one of my favorite actors ever Adam Tudyk's new movie http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=WjmhuYgZrow OMG HILARIOUS!!
I GOT MY NEW APARTMENT!!!! woooooo!!! So now that i have money to grow as an adult, everyone is hitting me up for money all at once. Who to pay first.....ugh.
i'm over everything. i'm drunk right now but i'm gonna be me and i'm gonna be the outgoing, awesome person that i am. i'll talk with anyone i want and try to be with who i want. it will happen when it happens. i <3 u all!!!!
so....i'm your typical nice guy. chivalry isn't dead. i like to spoil you, give you massages, like your clit, give you flowers, remember your b-day. tell you that you're beautiful. tell you how much i care for you. cook you dinner, clean up the mess. cuddle. i'm confident. have amazing hair, i'm sexy. i'm a big guy, but wear it well. my female friends are shocked when i tell them that i have poor luck with women. hell one of them is an ex and she tells me how amazing i am and that these other women are stupid for not wanting to be with me. this past weekend i spent the whole weekend with her and we talked about getting together, she kissed me so passionately it drove me nuts. she texts me today and tells me that she's decided to see someone else. out of the blue. really? wtf. why can't i ever have anything i want. it's true what they say about nice guys. we finish last or not at all. this is so bullshit and i'm so pissed off right now i can't see straight. (that might be the gin) i would love to find a woman who actually want's to be with me and not just be my fucking friend. i have enough friends.
So....this weekend was awesome. And thoroughly confusing. One of my exes is newly single and we've managed to stay friends. Our break up was harder on me than it should have been and I was a bit bitter about it for awhile, but we're pretty good friends now. She recently moved, became vegan and we both love to cook so we decided it was time to get together and cook. Goddamn she looks so hot!!! She intentionally wore a sexy shirt (so did i, which she ended up wearing 
btw). I'm not sure how exactly it happened, but while we were making dinner we ended up making out and the passion that she kissed me with.... I hadn't experienced that in awhile. Needless to say it was awesome. We had previously started talking about our break up, but only in passing. We ended up having a very frank conversation about it. She didn't want to end up going to the bar weekly with me and didn't like that I did. Not because I drink, which I used to drink more, but I go for a couple, hanging out and singing karaoke. She also can't be around weed, which I used to smoke a lot, now it's maybe once/week. She's a nurse. She want's kids someday. These are reasons she gave. I've changed a lot in 2 yrs and i'm fine giving up weed. I don't have to go to the bar everyweek and I do want kids someday. Not tomorrow, I want to get married settle down and start a family soon, with in 5 yrs or less. She invited me to stay over Friday night. I wasn't sure what to expect. I didn't make a move to have sex. I didn't to to A. fuck up our friendship (which is kind of beyond that right now with the massive amount of making out) B. fuck up my chances at something more- a real relationship.
She had to work in the morning. She let me sleep and came back and made me breakfast!! She asks for patience because she just isn't sure what she want's right now. She's seriously think about us. She obviously wants me, no one kisses like that and doesn't. I left my earrings over there, so she told me to come by and get them. We did dinner again, vegan of course (quite good actually). She invited me to come over again Saturday night. Now, she did say several times how horny she is, I just didn't know what to do. I went to my RPG game and came back, just after 11. We hung out some more and both tired went to bed. I told her that I wanted her but won't pressure her, I just wanted her to know how I felt. She made vegan biscuits for me in the morning. Also good. We came to the mutual decision to let things progress and not force them. Hang out more and see if we can work. Nothing official of course. She'll be gone this weekend, but she did agree to come to the bar the next weekend and listen to me sing, which i'm very excited about. We made quite a few tentative plans actually. I'll be patient, but i won't wait around forever. I've never started as friends then went to dating. I think that's what's been missing in my previous relationships. Jumped into the sex too quickly, she even said as much herself. It will be nice to date one of my best friends, who can actually talk to. I"m excited but also anxious. I think she's crazy for hesitating at this chance, but i know she doesn't want to hurt me. I say bring it on and A. we'll get married some day or B. it won't work and we'll be friends again. I see nothing to lose here.
btw). I'm not sure how exactly it happened, but while we were making dinner we ended up making out and the passion that she kissed me with.... I hadn't experienced that in awhile. Needless to say it was awesome. We had previously started talking about our break up, but only in passing. We ended up having a very frank conversation about it. She didn't want to end up going to the bar weekly with me and didn't like that I did. Not because I drink, which I used to drink more, but I go for a couple, hanging out and singing karaoke. She also can't be around weed, which I used to smoke a lot, now it's maybe once/week. She's a nurse. She want's kids someday. These are reasons she gave. I've changed a lot in 2 yrs and i'm fine giving up weed. I don't have to go to the bar everyweek and I do want kids someday. Not tomorrow, I want to get married settle down and start a family soon, with in 5 yrs or less. She invited me to stay over Friday night. I wasn't sure what to expect. I didn't make a move to have sex. I didn't to to A. fuck up our friendship (which is kind of beyond that right now with the massive amount of making out) B. fuck up my chances at something more- a real relationship.She had to work in the morning. She let me sleep and came back and made me breakfast!! She asks for patience because she just isn't sure what she want's right now. She's seriously think about us. She obviously wants me, no one kisses like that and doesn't. I left my earrings over there, so she told me to come by and get them. We did dinner again, vegan of course (quite good actually). She invited me to come over again Saturday night. Now, she did say several times how horny she is, I just didn't know what to do. I went to my RPG game and came back, just after 11. We hung out some more and both tired went to bed. I told her that I wanted her but won't pressure her, I just wanted her to know how I felt. She made vegan biscuits for me in the morning. Also good. We came to the mutual decision to let things progress and not force them. Hang out more and see if we can work. Nothing official of course. She'll be gone this weekend, but she did agree to come to the bar the next weekend and listen to me sing, which i'm very excited about. We made quite a few tentative plans actually. I'll be patient, but i won't wait around forever. I've never started as friends then went to dating. I think that's what's been missing in my previous relationships. Jumped into the sex too quickly, she even said as much herself. It will be nice to date one of my best friends, who can actually talk to. I"m excited but also anxious. I think she's crazy for hesitating at this chance, but i know she doesn't want to hurt me. I say bring it on and A. we'll get married some day or B. it won't work and we'll be friends again. I see nothing to lose here.
I may miss my lady friend, but any of my favorite SGs going to GenCon at all? I'd love to see ya!!!
6 days until i leave for Indy!!! GenCon here i come!!!!! I'm so excited!!!! and i get to see my lady before i go, things couldn't be going better!!!! well...i guess i could win powerball lol!!!!
ROB ZOMBIE WAS AWESOME!!!!! first time i ever saw him live, great show. we got there late cuz it was 105ยบ out so we only saw As I Lay Dying and Rob Zombie. Um.... As I Lay Dying wasn't so great and most of them were wearing skinny jeans. There is something very wrong with a metal band wearing skinny jeans 
also my ex found me and i decided i can't be just friends with her right now. it might have something to do the fact that i had to meet my replacement. fuck that shit. i'll be civil, maybe someday we'll be friends but i'm not going out of my way.
also my ex found me and i decided i can't be just friends with her right now. it might have something to do the fact that i had to meet my replacement. fuck that shit. i'll be civil, maybe someday we'll be friends but i'm not going out of my way.
yay, everything is good. i talked to ronel and we set some expectations. everything's cool now
