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OCTOBER 13, 2010 @ 06:33 AM | NO COMMENTS


To make a deal with the Devil...

So let me create the setting for you… I currently sit in front of my MacBook Pro, to which I've just freshly installed World of WarCraft, ran my updates, and am now sitting here debating whether to login and dive headfirst into an online reality.

And then I realize the problem: for every minute I'm lost in a virtual world, I lose a minute in our tangible, shared reality.

This is worrisome for me.

A very long time ago, I realized that the most valuable thing someone can spend is time. It's the one thing that there is always less of, and until we as a species can copy our consciousnesses into pocket sized super computers and become no longer tethered to this shell of biological matter, we shall always be akin to a lit fuse, leading not to some sort of explosive, but instead to an infinite black nothingness.

I believe that we as a culture are becoming obsessed with this idea, although we're not specifically conscious of it. As far back as history itself, we've looked beyond this world of light and air and promise and pain into the realm of ideas, dreams, and a place where time has much less meaning, sometimes none at all.

As I see it, we currently experience our reality as a 1:1 ratio. 1 second equals 1 second. Wouldn't it be amazing if we could somehow trick our brains into experiencing thirty or fifty times as much? Where one minute is transmuted into a half an hour, or even a whole hour? We would trade a minute for a full day, an hour for full months at a time, and days for years?

The recent blockbuster film Inception briefly explores the concept, where in the dream, every minute is an hour. Also, I've recently read a prequel to the upcoming TRON film, that revolves around the idea of attempting to share time between two worlds, one moving in our normal time, and a second, moving hundreds of times faster.

This becomes the ultimate question: what shall we have to do to gain this ability to stretch our time, and once gained, would you be willing to trade moments in one reality for ages in another? This begs another question of 'What IS reality'? As much as I loathe quoting or citing something currently as cliché as The Matrix, one can't ignore the point they were trying to make, the premise they created as the base of that entire franchise: Reality is whatever your mind says it is.

I say, 'Bring it on', and 'Where do I sign up'. If I were given an opportunity to spend the first ten years of my life in normal reality 'having a childhood', and then the next ten stretched into either decades or centuries, where I could constantly be learning, experiencing, growing intellectually and maturing as a person into sometime hopefully better, wiser… I would willingly make that sacrifice. Ten years of mortality for a few hundred years of experience and information. Even if it's only a simulation, wouldn't that be preferred? You come out the other end only physically being a young man or woman, but with the mind of someone who has seen and done it all.

My conclusion is that I feel like there is something on the other side of these sheets of glass and metal, not a sense of immortality not yet, but instead a sense of prolonged life. If a man could life through one set of mistakes, and apply what he's learned to a fresh, new set of circumstances, wouldn't the world be better for it? Would we not better feel charity for each other and humility for ourselves?

My question is, if you could, would you?
OCTOBER 9, 2010 @ 11:36 PM | 3 COMMENTS


I've got nothing to report. But then again, no one really reads my nonsense anyway. WOOOOOO!
SEPTEMBER 12, 2010 @ 10:07 PM | 1 COMMENT


Hey,

Anyone wanna go out on a date with me?

-Wm.
AUGUST 14, 2010 @ 12:48 AM | 1 COMMENT


Ok, so I've really been thinking about my whole self identity thing. I realize a long time ago (and I mean a decade or two) that I'm a huge nerd. After reading some stuff a friend of mine has been posting online lately (thanks Bob-o/Bob Suicide), I decided to lay it all out, and let the world know just how geeky I really am:

I grew up watching StarTrek, going to conventions (SoonerCon and ThunderCon, in Oklahoma City), dressing up as a Klingon when I was like 8. I have a Klingon name. No, you will never know what it is.

I read Batman Comic Books from the time I could read, and my mother dressed me up as Batman for my second or third halloween (I have photos of this somewhere, and yes, it explains all the black clothing and my love of everything stealthy).

I attended the rerelease of all three original StarWars Films (and created a never ending bond with my best friend over these and Highlander: The Series) Speaking of Highlander, my mother bought me Connor's sword for my 19th birthday. Fucking RAD. It hung on my wall for years, until I moved to San Francisco.

My first video-game I REALLY got into was Wolfenstein 3D, and then DOOM, but my brother and I also played through SpaceQuest 1-3 before those even came out (Sierra Games, FTW), along with King's Quest, and Police Quest. In Middle School, my older brother got me into the White Wolf Games 'Werewolf: The Apocalypse' and 'Vampire: The Masquerade'. And here's a fun fact, the name 'Fairaday' that I've used since I was 14 or so is actually a reference to one of my brother's characters in 'Werewolf' (I think, I'd have to check with him).

In high school, when I wasn't working or fancying myself as some sorta wannabe rockstar, I spent MOST of my off time playing StarCraft or Quake 2 with my brother and my closest friends. We continued to have LAN parties up until I moved away, and anytime I go back home, there's always the question: 'Who wants to play StarCraft tonight?'

Since starting college, I gave up a lot of the geeky shit, so that I could at least TRY to focus on school, and what I realized is that my design ethos, my vision, my core values of my art has EVERYTHING to do with my love of science fiction, video-games, and fantasy. I truly have a desire to make the future real, and to make it NOW. I'd start working on a design project and pull inspiration from either ROBOTS, Industrial Design, Futurism, or muthafuckin' BATMAN.

Hell, right now, I've got a Bat-a-rang mounted on the wall above my desk next to a StarCraft 2 2010 calendar, underneath a shelf full of fuckin' toys, models, and a ROBO-PANDA plushy (with a smaller panda in it's head driving). My bookshelf is filled with just as many books on concept and video-game design and artwork as it is with fashion design, philosophy and Art History.

Wow. I'm a huge freakin' nerd. This is who I am. I'm surrounded by all of these things that inspire me, make me laugh, remind me of good times with good friends...

So here's some info on my geek cred:

1. Batman trumps everyone. He can beat Superman in a fight, because he's planned ahead. He's the ultimate tactician.
2. Sorry, Picard is better than Kirk. Maybe it's just because that's what I'm most familiar with. But I DO love both characters, and their actors. Sir Patrick Stewart is one of the best there'll ever be, and Bill Shatner never ceases to astound. 'There's.... some... THING... on the wing! Some... THING.... is out there!'
3. I beta tested World of Warcraft classic, alpha tested Burning Crusade, beta tested Wrath of the Lich King, and I'm very much looking forward to all of the changes for Cataclysm.
4. I also beta tested StarCraft 2. Gaaaaaah... so much fun. I can't wait to go back home and get everyone in on a game at my dad's house again.
5. Speaking of SC2, I ended up buying two copies. The direct download, and then the collectors edition. Because I wanted to DogTags and the Thor in game pet for WoW. and for the Art and Making of Book. and for the Cinematics DVD. and for the soundtrack. and for the giant freakin' box it all comes in.
6. My favorite literature series is DUNE. I've read all but the Chapterhouse Books. And that's only because I've been lazy recently.
7. In regards to literature, I've started reading tons of cyberpunk: SnowCrash, Neuromancer... soooo good.
8. I think that console games are handicapped. Give me a keyboard and mouse any day.
9. In the absence of everyone back home, I've started fraggin' the hell outta my roommate in Unreal Tournament 2004. I'm rather impressed and look forward to upcoming titles of the franchise.
10. Before typing up this post, I was screwin' around and decided to type up an oldschool character sheet like what we'd used back in the day with our WhiteWolf gaming characters... except, this one is for me personally, in real life. Kinda puts things into perspective and really makes me want to improve on certain stats:

Stats: (Most stats of on a 1-5 scale, 1 being most basic, 3 being average, 5 being supernatural)
Strength: 2 (average… meh)
Dexterity: 2 (again, average…)
Stamina: 3 or 4 (I commit, goddamnit)
Charisma: 3 (I'm pleasant)
Manipulation: 1 (I'm a bit of a push over… let's be honest)
Appearance: 3 (I'm ok, I guess… good looking, but not stop traffic sorta good looking)
Perception: 3 (I'm pretty aware of what's going on around me)
Intelligence: 5 (I'm not crazy, my mother had me tested)
Wits: 4 (I'm pretty sharp. I roll with the punches)

Alertness: 2
Empathy: 2
Intimidation: 3 "You have an unsettling gaze." lawlz.
Persuasion: 3
Subterfuge: 3
Crafts: 2
Drive: 2
Etiquette: 3
Firearms: 2
Leadership: 2
Melee: 1
Performance: 1
Stealth: 3
Survival: 3
Computer: 2
Enigmas: 3
Investigation: 1
Law: 1
Lore: 2
Medicine: 1
Politics: 1
Science: 3
Mentor: 1
Resources: 2
Willpower: 5 (out of 10)

Merits and Flaws:
Code of Honor (+1 Merit)
Higher Purpose (+1 Merit)
Overconfidence (-1 Flaw)
Phobia (-1 Flaw, Heights)
Common Sense (+1 Merit)
Self-Confident (+5 Merit)
Computer Aptitude (+1 Merit)
Mechanical Aptitude (+1 Merit) (I once removed an engine block from my car, fully disassembled it, repaired it, rebuilt it and had the car back up and running in 8 hours. Hellz yeah.)
Fast Learner (+3 Merit)
Jack of All Trades (+5 Merit)
True Love (+1 Merit)
Art Affinity (+5 Merit)
Reputation (+2 Merit)


So yeah. There's my geek cred.
AUGUST 8, 2010 @ 07:33 PM | NO COMMENTS


I always find it terribly difficult to meet ladies here in SF. Anyone wanna grab coffee sometime with this super rad and available bachelor? I'm great for interesting, intellectual, entertaining conversation! And I'm not so bad on the eyes!

lawlz.


But seriously, hey, you, internet world, let's hangout, afk.

Werd.

-Wm.
JULY 11, 2010 @ 10:11 PM | 1 COMMENT


i am a sexual tyrannosaurus.
MAY 8, 2010 @ 06:33 PM | 3 COMMENTS


I don't attend SG Prom because I don't get asked to it. Just sayin'.

-Wm.
APRIL 3, 2010 @ 07:36 PM | 1 COMMENT


So, after spending a ton of time at the SG booth this weekend, being entertained and charmed by these wonderful ladies... gah... *swoon*.

Dino, you're flippin' adorable!

Ridley, you're amazing, and I love you! but you already know this! EEEE!!!

Squeak, Gah! I think you and I are going to be good friends! Hanging out with you has totally made my weekend! No, MY MONTH!

Bob, you're freakin' rad, so much fun to hangout with!

Dice, I know we didnt really talk, but... gah... you're so beautiful in person, I had no idea it was possible to be moreso than your photos!

Cherry! EEE!!! You're gorgeous and so charming!

Everyone else, I'm sorry I can't remember ALL of your names, but WOW! You're all unbelievable!

Thank you all so much!
MARCH 12, 2010 @ 11:42 AM | NO COMMENTS


I just realized that people are leaving me blog comments as a responds to my twitter feed. That's cooool. If you wanna follow me on twitter though, my user name is Fairaday.

so do it suckas.

and feel free to leave all the comments you want, it makes me feel loved.

-Wm.
JANUARY 26, 2010 @ 12:02 PM | 3 COMMENTS


I've had an interesting life epiphany as of late.

Since I moved to SF, I've done nothing but make compromises. Most of them were just the usual 'how to live together without killing one another' sort. But a few of them were the sort where I had to lay aside certain ideals of who I really believe I am.

I was on the phone with an ex, who is also one of my best friends, who I also have claimed to be head over heels in love with for quite some time, the other night, and she's trying to give me relationship advice... this coming from someone who, in my opinion, seems to seek validation by dating someone new on almost a monthly basis. Ten years ago, I would have been disgusted by someone like that, and today, I find myself fawning over her every action. I realized this... and I just started laughing to myself. I thought, "What the fuck am I doing?" I've been investing my emotional security into people who really aren't worth the effort or energy in hopes that they might change, realize how much I care about them, and magically come running to me. That's seriously the most idiotic thing I think I could ever do. So, with that being said, I've decided to stop making compromises altogether, when it comes to my ideals, my beliefs.

I'll admit, I'm an idealist. I'm also a bit of an elitist, too. I look only for quality people, worth knowing, worth investing time into. Now, honestly, ANYONE can be worthwhile to the right person/people. With me, I look for people who enrich my life, who make me happy to get out of bed in the morning, people who compliment my own traits and skills and merits, but who also help me correct my faults and flaws. I believe that in SF, I know only a handful of people who I consider valuable to me in those ways.

As superficial as that may sound, finding value in another person can be as simple as having someone to talk to in a social setting (I know a few people who I value like this), and just because there hasn't been a chance to find further value in someone beyond that, it doesn't mean that a higher level of value doesn't exist.

On the flip-side, there are tons of people who I find worthless to me. Usually not because of any malicious feeling I have toward them, instead they've usually either caused me a great deal of turmoil or because they and I haven't yet created any sort of connection, however minor that it may be. With me, everyone starts at zero. It's up to them to determine which direction our relationship goes, positive or negative.

In relation to this girl I'm talking about, who I had this epiphany while talking to... the relationship becomes complex, especially when you're trying to simplify it to something as basic as a sort of number-line. What I have to decide is whether such a complicated situation is really valuable to my life as a whole and in the long run, and if it should be toned down, then take the necessary action to do so.

So. Other rules that I'm reinstating:

1. Do not date anyone you don't find attractive (physically, intellectually, etc, everything.)
2. Do not date anyone you couldn't see yourself in a long term relationship with.
3. Do not sleep with someone on the first date (or the second or third, wait a month, let the chemistry build, make sure you're not just doing it for the hell of it. I know in our sexually empowered culture, sex is considered a sport almost, but not to me, I still think it should be some sort of special bond)
4. NEVER SETTLE. If you do, you're lying to both the other person and yourself.
5. Always show confidence in your actions, whether in work, school, relationships, anything.
6. Always be the better person, but never give more than you're willing to lose.
7. Never take no for an answer.
8. Always strive to be better.
9. Always attempt to be constructive, in any situation. Unless the point is to be destructive, then be constructive in doing so.
10. Always trust your instincts (with situations and with other people, they're usually correct).

Ok, by the sound of the Tuesday air raid siren, it's time to go clean the apartment.

-Wm.
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