Since my last post the rest of July and the first couple weeks of August really wrapped up the summer well. Many epic days/weekends and good times. I honestly shouldn't complain. I could go on and on about a girl I met which its just absolutely perfect in every way I can envision a person being; every single quality I would have chosen and more. I could rant about the group of awesome friends I have and some of the great times this summer. Na.

There is certainly some kind of seriously odd pattern emerging that was joked about for a while though now is working to become quite an odd obstacle which is out of my control. On the other side of things there is a second pattern seemingly in development that is of concern. Frustration is bound.

One thing I'm quite certain about is the strong sense I'm increasingly suffering from separation anxiety. This is not ideal for a number of reasons, though for me most seriously because I believe its seriously affecting my productivity. Not sure what to do about it at this point, though hoping to identify a few solutions to its resolution.

Just over a month I’ll be 31, and I’m still not sure age has a strict relevance though it tends to represent the seasons of my life which have gone by. As much as I feel focused I’m honestly adrift, not sure where I stand or even what direction to go in. I recently found myself in a girl’s bed shortly after meeting her at a bar while playing pool with my roommate. As much as I appreciated the situation at the time, I find myself more distressed after the fact, merely because I actually liked the qualities and beauty in this person. I’m never sure where to place the absence of female companionship in my life and I’m generally frustrated it seems to be apparent sometimes though also adding to my sense of lost wondering.

In any case, opportunities are on the horizon and although its early to speculate which might be valid truly. I’m nervous about my credit rating being a hindrance in all cases of job opportunities or just all out getting rejected. This is due to the face I decided to leave a steady well paying job in order to attempt a software start-up with a friend. As start-ups go, we haven’t yet found funding and I’ve fallen seriously behind in most of my bills.

I think its completely odd how lost and seemingly alone I’ve felt over the past few months even though I have some great friends, like brothers and sisters to me. Its only when I’ve had a few drinks that I seem to let go and accept that although I’m lost I’m still generally happy, however this clashes with how much I beat myself up for drinking, sometimes 6 nights a week. I’m doing my best to not abuse my body and stay healthy but the factors under which I allow myself to bend the rules occur all too often it seems. The first being my personal gauge on how depressed I feel and the attempt to curb it. Second being my roommate and us some what being in a similar situation and just trying to be a good friend. I often wonder if we’re just a crutch for one another.

Take things as they are.

Song of the Month
Frightened Rabbit “Living in Colour”
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Show of the Summer
Monotonix @ Rhino (Denver)


Band of the Month
Builders and Butchers

Funny how quickly things change, though unfortunate when you start to realize the extent of ones personal travesty in which they are fighting to escape.

Anyway, SF was fun.. got to see a couple a great bands (The Phenomenauts and Cobra Skulls) and, fairly randomly, went on a coffee date with someone who was of the old punk rock stomping ground in Colorado Springs. Oddly small world sometimes.

Back in Denver and getting shit done, so glad spring is here.. Gardening will soon commence!

A fucking whirlwind since February. Mexico didn't go as planned, Typhoid and 2 days in the hospital, no WRC, fell back in love with the girl I was breaking up with though I'm glad we seperated.

Blythe, California for the business, went well.. not much sleep. Scottsdale following for a few days, then back to Denver. Heartache for a week followed by brilliance!

As much as I dislike OkCupid I actually met someone completely compatible and amazing. This past weekend was incredible; new girl, friends, family, sandbox and toy cars with a nephew.

This week I'm off to SF to hangout, see some shows and hopefully talk to some Venture Capital peoples. Know anyone?

No photos yet though hopefully soon.

Many new things to speak of so finally I figured I'd post. Well, since the race in September not really much progress on the car, as its been cold and I've been with a slight lack of funding to get it fixed. Recently I quit my job of 2.5 years with CSC to pursue a start-up that a friend and I have been working on for a few months now. We've been making progress and am quite excited and nervous about this upcoming week when we do our beta launch at 100 Acre Wood Rally in Salem, Missouri.

Once that has been completed, the girl and I are headed to Mexico, for some vacation-ish time and the WRC Mexico. Although Rally isn't quite her thing, (erf) should be an interesting trip since she has family down there whom we'll be staying with in Mexico City and Cylya. Should be interesting...

If your a Rally fan and/or your just into racing, post a comment and I'll get you into our beta test for this upcoming rally.

Halloween time...



from the throws of a bush, where you once grew
befriended by us, a face we drew
as life is bittersweet, you may become our stew

done.

Wow, been a bit. I've been wedged in between so many things it makes me dizzy. Well Steamboat is coming up soon, details on that later. In many ways I can't wait until I get there.

Hung out with Megze and Mr. Dex and we all had lots of fun at Water World. Yaay!