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let's see....since i have been on this diet, i have lost close to 20lbs. not bad, right? its noticeable too, which makes it even better. it feels great to hear people say they can see that i have lost weight.

DEFTONES! the deftones are playing in orlando 2 days before my birthday. so, i am going to get a hotel room. see the deftones on friday, get tattooed on saturday (my tattoo artist lives in orlando) and drive back sunday to celebrate my bday with some friends here. so, if any of my friends on here are in orlando, let me know so we can meet up or something.

college and jiu jitsu are going great. i can kimura the shit out of people now.

i just cancelled my account. there are only a handfull of people on here that i actually talk to. other than those few people, this site is really starting to bore me. i think i might have another month left, but im not too sure. so if anyone would like to stay in touch, all if my info is in my profile.

All done with the doctor stuff for today. Nothing was torn in my shoulder. I have to take a steroid pack for two weeks and do physical therapy. If that stuff doesnt help, then I have to get some kind of injection in my shoulder. That is still better than surgery.

The only bad part is that I will have to miss about a month of jiu jitsu. The good part about that is that I will have a month to focus more on school. Oh well, gotta do what I gotta do. Right?

just went to the doctor for my shoulder. i might have a torn ligament. i have to go on monday to get an x-ray and maybe an MRI. i am not too happy right now.

well, tonight was not a good jiu jitsu session for me. i got my ass destroyed. i was doing fine when i was sparring...until the last part. me and the guy i was sparring with were starting stand up. im not too great with takedowns just yet, i only know a couple and i havent really learned how to defend all of them yet. my right shoulder has been tender for a solid two months now. it hasnt bothered me, so i havent worried about it. well, i was clinched with this guy for about 3 minutes. he couldnt take me down and i couldnt take him down. i made the mistake of trying to get an underhook and he did a takedown that went straight to an armbar. the arm that he was holding when i went down didnt get hurt, but my right shoulder instantly started hurting. i sat up and i couldnt move my right arm at all. my first thought was "great, i just tore my rotary cuff." my instructor ran over and put icy hot on it and it helped. but it only helped for about ten minutes. now im sitting here and i can barely lift my right arm up. im sure its gonna be even worse tomorrow, and i have to work for 8 hours. lets hope i didnt tear anything and its just a sprain. ughhhhhh

i started a diet today! i had pretty much given up on diets, mainly because ive tried many of them and never had any good results. my friend told me about this diet he had been doing. the diet consists of eating 25 grams of fat or less per day. my friend lost 30lbs while doing it, his friend lost 45lbs in 3 months and a friend of my mom did the diet and she lost about 50lbs. not gonna lie, im pretty excited about it. it seems like the easiest, least stressful diet. if anyone is interested in it, let me know and ill send you the email about it. it lists all of the food you can eat and all that stuff.

in other news, i might be going to boston for my bday weekend for the ufc fan expo. woooo

so i got an 84 on my first psychology exam. not bad since i had no idea we were even having an exam. i was not prepared at all.

i think im gonna get my foot tattooed soon. im probably gonna go back to my friend in orlando to get it done. not sure why i dont just go to someone here in jacksonville. maybe because i enjoy getting out of this shit city as often as possible

i feel like it is time for me to make a change, but i do not know what to do. im a very busy person, but when im at home not doing anything, it makes me feel unfulfilled and somewhat worthless. i just dont get it. i should enjoy being able to just sit at home and relax for a little bit, right? i would like to start going out more and having fun, but its hard to since im the only one out of my group of friends that doesnt drink or do drugs. instead of going to a bar and just sitting, id rather go bowling, but no one else wants to do that. i have to start forcing myself to be a more sociable person. i need to go out of my comfort zone and try to talk to new people or try new things. and all of that is easier said than done....

im going to train with royler gracie in two hours! not gonna lie, im pretty excited.

oh great, here we go again....another friday night that i am spending alone in my bedroom because no one is returning my texts. another night of me wondering what it is about me that makes no one want to hangout with me. its starting to feel like i have no friends and i am just a last resort to hangout with, as i have always been. maybe i should just be like everyone else and just drink and do drugs. everyone loves a drugged out drunk, right? i guess im gonna take a shower and spend the rest of the night playing video games by myself. yeah, i feel fucking awesome right now. go me....