I'M FUCKIN BACK BITCHES!!! WOOT WOOT!!! 
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Dear SG Buddies:
So, I was cleaning out my email and funny how things should hang around. I found some stuff randomly tucked away in my "sent" section, I do not know why, because I had deleted them. I didn't want to keep this because it picked at me so badly, that nasty email cig's now ex-gf sent me after an innocent msg on msn...
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So, I was cleaning out my email and funny how things should hang around. I found some stuff randomly tucked away in my "sent" section, I do not know why, because I had deleted them. I didn't want to keep this because it picked at me so badly, that nasty email cig's now ex-gf sent me after an innocent msg on msn...
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el_duderino2:
you're better than all the drama that's fo sho.
hoorah for moving on.
hoorah for moving on.
meconqueso:
oh the drama of it all...
he is SO not healthy for you!
And yes, you will have to get on MSN! Though you can reach me through facebook too, and facebook has other contact info on it as well. Still another 6-7 weeks though.
he is SO not healthy for you!
And yes, you will have to get on MSN! Though you can reach me through facebook too, and facebook has other contact info on it as well. Still another 6-7 weeks though.
*very long post today*
Is frustrated the word? Or just lost; incredibly lost? I feel crippled, like I am not whole, and yet all my body parts are in working order. In fact, they are great. I am a little bit on the lean side, yes. The weight sort of melted away slowly like the snow soon will in order to give way to spring,...
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Is frustrated the word? Or just lost; incredibly lost? I feel crippled, like I am not whole, and yet all my body parts are in working order. In fact, they are great. I am a little bit on the lean side, yes. The weight sort of melted away slowly like the snow soon will in order to give way to spring,...
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bridgetwnpeddler:
That is because my life is soooo much less interesting than yours. 
No I really tried to post in a link to this site survey I took about "how much you are worth in bed" but I just could not get it to work right. So frustrated I just deleted the entry and left it blank.
Your blog on the other hand has been a flurry of activity that I can hardly keep up with. Your life is one adventure after another my friend.
You always come out on top. When it gets tough just remember you always come out the other side. It is the best thing to hold onto.. your experience. Also I am inclined to believe that as you age you will experience these ups and downs less and less as your experience tells you how to manage them better. I know... I lived it.
Best,
Sean
No I really tried to post in a link to this site survey I took about "how much you are worth in bed" but I just could not get it to work right. So frustrated I just deleted the entry and left it blank.
Your blog on the other hand has been a flurry of activity that I can hardly keep up with. Your life is one adventure after another my friend.
You always come out on top. When it gets tough just remember you always come out the other side. It is the best thing to hold onto.. your experience. Also I am inclined to believe that as you age you will experience these ups and downs less and less as your experience tells you how to manage them better. I know... I lived it.
Best,
Sean
el_duderino2:
i've always been numero 2 - i don't think there ever was a 1 but i wanted to be a 2.
i love that stars song by the by.
hope you're feeling well.
i love that stars song by the by.
hope you're feeling well.
So the hospital made me super super angry yesterday. when i went to the ER three weekends ago for suicidal thoughts and very vivid imagery going through my mind, which obviously got me very scared, a pretty significant breakdown, i did the right thing, the hard thing, and did what i had to do. and all they did was fuck me around royally the whole...
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curss:
I didn't realize you've been so down for so long hun...is you need me to vent to...lemmy know...i'm usually around but not on here too much right now...haven't been feeling so great either...but not as bad as it seems for you...gimme a shout back and we'll make an msn date to talk if you want to...please feel better soon sweety.
xo
xo
today nihly finally goes to see her psychiatrist, who will hopefully sort out her meds, which clearly are not working...
why i have to hunt down my doctor when he should have gotten in touch with me after i was at the fucking ER, i don't know. lame. very lame.
so if things need to be changed, i may be a lil' messy for awhile...
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why i have to hunt down my doctor when he should have gotten in touch with me after i was at the fucking ER, i don't know. lame. very lame.
so if things need to be changed, i may be a lil' messy for awhile...
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padre:
You know it tends to come to us naturally
I hope this guy helps out and isn't a pain about it
I hope this guy helps out and isn't a pain about it
meconqueso:
big hugs and happy thoughts
tonight i went to the movies with my hairdresser/new friend
oh i don't know if i told you but i got my hair re-done last week
i thought she was really nice and we get along well, whatever when she does my hair, i talk with her very easily
so she was complaining how her friends always let her down and she broke up with...
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oh i don't know if i told you but i got my hair re-done last week
i thought she was really nice and we get along well, whatever when she does my hair, i talk with her very easily
so she was complaining how her friends always let her down and she broke up with...
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bridgetwnpeddler:
Ooooohhhh new girlfriend? Dang... that is progress. Are you the same girl I met so long ago????? Who is this new Nihly?
Sugar Poppa eh? Define rich, I might suprise you.
So you like city life or country life better? I have my home in the city but our family has land in the country and even though most of it will be sold off my father may leave enough for us kids to build homes on if we wish. Who knows. I been thinking I would not mind a small town country lifestyle for a bit but might have to be somewhere closer to a larger natural attraction (Beach, Mountains, Lake etc...) not just farmland.
Good to hear things are going well.
Sugar Poppa eh? Define rich, I might suprise you.
So you like city life or country life better? I have my home in the city but our family has land in the country and even though most of it will be sold off my father may leave enough for us kids to build homes on if we wish. Who knows. I been thinking I would not mind a small town country lifestyle for a bit but might have to be somewhere closer to a larger natural attraction (Beach, Mountains, Lake etc...) not just farmland.
Good to hear things are going well.
meconqueso:
sorry, smile is the best I can come up with right now.
sorry, smile is the best I can come up with right now. I have been thinking a lot lately, as I often do when I cannot translate thought into action by whatever mental malady that holds me back.
Alex can be a very inspiring person to be around. I was told in my "classes", if I view myself so negatively, then get the people I know and love to write out how they see me from a-z....
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Alex can be a very inspiring person to be around. I was told in my "classes", if I view myself so negatively, then get the people I know and love to write out how they see me from a-z....
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palla:
More often than we think others have a vision of us that is much closer to reality....I know it's not easy but at least keep in your mind what Alex thinks of you.
wexsingxsin:
It's alright I am just one of those people who wants to know where everything is and have it be organized.
i am going to alex's today for the weekend because i talked to him on the phone and i miss him lots. and i am getting nothing accomplished here, holed up in my house feeling like i have no friends and getting no work done anyways.
i think i need my meds changed because i tried all of the behavioural stuff i am supposed to...
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i think i need my meds changed because i tried all of the behavioural stuff i am supposed to...
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padre:
I hope you do have a good and productive weekend... Just try and relax
meconqueso:
Good luck getting your paper done! I know you can do it. Have you tried just writing anything? ust writing to get your brain to do it and hopefully gt it revved up for the good stuff?
So what do you contribute to the world?
taxes?
garbage?
love?
i am wondering what it is I contribute, or if I just suck up air and produce waste.
...I know I help keep the economy running with shopping sprees WHOOPEE!!!
taxes?
garbage?
love?
i am wondering what it is I contribute, or if I just suck up air and produce waste.
...I know I help keep the economy running with shopping sprees WHOOPEE!!!
padre:
So very true but you also helped me
snarky:
hmmmm.
I wonder what I contribute as well?
You contribute beauty :]
I wonder what I contribute as well?
You contribute beauty :]
fucking slumping again again again. omg. sighs. and i went to the gym last night... oh poo!
i really like the show quarterlife on the internet, because NBC caught on that that's the "new" way to do things...
but it's good. and convieniently doesn't go over 10 minutes an episode to maintain interest. when i am around during the day i like to see the...
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i really like the show quarterlife on the internet, because NBC caught on that that's the "new" way to do things...
but it's good. and convieniently doesn't go over 10 minutes an episode to maintain interest. when i am around during the day i like to see the...
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padre:
fair enough.... I went and had a 2 hour long talk about highschool and college and after college.. it was quite a depressing conversation when it got to my ex fiance... 
so here i am just reading blogs hoping to laugh
so here i am just reading blogs hoping to laugh
xo