missinnocence

Sooo Jonny didnt end up texting me till early in the morning but he seemed freaked out and I was to tired to argue with him so I just fortgot about it. Itlll have to wait for another day.

Last weekend I went to a music festival in Mangawhai. It was soooo much fun. I went up late in the night and stayed at lauries...
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So Ive been trying to text him, I even sent him a text saying I need to talk to you but still hes not really answering. Im gunna be bummed if he doesnt even make an effort to talk about it. Im kinda hoping hell try convince me not to but looks like im out of luck. Its like im screaming inside for him to...
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I think I need to break up with Jonny. I think I love him but hes holding me back. I never do anything anymore. My life has become so boring. I miss all the adventures I use to get up to.
I think it will be hard to leave him as ill regret it straight away andthere will be some big lows but I think...
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Jonny came to visit me. He came to see me for a whole ten days. It was good, we had a few little arguments but I think it was jut because we werent use to each others company and like there was no routine.
I think he had fun. When it came to dropping him of he was telling me to come with him and...
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Woah easy tiger. Man I was a bit wound up when I wrote that last post. Ive been feeling extremely fragile lately as im doing the long distnace thing with my boyfriend which is new for me. A bit pathetic but i just feel real overwhelmed. Itl all turn out sweet tho. life goes on

FUCK! I hate my fucking life and everything in it. Im so sick of trying to get happy. I cant be happy. Im fucked in the head. I just want it to be over. I fucking hate this.

So its christmas eve and im on hammo. Im in my boyfriends room using the internet while he plays halo.

I have noidea what to say. So much has happened but nothing much at all. For once I have a bit of a routine. Wake up, go to work, go to the store to get food for dinner, cook dinner for me and jonny, do...
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Ok so Ive just finished packing my bags for hammo. Its been a hectic few weeks leading u to now. Its been so good. My mum and Dad finally came down to queenstown to see me. We had so much fun. Some nights we just chilled out and other nights we went out on the town. I showed them all aroud Queenstown and they seemed...
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Ok so this is gunna seem a bit wack but I have a few things that ive just written on my computer but not written any where else and im giving away my laptop so I want to get rid of the writings but cant bring myself to delete them. Some of them may even allready be on here. Who knows. I wont read them...
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Ahhhhh its the end of the season allready! Everything is so exciting at the moment! All my exams are done, flights are booked, iv moved out of my house and almost paid all the bills. Im so excited that Ive finished at uni! I have so many options and adventures I can now go on without having to worry about things im tied down to....
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