or boring to be around because no one ever wants to do anything with me, I'll call someone and they either can't/don't want to/ or have other plans. Always. Without fail. No one ever invites me to anything ever..... I must really suck that none of the of the people I know around here want to hangout or be around me because I know I don't smell bad :\
Ok I'm done whining now... I'm gonna go crawl under a rock..........
Soooo yeah! I'm really happy I've been able to go through the majority of all my stuff and clear out/donate a bunch of stuff! I've got my room organized perfectly
Not much new going on around here... same old thing work and... work! I can't seem to motivate myself to really create anything at the moment, I dunno what that's all about :\
wow..... I just had this sweeping wave of despair wash over me......
So my plans are just falling through... transferring offices with the PO is no go I'll have to reapply and maybe get a job that might pay close to what I'm getting now... the possible roommate situation I thought might work out seems like it isn't going to happen... in about 2 weeks I'm going to have no mode of transportation other than my roller blades... I could use the money in my savings(I've been saving it for emergencies in case I can't find a job in Gville) to buy a motorcycle(I know nothing about them), try and find some way to take the motorcycle class almost 2 hrs away...I have no idea what I'm doing with my life anymore, if I ever knew in the first place... my parents can't help me with anything.... so.... I'm all alone in everything and I feel just a bit like I'm sinking and this time I'm not going to come up.... I don't want to be dependent on anyone but it seems like that's my fate.... I'm too weak to do anything by myself but I'll never ask for help..... I feel so old in a lot of respects and it makes my inexperience and "youngness" aggravatingly and glaringly obvious to me and I can't stand it... I feel like a fish with only one fin, perpetually swimming in a circle until it dies......
*sigh.... I guess I really must be unpleasant, not fun, or boring to be around because no one ever wants to do anything with me, I'll call someone and they either can't/don't want to/ or have other plans. Always. Without fail. No one ever invites me to anything ever..... I must really suck that none of the of the people I know around here want to hangout or be around me because I know I don't smell bad :\
Ok I'm done whining now... I'm gonna go crawl under a rock..........
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My life now is redo of a failure of mine from over 8 years ago. So it's ok to be discouraged, just as long as you try. Don't give up before you try my dear.
I also see a positive in the fact that you want to go out & you want to be with people. It would be different if they wanted to party & you didn't. Hang in there Radii, things come around