Ive been toying with a character for the plot of a book im writing, Ive been taught its always a good thing to write a character profile before you start writing about a character, sort of an indepth study so you know them as well as yourself.

After ploughing a lot of time into 'Jesse Welles', the point of which he was meant to start off an arrogant player, fall in love, get his heart broken then realise hes been an arsehole all this time and maybe, or maybe not, repent and fall in love with a nice girl at the end, but as I finished his profile two things occurred to me. 1 he IS an arsehole and no one would sympathise with him at all. 2 there was rather too much of myself in this character.

Does this mean im an arsehole? That perhaps I should realise all my past misdeeds? That maybe I should repent? Or that im just a 2D movie character? Its actually left me a little depressed that on reflection im this person. Are we ever who we think we are or are we much more heroic and stylised in our minds??

Ive been toying with a character for the plot of a book im writing, Ive been taught its always a good thing to write a character profile before you start writing about a character, sort of an indepth study so you know them as well as yourself.

After ploughing a lot of time into 'Jesse Welles', the point of which he was meant to start off an arrogant player, fall in love, get his heart broken then realise hes been an arsehole all this time and maybe, or maybe not, repent and fall in love with a nice girl at the end, but as I finished his profile two things occurred to me. 1 he IS an arsehole and no one would sympathise with him at all. 2 there was rather too much of myself in this character.

Does this mean im an arsehole? That perhaps I should realise all my past misdeeds? That maybe I should repent? Or that im just a 2D movie character? Its actually left me a little depressed that on reflection im this person. Are we ever who we think we are or are we much more heroic and stylised in our minds??