I hear that phrase in my head, everytime my ex Tiffany and I communicate. She was a nightmare to deal with, yet I feel indebted to her, like a victim of Stockholm syndrome. She tells me daily how she misses me, and how she wants to work things out. I am starting to realize its only a ploy to keep me loyal to her and away from other females.
"You deserve better than this."
There's someone out there for everyone, and although I don't know who that is, I know it's not a person who gave up on me, twice in 3 weeks. Someone that although we lived together, spent 5-7 nights a week sleeping in separate rooms, and in those 0-2 nights a week we shared the bed, spent 0% of that time recretionally.
Still I sacrifice to make even the break up a more pleasant experience. I didn't carry out any of the threats to make the vacation she went on wthout me, less enjoyable. I stil turn down all offers for female companionship, even if it's only platonic.
I just wish I could forget and move on. It's tough to avoid the old cliche "You get what you deserve."; yet believe I deserve better than what I have. I'm so exhausted... So exhausted. I wish brains had a "sleep mode".