Wow , so it`s really been awhile since I`ve blogged on here "/ . Sorry about that . I go through these phases where I blog all the time & then I get bored of it & stop . Right now I`m back in my blogging phase , so I`ll be updating more often .

Here`s a picture of the Navy girl pinup tattoo that I got :



It took 4 hours for her to do it . But I think I`m taking a break from tattoos for awhile , because the healing process for that tattoo was terrible . It took an entire month for it to heal (that`s never happened to me before) & it just looked really gross & infected for about 2 weeks . Thankfully it wasn`t infected , but for awhile I was freaking out because I really thought that it was . It doesn`t help that I have anxiety either . That just made everything worse . My husband was really getting tired of me asking him if it was infected or not , lolz , so thank gosh it healed okay .

April has been a pretty busy month . My daughter turned 2 on the 14th . Crazy shit . I just can`t believe that she`s 2 already . I`m really worried about her though , because she`s not talking like she should . She babbles , but at her age , she`s supposed to know 200 words & use small phrases , & she just doesn`t do that . So our doctor gave us a phone number to call a learning disability center , which we`re going to do because there`s something wrong - at least , imo there is . My husband said he would call tomorrow , so hopefully we can get an appointment set up for her to be assessed .

I had to switch medications from Lamictal to Depakote ER . The Lamictal was giving me this rash . I noticed the rash after my psychiatrist upped my dose of Lamictal , but it didn`t click in my head that it was from the medication . I thought it was just razor burn & that it would go away . Well , one day I was outside smoking a cigarette , looking at it , & I was like holy shit this rash is from the Lamictal ! Lamictal causes a rash that can turn deadly (it`s called Steven`s-Johnson Syndrome) , so of course I freaked out . I called my psychiatrist & he said that I would have to stop taking Lamictal immediately . That was HARD . I`ve been taking it for 2 years now , so my body was used to having it , & once it didn`t have it anymore , it went crazy . I was tired all the time & I just felt like I was having an out of body experience . I was unable to go see my psychiatrist until a whole week later , & by then I was miserable as fuck . I still don`t have a working car , so I had to wait until my husband had days off of work for me to take me there . So now I`m on Depakote ER again . I took it before for about 2 years until I got pregnant . It causes spinal bifita in an unborn fetus , so of course when I got pregnant I stopped taking it , & that`s when I switched to Lamictal . The good thing is that I know that it will work (& it does work - I`ve been taking it for a week now & thankfully it works quickly , unlike some other medications) . The bad thing is the pills are HUGE . Seriously , they`re the biggest pills I`ve ever seen . They`re bigger than vitamin pills , & those things are ginormous . I can`t crush them or even cut them in half because they`re extended release & they wouldn`t work properly if I did either of those things . & eventually I have to take THREE of them a day , ugh . But I guess I shouldn`t complain , because they work & that`s really all that should matter . I just wish that I didn`t choke on them every time I take one , lolz .

So I pretty much have the sweetest & most amazing husband ever . I FINALLY figured out why the Sims 2 doesn`t work on my laptop - I have a really shitty graphics card . So I called Dell & asked them if they could put a new one into my laptop . Well , apparently my graphics card is built into my motherboard & it would be cheaper for me to buy a new computer . So that idea obv wasn`t going to work . So I thought hey , I could just get a computer box , because I already have a monitor , keyboard , & mouse . All I need is the box . So my husband went & bought one for me ! I was like omigosh , please tell me that you really didn`t do that , but he was like oh , it`s too late I already bought one for you , & I was like , wow , you really did not have to do that ! It`s a gaming computer , lmao . I feel like such a dork for having a gaming computer . It`s not here yet , but hopefully it will be here on Wednesday or Thursday . Thankfully my husband doesn`t have work & he can help me set it up , because I suck at that sort of thing . But I`m oh so excited to get it ! The Sims 2 will work with it & the Sims 3 will work with it too , yay !

Ugh , I now have to wear rubber bands for my braces . & I only have them on one side , so it looks really fucking stupid imo . & it makes my teeth hurt SO badly , argh . & I have to wear the one band all the time . This one girl at the orthodontist office only has to wear them at night . I`m so jealous . Hopefully I will get to that stage too . I`ve had my braces for a year now & it`s going to be another 6 months before I can get them off D:< . I really want them gone NOW , but apparently my jaw needs to be moved , which is why I have to wear evil rubber bands . But my teeth are straight , so that`s good . They don`t change my wires anymore because they`re all done with straightening my teeth - it`s just my jaw that needs work now .

I got a new cell phone too . It`s a T-Mobile G1 & I love it . It`s touch screen , but it also has a slide out keyboard , which is nice for me because yeah , I have fat fingers & me trying to use a touch screen keyboard would be an epic fail , lolz . The only thing I don`t like about it is that sometimes when I get a text it doesn`t go off , so I have no fucking clue that I got one & then I feel bad for not responding to whoever texted me . Maybe it`s because I dropped it last week , lmao xD . Or maybe it`s because there`s too many text messages with certain people , so now it doesn`t even alert me any more . Oh well . I personally think it`s much better than the iPhone . Yeah , I HATE Apple products , lolz .

Oh my fucking gosh , I am SO super excited right now !!! I'm getting a new tattoo on Thursday :] . Here's a picture for all you lovely peeps :



The only changes I'm making are I'm getting the girls hair brown instead of blonde , &I want her eyes brown instead of blue xD . I want her to look more like me of course . My appointment is with Amy at 4pm at Tattoolicious . One of my friends recommend that place to me . She's been there&gotten a tattoo there&she said the people there are really nice&that the shop looks really amazing . I simply can't wait ! It's going to take at least 3&a half hours , but that's okay . My geisha took 4&a half hours , so I'll be fine . No idea of how much it's going to cost , but that's fine . I have enough money to get it done I'm sure .

Okay well , other than that , not much else has been going on . Sorry I haven't been on here a few days . I wanted to wait to make a post because I didn't know for sure if I would be getting the tattoo :] .

Ugh, so this really sucks! I'm back on my MacBook because my brand new Dell Inspiron laptop broke! Wth?!? My Dell isn't even 2 months old yet&it's already broken D:. I called the Dell tech support&the guy there said that I needed a brand new keyboard. Apparently mine is busted, which is RIDICULOUS because I only used that keyboard for a grand total of 2 weeks. I have a PC monitor that I hook my laptop up to&I use a Mac keyboard (because I like the feel of the keyboards that Mac has ... I don't like the PC ones very much). So yeah, after 2 weeks of using the keyboard I bought the monitor&haven't used the keyboard since. The only reason I used it is because the power went out&I was typing in Notepad on my computer&I noticed that the keys were acting up. For example, when I would press the "h" key, the number 5 would also appear next to it. This also happened with other keys, such as the "g" key&the apostrophe key as well. I'm sure it's messed up on other keys too. At first I thought that I had Num Locks on, but the "g" key doesn't even have a number next to it, so I knew that that wasn't the case. Anyways, Dell sent me a box from FedEx&I put my laptop in it&I called FedEx&they came to my house&picked up my Dell. It should take about 7-10 business days to fix it&then they're shipping it back. I really miss my Dell. It's okay using a Mac again, but yeah, my Dell is just so much faster&so much better than my MacBook. I can't believe how slow this computer is. It takes a good 4-5 minutes to load up Firefox&I'm like okay cool, Firefox isn't that complicated of a program. It shouldn't take that long to load it up, ugh. So I guess for the next 2 weeks or so I should just get used to it. It just really sucks&I hate it.

Yesterday in the mail I got a letter from WaMu saying that if I didn't use my money I had in my bank account, they would take my money. Wth?!? How can they just take my money like that? I know that they went bankrupt or whatever, but still ... you can't just go in there&take my money! So today I did some online shopping (because I hate malls)&I bought like 4 pairs of jeans (because I don't have that many pairs), some really cute gladiator sandals&of course some cute underwear&bras, ahahaa xD. I love love love underwear for some reason. But it was SO hard to find jeans because all these stupid stores sell is skinny jeans. I HATE skinny jeans. They look good on really, really skinny people, but yeah, I am not one of those people&thus it makes me angry when they have like 20 pairs of skinny jeans&only 3 pairs of flare jeans. To be fair, I have tried on many pairs of skinny jeans&they all looked terrible on me, so I have given up on trying to wear them. I'm just not that thin, sorry peeps.

sorry i didn't update the past 2 days. we had a scheduled power outage (lame lame lame!!!) for the past 2 days for like 8 hours at a time&when i FINALLY got the power back on i just played on my wii. i don't even know why they turned the power off ... they sent us this thing in the mail saying they were going to do a power outage for our neighborhood but they didn't tell us why. like wth you could at least inform us as to why you're turning the power off&pissing people off because they can't do anything. ugh whatever. hopefully we won't have another one of those for a very long time.

so yesterday i went to the psychiatrist. fun stuff NOT. i mean actually talking to them about my medicine&stuff doesn't bother me ... it's just the drive out there. it's on the other side of the island so it takes like an hour to get there. he wants me to start taking seroquel ... he said it will help with my anxiety (because i almost have panic attacks when i'm in a car or when i have to drive&i worry about everything like crazy)&he also said that it will help me with my nightmares. so i took one last night&tbh i really do feel a difference today. i did some research&it takes a very short time for you to start feeling changes so yeah it's not just me thinking that the medicine works lulz. i was really skeptical about taking it because a lot of the medications they prescribe aren't even for mental disorders ... the drug companies don't make enough money off of what they're being used for so they try&push them off as antipsychotics or antidepressants so that they can get more money. ugh they're all greedy idiots. but thankfully seroquel IS prescribed for bipolar disorder, schizophrenia&anxiety so i'm good :] i used to be on this one medicine like 5 years ago called nurontin&apparently it's not even for bipolar disorder. thank gosh i don't take that anymore because that's just ridiculous!

i really apologize for this but it's going to be awhile for my next set. i'm still breaking out like crazy&i'm also having my lovely monthly visitor atm so yeah i'm going to have to wait a few weeks so that i can let my face clear up. don't want to be all ugly looking for my set of course! it's just really weird for me to break out like this because i NEVER break out. even when i was a teenager i never broke out. yeah i guess you could say i'm one of those lucky people who didn't have skin problems. still though i have a lot of freckles on my face&i hate them ugh. i wish i had perfect beautiful clear skin with no freckles like some people have. i feel like my freckles make me ugly. i even have one on my lip&one on my lower eyelid! i was like wth is this?!? how does a freckle get there?!? i guess the irish part in me shows up through my freckles because otherwise i don't even look irish at all ahahaa.

so i've been listening to thinking of you by katy perry on repeat a lot. i watched the music video a few days ago&it was so incredibly sad D:. i guess anything that has to deal with the military makes me cry because i don't want anything like that to happen to my husband. i love katy perry though. i know she has a lot of haters but i think she's incredibly talented&she's really beautiful to top it all off. i can't wait to see what her next cd is going to be like.

okay wow so i haven't updated in ages. it makes me feel kind of bad D: i'll try to update more.

hopefully (&i know i keep saying this lulz) next week i can get my new set pictures taken. i guess i've just been really lazy about it xD. but i promise that i will try my hardest to be unlazy&get those pictures taken!

i'm so very happy to have a wii! it's so much fun to play. right now all i have is wii sports&sims 2 castaway but hopefully soon i'll be getting the other 2 games that i ordered. i think that sims 2 pets will be here tomorrow&animal crossing is coming on the 29th. i've been playing way too much wii tennis. so much that my arm is killing me lulz. i really need to stop playing for a few days but it's just so much fun&it's really addicting so i pretty much can't stop ahahaa xD. my husband bought another wii remote (since it only came with one remote grr)&he also bought me a regular nintendo controller&he bought a charger for the wii remote. apparently the batteries die really quickly? one of my friends told me that when the battery dies you have to resync the remote to the wii ugh. that's going to be really annoying so thank gosh we have a charger coming! rofl i don't even know how to sync the remote to the wii. i really really suck at that kind of stuff. technology is definitely NOT my friend. shoot i barely know how to make my computer work ahahaa!

ew for some reason i have been breaking out like crazy >.< this never happens to me&i have no idea why all of a sudden i have this huge breakout. hopefully it'll be gone soon because i want to shoot my next set! &i refuse to do that when my face looks all ugly D:

went to the orthodontist a few days ago. yeah yeah i know i'm 23&i have braces. i had them before when i was like 13 or something but then i got my wisdom teeth pulled AFTER my braces came off&it really messed up my teeth so yeah i have them yet again >.< it really sucks but at least my teeth will be nice&pretty eventually :] i don't know when i'm getting them off ... they said i would have them for a year&a half so i'm guessing i'll have them for about 8 more months. whatever. as long as they come off before we move to japan then i'm good. yes i'm moving to japan thanks to the military. i'll be moving there in the beginning of 2010&we'll be there for 3-4 years living in the tiny town of misawa. oh my husband is in the navy btw. he's been in for 4 years now&he just resigned his contract for another 6 years :] i'm so proud of him for serving our country.

so my car is still broken. once again it's because we're really lazy&just haven't called to get it towed. i have no idea when it's going to be fixed but hey that's okay by me because yeah i hate driving. unfortunately i have to go to waianae next week (that's where my psychiatrist's office is) which is an hour drive away from where i live ugh. so not looking forward to that but at least my husband can drive me there. yes i see a psychiatrist. i have 3 mental disorders&i've had them for quite some time now. does that mean that i'm crazy or should be in a mental institution? definitely not because i'm on medications&i can function well in society just like those of you do who don't have mental disorders. i don't mind talking about them because i love to educate people because so many people these days just really don't know anything about them&automatically assume that you're crazy if you have mental disorders.

So yesterday I FINALLY FOUND A WII!!! I looked pretty much everywhere online to find one ... & of course, no one had one in stock that wasn't like, 600 effing dollars. Like, I'm sorry, but I REALLY don't want all those games with it because I'm not going to play them. Now, if they came with good games, such as Sims 2 Pets or Animal Crossing or MarioKart, then I would have bought it, but yeah, when am I ever going to want to play Shrek 2?!? But I found one for 355$ on Buy.com, so I bought it. Kind of expensive, but that was the cheapest price I could find. I would have bought one off of eBay, but I'm sure that they would have been really expensive ... plus my husband didn't want me to buy one off of there because he doesn't trust eBay for stuff like that, which I understand. When you're buying something that expensive, who knows if it actually works even if the person selling it says that it's brand new & still in the box? I was scared that it I would get an email from them saying that it was sold out, but I just checked my email & they're shipping it out today! Now I can go to Amazon.com & buy some great games for it. I'm so so excited, lulz. I've wanted a Wii for a really long time, but they were just way too expensive when they first came out. I decided to get 3 day shipping, because I'm a VERY impatient person xD. So hopefully it will be here by Friday & then I'll have something to do, yay!

I have been trying to work out every day. It makes me feel less lazy when I do it. I know that I'm not fat at all, & I'm not working out to lose weight or anything. I just do it for toning & to also stop feeling like such a lazy bum, lulz. I wish that it would make me feel more energized, but yeah, it doesn't . It seems like everyone else who works out gets an energy rush, but yeah, I don't for some reason. I also don't get anything out of drinking caffeine ... it doesn't wake me up, but it doesn't make me sleepy either. I pretty much drink energy drinks because I like the way they taste. Same with coffee. I read an article once saying that if you have a high metabolism (which I have) caffeine won't affect you because your body metabolizes it so quickly that you don't feel the effects of it. That kind of sucks, but I'm used to it by now. I just wish that I had SOMETHING to wake me up, because for some reason I'm exhausted all the time, even though I get at least 8 hours of sleep a night. My husband thinks that maybe I'm oversleeping, because sometimes I'll sleep for about 12 hours (yes, I go to bed really early ... you would too if you had a toddler running around, lulz). So right now I'm trying to get no more than 8 or 9 hours of sleep, to see if that works.

Okay, so I promise that this will the the last time that I complain about this, ahahaa xD. So yesterday I pretty much tried everything to make Sims 2 work on my computer. I downloaded & installed DirectX. I ran the game in XP instead of Vista. Yeah, none of that worked! The game still froze >.<. It's just incredibly frustrating because I really want to play it & I can't because Windows Vista is LAME. It really makes me wish that I had gotten a computer with XP on it instead of Vista. But unfortunately I couldn't find a good Dell that had XP on it - the laptops I saw were all really crappy & way too big for me (I love small laptops). I really want to email EA Games & totally complain to them about how angry I am that it doesn't work with Vista. I went to the Sims 2 website just to double check & make darn sure that I had the right requirements to make the game work, & I do. I have everything on my computer that I need to make sure that the game runs smoothly & doesn't freeze. So, from all of my research & reading, I have come to the conclusion that this is a Windows Vista problem. I do blame EA Games though. They just need to come out & say "Okay yeah we lied - it doesn't work with Vista, sorry". Then I would be happier instead of them just saying that it works when it really doesn't. & I'm not the only one with this problem. I've read tons of stories on forums & such about how it just doesn't work with Vista at all. Some people have been saying that it isn't made to be played on a laptop, but to me, that's a bunch of bull, because more people in this world have laptops than desktops. EA Games has to know this, & I'm sure that they've made the game so that people with laptops can play it. Sims 3 is definitely supposed to work on Vista though, so I preordered a copy off Amazon.com a few days ago. It comes out in less than a month, so I'm really excited about that. I'm getting kind of tired of playing Zoo Tycoon 2 tbh. It's fun for awhile, but then I just get bored with it, lulz.

I was hoping that I would be able to shoot my new set this weekend, but I don't think that will happen. My SLR has about 250 pictures on it, & I need to go & get them developed before I can shoot my set because there isn't enough room on the memory card for about 60-100 more pictures. *sigh* Hopefully I can get to WalMart or something tomorrow & get those pictures developed. I also need to buy some more photo albums because my daughter has ruined a bunch of them >.<. That really made me angry, because I spent A LOT of time organizing them & writing dates in & writing in where I took the picture.

Today I'm actually going out to eat! Lulz, I don't get to do that very often . I think we're going to Ruby Tuesday's - one of my favorite restaurants. Their hamburgers are really good there. Should be interesting because I don't know how my daughter isn't going to fair. Sometimes she's good ... & other times she throws a fit because she gets bored of just sitting there watching me & my husband eat, ahahaa.

I finally have a virus scanner on my computer again, yay! McAfee ftw! I didn't have it for about 2 weeks & I was really worried that I was going to get a virus or something. It's so weird having to have a virus scanner ... I've been using Mac computers for the past 5 years & I never needed a virus scanner on them. I switched from Mac to PC because I was sick & tired of the computer breaking on me for some really lame reason. I'm also sick of iPods. I swear I've had at least 6 of them in the past 4 years & they always break on me after like 6 months of usage. I got a Zune for Christmas & I love it. It's so pretty & it has tons more space than any of my iPods ever had at a fraction of the price. iPods are definitely overrated & just like to break for no apparent reason. Maybe it's just me? My husband has had his Nano for the past 3 years or so & it still works just fine. Then again, he doesn't really use it all that much. I would use my iPod pretty much everyday. I would treat it with care though - I never dropped it or anything - but yet they all still broke to the point where I had to get a new one. Ugh. Apple fail for sure.

Oh yes, I said I would write about why I hate driving . So 5 years ago, I was in an almost fatal car accident. This guy was going 70mph & I was sitting in the passenger's seat & he t-boned the car I was in. I went through the windshield & then the passenger side window. Yes, I WAS wearing my seatbelt! It didn't do that catch thing that it's supposed to do. No, the airbag didn't go off. I found out later that it was faulty. The car I was in was a Ford Focus, so go figure. Ever since then I've been scared to death of being in a car & driving for me has just gotten worse & worse these past 5 years. The only person's driving I trust is my husband's, & even then I almost have a panic attack everytime I get in a car. People in Hawaii drive like MANIACS. I lived in California for 2 years & I thought the drivers there were bad. Boy was I wrong. I didn't think that there was such a place where people drove worse than they did in California, but yup, it exists. Every time I get into a car I'm so sure that I'm going to get into a car accident & die. It's gotten to the point where I refuse to drive my car & I make my husband take me everywhere. Not like I can drive my car anyways even if I wanted to ... it's broken yet again. What a shocker! Volkswagen Beetles are terrible cars. I haven't heard a positive review from anyone who's owned a Beetle. Anyways, I just don't know what to do at this point. My husband says I just need to get out there & do a lot of driving & that will help with my anxiety, but I'm not too sure that that will actually work. I'm afraid that it'll just make my fear of driving even worse than it is right now.

Okay, wow, so I'm glad that it's not just my computer that's messed up. Apparently A LOT of people are having problems with Sims 2 working on their Vista machine. I was reading a bunch of articles today & there's SO much stuff that you need to have if you use Vista to make the game work. If you have XP, you only need what, like 3 things or something & then the game works! Incredibly frustrating if you ask me. It really makes me wish that when I got a new computer I didn't get Vista. I mean, don't get me wrong, I absolutely LOVE Vista, but this whole thing with Sims 2 not working is really making me angry. Last night I tried to create a family & of course, surprise surprise (!) it froze & I had to shut down my computer because Alt+Tab didn't work. Next time I'm just doing Ctrl+Alt+Delete & hopefully that will work. I don't think that shutting off my computer all the time is exactly good for it. Ugh, this is incredibly frustrating, because last night I finally learned how to play the game & now it's like oh hai I'm going to freeze on you muah ha ha!!! I didn't even get to save my game before it froze . Oh & I also learned how to load a saved game, rofl. I guess I'm used to the whole thing where the saved game appears on the main screen & you can load it from there. I had to do a Google search & find out how on earth you load a saved game, ahahaa. I'm so new to this & it makes me feel like an idiot. Oh wellz. I'm sure that I wasn't the only one. Everyone has to learn sometime, right?

Lately I've been thinking of ideas for my next set . I don't want to give anything away, but it's going to be really cute & fun. I'm going to see if I can get the photos taken this weekend, so yay for that! I know exactly what I'm going to wear & everything, so I'm really excited about it . I hope that everyone likes it!

cool, more xanga drama! just what i wanted in life >.<. one of my xanga friends left me a comment today saying that this person on xanga was making fun of me. now, i don't know why people do this! i am a very nice person - probs too nice for my own good - & i have NEVER been mean to anyone on there, even though there's a few people on there that i really dislike. if they make me angry, i just unsubscribe so that i don't have to read their posts anymore. why don't they do the same thing for me, geez?!? if you don't like what i post, then just unsubscribe! it's THAT easy. do you really need to make a post making fun of me & my life & my husband & daughter? imo, that's way out of line. i don't take swipes at their lives, & they shouldn't be doing it to me. i honestly just don't understand why there are some people out there who feel the need to be mean for no reason. like, what does that accomplish? sure, so you feel all superior for a few minutes, but after that, then what? i guess you go searching for the next person to make fun of or be mean to so that you can feel better again. wow. seriously people on xanga who do this, GET A LIFE. do something constructive with your time instead of bashing other people. close minded people really irk me. i don't get why people can't just agree to disagree & be done with it. just because someone doesn't agree with you doesn't mean that they're wrong! an opinion CAN'T be wrong! ugh. that totally ruined my day, although it really shouldn't ... i need to stop letting people's words & actions get to me, but i'm a people pleaser, so of course it happens.

oh & to top it all off? friend drama, cool! >.< now, i have this one friend here in hawaii whose name i will not mention because i don't think that it's right to give out her name. anyways, when i first moved here i met her through myspace & we eventually met & hung out all the time. we were the best of friends & we did everything together. i even let her stay at my house because she didn't have a place to stay for 2 weeks. so then she moved into a house about 30 minutes away from where i lived at the time, & we still hung out all the time. she didn't have a car, so i would drive down there everyday just to see her & hang out, which is HUGE for me because i loathe driving. maybe tomorrow i'll make a post as to why i hate driving so much. so anyways, she met these 2 other girls & she totally forgot about it. it's as if we're not even friends anymore, just acquaintances. like, the friendship where you say hi when you see them at the grocery store & that's it. well, she took a survey on myspace yesterday (which i read because i was bored) & it asked "what did you do for new years?" & she said "i spent it with my 2 best friends ever & had the best time ever with them & the best time with my best husband ever". ouch. so i guess she doesn't even consider me a best friend anymore? shoot, i don't even think that we're friends anymore! i texted her yesterday because she had texted me the day before, but she never responded, & she's one of those people who always has her phone on her & who always answers it or texts back. ugh. i just don't know. & the worst part is she's the only friend i have (had?!?) here in hawaii. it's just so incredibly hard for me to meet people because i have NO idea where to meet them. i'm not in school & i don't have a job (which i can't get because daycare is so insanely expensive here), so it's like, "okay cool, what now?!?"

my other friend who lives in california & i are not really friends anymore either. i have been replaced by this other girl that i used to know when i lived there. she redid her myspace page recently, & i saw that she took all of the pictures of me off of it . instead are pictures of her & her new best friend. *sigh* i just feel like i have really bad luck when it comes to friends. this has happened to me so many times in the past & it really sucks. i'm so sick & tired of people screwing me over just because they've met someone new. & i mean, these days it's really not that hard to keep in touch with someone! there's myspace, email, calling someone, texting, etc. i would know because i have 2 amazing online friends who i talk to daily either through texting, aim, or myspace. & it's not that hard to keep up our friendship because of modern technology. no, i just think that these 2 people just don't want to be bothered with me anymore. is it because i have a kid? i really don't know. but it's frustrating nonetheless.