I've been having really vivid dreams a lot lately. Like, multiple in a week, which is a record for me. i usually have a vivid dream that i remember like a few times a year.
unfortunately there's been a recurring theme. Some kind of "incident" that involves a group of people (either family or my peers) and me being the badguy. Me getting into some kind of altercation or disagreement or argument where suddenly everybody is angry at me. everybody thinks i'm wrong. And I'm screaming and struggling to make these people understand that i'm not some horrible aweful person and i lose my voice. i'm freaking out trying to say something and a crowd of people is converging on me. ready to lock me away in an asylum, or dope me up on antidepressants, or just kill me and pretend I never existed. It's horrifying. feeling restrained. Wanting so badly to get away from someone or something and there are literally people holding you down. it's aweful
I've had at least 2 dreams that were that bad. there were others that felt like that, but not so extreme. It's always with people from the past. people from highschool. it feels like highschool, where nobody understands you and nobody listens and you don't know how to express anything you feel.
normally i don't put any stock in dreams. but a recurring dream means whatever it is that's causing it is ongoing. so i has some relevance.
but i like having dreams.
unfortunately there's been a recurring theme. Some kind of "incident" that involves a group of people (either family or my peers) and me being the badguy. Me getting into some kind of altercation or disagreement or argument where suddenly everybody is angry at me. everybody thinks i'm wrong. And I'm screaming and struggling to make these people understand that i'm not some horrible aweful person and i lose my voice. i'm freaking out trying to say something and a crowd of people is converging on me. ready to lock me away in an asylum, or dope me up on antidepressants, or just kill me and pretend I never existed. It's horrifying. feeling restrained. Wanting so badly to get away from someone or something and there are literally people holding you down. it's aweful
I've had at least 2 dreams that were that bad. there were others that felt like that, but not so extreme. It's always with people from the past. people from highschool. it feels like highschool, where nobody understands you and nobody listens and you don't know how to express anything you feel.
normally i don't put any stock in dreams. but a recurring dream means whatever it is that's causing it is ongoing. so i has some relevance.
but i like having dreams.
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You are right in what you say, however im not trying to deny my bad feelings since its been 3 days i was dealing with them, i just came to a point where its time to keep going instead of getting stuck in madness because there are other things that deserve the time i invest thinking and maybe over thinking.
About outgrowing people its hard, yeah specially cause somehow i really dont understand what happened or why things are how they are at the moment, but still its maybe just the way to show me that its time to move apart from what i thought were the persons that were going to last at least longer.
About your blog, i do have lots of vivid dreams and i love them, many dreams do tell you stuff about yourself which i wouldnt know how to interpret and i end up telling them to see what people come with, its usually awesome what people say and at some point you seem to find a conection or so i think anyway, i really wouldnt know what to tell about your dream, cause the only dream i have ever had about being restrained was one where i was being taken away from my father and some robbers were going to kill him, so i tried to got in between and got shot after that i just felt and couldnt get up again and felt a huge weight... during my actual live at the moment of my dream my father was recently dead, so it was a pretty much clear dream for me.... maybe you just need to think a bit more about your daily stuff and see the conections?
This was a super long comment but then again, thanks a lot for passing by my blog and the nice and smart words.