I really dont understand sometimes why things happen to me the way they do. I am an honest person, and first and foremost myself. People see me as a bitch, which I dont deny that I am... but its not me 100%. Being a bitch isnt what makes up my life, its what balances it. I have had my share of ups and downs and in and outs... but its not a bad thing. Its life experiences, that I have learned from and grown from and thats what has made me, me.
I have been called names, even jumped by girls. Slapped when there was truly no need and have had love ripped out of my life. I have held an angel, which many cannot say, and then pointed the finger at for this precious angel going away. I have done my share of drugs and cleaned up my act. I have made important decisions that affected myself in a negative way, but bettered the life of my own creation. It disgust me that out of this some people will only see the negative things, and will never see the positive... and yet this I really dont understand...
Why is it that people see and point out the bad, yet they envy me so much? Why is it that when individuals are confronted, they shadow away and try to make the tables turn as if I am the bad one? Why is it that everything can go so smooth, and then get rocky then stormy and convert into my worlds destruction? Do you know why???
I have figured it out in my head, sort of... at least I think I have. I think its perhaps because at times I am a bit too outspoken. Or maybe its because my presence and the very thought of me is so alarming, that people attak me. I have turned many heads, made a room stop when I entered and even been heard in a crowd. And this is not to sound concited, nor above myself. I do apologize if I am a bit too confident, but its my right and a gift I have been granted to use to its full extent. I have always over analyzed every situation, never thinking of the outcome of course... and perhaps under analyzed the situations that needed the analyzing the most. I am NOT perfect nor will I ever be. There will always be some flaw, some imperfection. Yet these are the things that will make me beautiful and shine above the rest.
Not to put myself on a pedastool, but I am a true diamond in the rough. Elegeant, yet not afraid of grunge. Flawless, yet not afraid of change. Articulate, yet not afraid to say what is truly on my mind. Cold hearted, yet not afraid to love... and that is priceless...
I have been called names, even jumped by girls. Slapped when there was truly no need and have had love ripped out of my life. I have held an angel, which many cannot say, and then pointed the finger at for this precious angel going away. I have done my share of drugs and cleaned up my act. I have made important decisions that affected myself in a negative way, but bettered the life of my own creation. It disgust me that out of this some people will only see the negative things, and will never see the positive... and yet this I really dont understand...
Why is it that people see and point out the bad, yet they envy me so much? Why is it that when individuals are confronted, they shadow away and try to make the tables turn as if I am the bad one? Why is it that everything can go so smooth, and then get rocky then stormy and convert into my worlds destruction? Do you know why???
I have figured it out in my head, sort of... at least I think I have. I think its perhaps because at times I am a bit too outspoken. Or maybe its because my presence and the very thought of me is so alarming, that people attak me. I have turned many heads, made a room stop when I entered and even been heard in a crowd. And this is not to sound concited, nor above myself. I do apologize if I am a bit too confident, but its my right and a gift I have been granted to use to its full extent. I have always over analyzed every situation, never thinking of the outcome of course... and perhaps under analyzed the situations that needed the analyzing the most. I am NOT perfect nor will I ever be. There will always be some flaw, some imperfection. Yet these are the things that will make me beautiful and shine above the rest.
Not to put myself on a pedastool, but I am a true diamond in the rough. Elegeant, yet not afraid of grunge. Flawless, yet not afraid of change. Articulate, yet not afraid to say what is truly on my mind. Cold hearted, yet not afraid to love... and that is priceless...
alfaduetto:
There are just so many people in this World that feel obligated to try and run someone else's life. Apparently they feel that they have been blessed with a much higher awareness of moral character than the rest of us. They will always be there and will constantly be trying to give you "correct" advise. So, all you can do is thank them and go on, otherwise, their feelings are easily hurt. Just remember we all must make our own mistakes, 'cause that's what makes us who we are. You'll do just fine by being yourself. If you try to be something someone else thinks you should be, life will be pure hell. BTW, Beautiful photoset. looks like an angel to me.