So a lot has happened since I've been back and I just haven't updated my life at all.

My girlfriend went to mexico and cheated on me, and she didn't even have the balls to tell me when she came back. she just made up excuses as to why she needed to break up with me all of a sudden.

By the way... I'm making this LONG story quite brief and will leave out information here and there.

So the guy she cheated on me with was from texas.
she kept in contact with him.

we started dating again and things seemed to be going well.
She told me she wanted to spend her life with me and work on our relationship and make it the best it could be.
then i didn't see her for 3 weeks. I spoke to her only a few times on the phone and oly for 5 minutes at a time.
She was becoming very short with me.

finally I called her up (on my birthday) to go out to dinner and she refused. She only said Happy Birthday to me AFTER i told her it was my b'day.
Then she got all mad at me for no reason and told me it wasn't going to work and that she just wanted to be alone.
I knew this had to do with the guy from texas. He had been calling her (or she, him) late hours into the night AFTER she would get off the phone with me "because she had to sleep."

She said she wouldn't date him because it is too far away.

I knew better.

It took 2 weeks and she was dating him.
and she lied to me often.


I told her if EVER there came a time where she had feelings for someone else that were stronger than the feelings she had for me, she could just come out and be open with me and we could resolve it.
That is NOT what she did, however, and she felt it necessary to cover it up at every turn.

I'm moving on from this, but I'm still so mad that she felt the need to LIE to me.
I would've been okay if she just told me she liked someone else.

She's blocked me on all social media, but is still friends with some of the same people I am. So, sometimes, i can see a message she posts. Always about this guy in Texas.


I believe in Karma.
I believe she's going to get a shit storm sent her way.
.... and I really hope he cheats on her and breaks her heart.
I know this is cruel, but I hope she understands that she was better off with me and that she'll NEVER be able to have me back.


Should i even care?
Probably not.

In fact I've started getting back into the "dating" scene.
I'm going on dates with girls and making out with some. Whatever....

I'm not truly happy yet and I don't like it.

I remain upbeat and pleasant always. And I'm generally happy. I'm not a depressing pile of sludge wasting away on my couch.


I just want a girl who doesn't abso-fucking-lutely suck.

I'M BACK!




Just sayin'.
































What's new?

No, literally, What is New?

DE-VIRGINIZED! (since before my last birthday)


Honestly though... I heard a girl once tell me that she becomes a virgin again every birthday.
True story. I'm not making this up.
So she tells me that every year on her birthday she believes she becomes a virgin again.
......
I think she just does that to make herself feel better about how many guys she's sleeping with every month.

Granted... I'm a little jealous if her numbers are that high and mine aren't.


It's true though, isn't it?.... It's easier for a girl to get laid than a guy.
Guys are general hornballs anyway. Unless of course you get the rare "prude-dude."
and I feel bad because a good friend of mine (whom I used to hook up with) is dating ^that guy.
She has a much larger sexual palette than he does and she would really wear me down.
He has put a stop to her sexual encouragement. It's kinda of sad really.

Anywhoo... guys are hornballs. We try and try to get a girl to get in bed with us. Girls will deny or play hard to get or want a relationship. Whatever the situation... it is less likely for the guy to get laid.
Now... if a girl was horny... all she had to do would be to find a guy who was not a "prude-dude" and she's guaranteed to get laid.

Sorry I'm leaving out the gay community here. Not really my expertise. I know how hard it was for one of my gay female friends to have sex with her girlfriend. She hated it. . . . Now she's dating a guy who doesn't have sex with her either. I guess it was a lose-lose for her too.


Moving on....

I... after 6 months of nothing... got laid. It's a wonderful thing when you don't have sex for so long and start to have it again!
I started getting calls for auditions for commercials and movies... got more hours at work....
It just so happened to coincide with all the other good things that are happening in my life and I like to pretend it's because I'm getting some!


So I'm not sure where I left off last, but let me catch you up real quick.
I was dating a girl last year.
she broke up with me the day after thanksgiving. She said she just wanted to be friends. And she REALLY wanted to be friends.
We stopped having sex a month before this break up. So... October sometime.
Thanksgiving break up... and then she wants to hang out as friends a week later. We hang out and it turns into her jumping on top of me and... well.. we just went at it. Hard. Harder than ever. She was saying stuff that she never said when we were together.
she stopped talking to me a week later.... and I've talked to her 3 times since. She got weird and distant.
Whatever...
So December was the last time I got any.

Jan, Feb, & March weren't really exciting. My students were in the Mass HS Drama Festival competition.
They did a wonderful job, but they were up against some really tough competition. They didn't move on... but it was a great time anyway.

I went to Charlotte, NC late March into April with 2 of my friends. Same reason as last year.
Swim Competition.

So I totally expected to get laid this time because I SHOULD'VE gotten some last year and was denied because the girl that picked ME up at a bar and brought me back to HER place expected me to have condoms in the tiny shorts I was wearing.
( I had room for my debit card and my license and that was it!)

Anywhoo... I really did try to meet girls and pick them up, but when your 2 friends have girlfriends it makes it hard for either one of them to want to be your wingman.

I brought a backpack full of condoms in case I might need one.

I think that's the real cock-block. condoms.



I did meet a nice girl at a bar. She asked me to meet her at the pizza place after. I go there and really not much happened after that. I was kinda dumb and didn't ask for her number.

FAIL.

Then after that I worked nights for 3.5 weeks straight. Got sick for a couple days in the middle.. then I got Strep throat and was miserable and stuck inside not being able to eat or talk for 2 weeks.


somewhere in the middle of all this... I had about a week off from work. (sorta).

At this point in time I went to the Johnny Cupcakes 5 year Anniversary of the Boston store.
Here I met a nice girl with a camera.
I could totally tell she started crushing on me, but I wasn't really sure what was up. I kind of thought she was dating one of the other JC fans.
She was there with her camera just wandering around boston taking pics. She stayed and took LOTS of pictures of the event. (which, if I had any of them saved on my comp, I'd post right here)

One of the pictures she posted had me and 2 irish guys in it.
a friend of hers commented on the picture saying how cute I was.

4 days later Johnny (from Johnny Cupcakes) put on an indoor dodgeball event.

First girl decided she was going to go... and brought friend who commented on picture.


I wasn't introduced to friend until after the event was over and we were leaving.



someone friended someone on FB and friend of the photographer started talking to me on facebook.
talking turned into plans to hang out.
plans turned into a reality 3 days after we met.
Reality turned into some of the BEST sex I've ever had...... the first time hanging out with this girl.

girl number 1 was mad because I wrote "that's what she said" on girl 2's FB page.
the girls were upset for a minute and first girl started dating the kid who I thought she was dating anyway. (but she wasn't then... but is now)

So.... now... all's good in the hood.



A little more about this lady friend.... (because I'm actually really excited and happy).....

she mentioned that she likes girls as well and has been in a threesome on more than one occasion.
I have NEVER been in a threesome. It's kind of exciting.
She says, because she likes me, she's not sure she could do that with me, but there's a chance.
And... just the other day she said she was thinking of girls she might want to invite for that escapade with me.


I'd love that.... I think I'd be happy just watching her with another girl.
then again... I get anxious when I'm not actively pleasing someone in bed.



Okay... straying far away from the sexual content and theme here....



My nephews both had their birthdays in the last month. The oldest was the beginning of May and the little one's birthday was yesterday.
I love and miss them both.
My sister has been home alone with the boys quite a bit lately. My brother in law has been helping start up a Bio-Diesel company in Northern California.
My sister and nephews live in CT.
That's a big difference.

She seems to be dealing well with it right now.


My best female friend, I just found out, is being emotionally abused/controlled by her current boyfriend.

I had no idea. I'm very sad to hear this news. I think I need to go visit soon just to make a point.



ugh..


anywhoo....
so at E3, Nintendo announced its new platform. Wii U.
If you haven't seen it, check it out. It's going to be AMAZING!

I've been playing Ultimate (frisbee) with my team every week. I love it. I really get my head out of my life and out of the everyday when I'm playing.
I like almost everyone on my team... but not everyone feels the same way about each other.
Being a Captain/Manager/Chief Financial Officer isn't easy.
Hard to please everyone... Delegating responsibilities has been my new goal.
Our current record is 1 win 3 Losses, and 2 cancellations.
2 of the losses don't count towards our tournament play. They were/are teams outside of our division.

It starts getting complicated, but really we're 1-1.


I've gotten back into Disc Golf after a long cold/wet winter of not playing.
I can't wait to play Disc in Vermont, New Hampshire, & Maine again.
I'd love to get away and just go on another tour of New England.


I am going camping/seeing Dave Matthews Band in Atlantic City in 2 weeks.

I am NOT a DMB fan at all. . . . . . . . but I do enjoy O.A.R. who is also going to be at this music festival.

I'm excited for it... but I'm not sure I've got enough $ right now.

I'm going to a wedding July 1st and another one July 9th.




So much going on... can't keep up.


Oh.... and I'm covering for my boss for the months of July & August.
I will be pulling in about 34 hours a week. ..... or about $5,000.00 in those 2 months.
I'm pretty sure all that money is going to the wedding in July (in Virginia) and a wedding I have to go to in November in Austin TX.

The left over $ is going to paying bills off... and maybe getting a new bike. :p


But then I'll go back to making less than 200 a week.




Well... I've got to nerd it up before I go to bed.
Time for comics, music, and a tall glass of ice water.


Good night all!
(sorry for being so distant)



OH!... and if you haven't checked out this amazing girl's set... you better do it now.
go check out Miri and her newest set. I'm still surprised she hasn't gone pink yet.
Help her reach this goal.
She really is awesome.


~Q.

I need to update soooooo bad!


I swear this will come soon.


Also... I need to respond to a few sg emails. I swear this will happen soon too.




Sooo.... busyyyy.....!!!!!!!
















ps. I joined a dating site. Mainly because I was curious. It kinda scares the hell out of me!
pps. my phone hasn't stopped ringing. (completely unrelated)

It's about time I updated this, eh?

So I'm assistant directing another show. Just like last year at this time, the play is being performed in a competition.
I'm pretty amazed at how far the kids have come... and then again... they are missing the most basic point in theater which is to project!
Their overall volume needs great improvement.

Anywhoo. . .

Happy late Valentine's Day everyone.
Happy president's day? I remember I got that day off from work, but after working a triple I wasn't sure why.

I have a lot of trips planned this year.
It's a good thing AND a bad thing.
Good because I can get away and see people... or not see people.
Bad because I need that money for bills and what not.

Now some of these trips are predetermined and I HAVE to go to them.
3 weddings. 1 of which I am a groomsman. (1st time doing that.) which means that the bachelor party in vegas... I have to attend. I'm not gambling though. Give me free drinks all night and we'll be good.

I'm helping my friend drive to North Carolina for his National Swim Meet. We did this last year.
Go back a few posts and read what I had to say about girls from NC.

We're doing it again this year, but we're going to be in a hotel downtown.
Also, one of my old friends just moved down there a couple weeks ago for work and we get to see him.
I'm pretty stoked!
However, my friend (the Coach) left it open for one of our other friends to come along on the trip.
I feel this is going to be a time bomb waiting to explode. He's got no filter and little sense of decency. Which means we'll probably be killed in the streets of Charlotte.
I like him... he's just a bit much.
and he's definitely going to take the leisure out of this trip.

Ho hum.


Then I have my fraternity ball in May sometime.
a female friend of mine from college said she'd love to go if i'd fly her from california.
I'm debating that.

Then I have 2 weddings in July.
1 for my friend TJ (although I lost the invitation and can't remember the date!)
and the other for my cousin. Which luckily I have a date for. One of my LONG time friends from college said she'd be my date. I can't wait for that one. She's a peach.
Speaking of... she lives in NYC and was visiting friends and such in my neck of the woods and stayed over my house one night. we have the type of relationship where we can sleep together and NOT "sleep-together".
It's good and bad. Especially since we were both talking about the months long dry spells we've both had.
I love that girl she's just a great ball of awesome. I could totally live with her. (as a roommate)

She may even be coming to one of the other weddings I have to go to this year. Awesome!


in other news...

My friend's ex girlfriend contacted me for the first time in over 6 years.
we started chatting about life and what not and she told me her BF that she's living with has cheated on her multiple times and she has clear evidence. However, she won't leave him. She says that needs to give him just ONE more chance to not screw up. She cheated on my friend years ago and says that this is just karma and that she has to try to make it work and know that at least she tried and didn't give in so easily.
Anywhoo...despite all that we decide that maybe we should hang out after all these years because we're both pretty big nerds.
Did i mention I dated her best friend?
So the hanging out thing may or may not be a good idea, but I look at the good in people and try not to let that destroy other people's thoughts or feelings. I don't try to sway anyone's opinion of anyone else, because I don't need to.
So, recently, she tells me that the reason we haven't yet hung out is because she's had a super crush on me for ages and she'd feel guilty just hanging out with me after all she's said about her current BF.

Understandable... I guess.

Different girl story....

So there's this girl that I "dated" for a while after one of my really bad breakups with the long time ex.
She and I have remained friends and we call each other for advice. Sometimes we'll meet up for "coffee". (She drinks tea and I drink Hot chocolate... it's just easier to say coffee.)
So she's been having problems in her relationship recently . . . and come to find out it's a cyclical thing and happens every couple months or less.
Basically.... she lives on the Cape and her BF is in Boston. He's a very boring person. He stays in and reads books. (not that that's a bad thing. I love to stay in and read books sometimes) But he reads books all the time. Doesn't like to go out to the bar with her. doesn't really like to go out in public. And NOW.... he spends lots of time with his friend Morgan. (a girl). They take the T to class together. They HAVE class together. They go to the library together. Sure... it could be a friendly thing and nothing to make of it, however... there's a lot of little signs he's putting out that He likes her. I don't want to see my friend hurt, so I tell her that she needs to be careful... or just break up with him. So last week I get a text from her that says, "He just broke up with me. I don't want to be alone right now." Unfortunately (or fortunately) I was in Billerica with friends. I told her to tell me what happened. So she does. and we were supposed to go out for sushi together instead of coffee on Monday. So i say, if you dont want to get sushi, it's okay. She assures me she wants to.
okay. whatever.
So monday comes along and she and her BF are back together. She still wants to get sushi with me.
I go and pick her up and we go to the sushi place. I drink wine. She drinks wine. We talk about life and stuff and then get on the topic of what she should do with her boy.
Apparently she invited him, their mutual dating friends, and this girl Morgan to do something. that way it's in public, she can meet her, and get a sense at what's going on. He shoots this idea down.
I tell her I've been in his shoes and that he has feelings for this girl, but he doesn't know quite where they stand and so he keeps one foot in each door.
She doesn't like this and starts making excuses for him. [Desperation]
I just tell it to her as I see it. No bias.
We get to the car. It's very cold. I start it up and crank the heat.
This is when she tells me that if things were different she'd just jump me right in my car.
Granted the physical attraction between us is still there, and of course I told her that, but I restrained myself from doing anything that would put her in a worse place than she already is. Besides... I'd be a terrible friend if I did.
It's been a few days since. We're good, but she hasn't reported anything about her BF.
She'll just make comments like "I'm getting wet in the shower." or "I can't wait to take these clothes off."
I think she's trying to stir something up. Not sure, but I'm going to guess YES.

Oh well.


Why is it that the girls that want me are in relationships, and the girls I want are far far away?

Who knows.
What I do know is that I've become a little bit more confident and I've stopped looking for girls. I've stopped looking for love. I think it's a combination of things that contributed to me feeling this way.
I've been going to the gym almost everyday for 2 months. I haven't lost weight, but i'm losing some fat and gaining muscle.
I was never one for going to the gym, but i decided I wanted to be healthier and I wanted to be ready for the ULTIMATE (frisbee) season.
Actually, my friend who stayed over in bed with me told me when she saw me, "wow, you're getting beefy" or something like that. I said, "yeah. I've actually been going to the gym." "I can tell," she said.
It's very complimentary to hear that. And it wasn't the only place i've heard it.
Anywhoo... So I'm working out, eating better. (mostly) and I'm more confident in my actions. Therefore I'm not searching for love, but I will give as much love as I can to those who I believe deserve it.
Maybe one day someone will give it back.


or maybe not. :p


Currently people I'm attracted to:
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- my "ex" w/ bf (the one who has friend Morgan)
- a girl I met 2 months ago
- a (female) friend's older sister
- friend in Cali
- friend in NYC (slept over)
- one of my best friend's girlfriend (BUT... only in the way that I'd want someone LIKE her, not her)
- kind of attracted to friend in Boston. (not normally my type)
- this girl I met at the bar last week... she was in my gym.... (also not my type, but strange attraction to her)
- one of the personal trainers at the gym. (too bad she's 5 years younger and engaged)

These are all girls I find attractive. Do I want to date them?.... not necessarily. Do I want to sleep with them?..... not necessarily.
It all depends on the girl.



My belief is that I can offer person(X), this thing(Y), for (Z)amount of time. = (Y+X)Z / t
(and if I was good at math I'd probably make an accurate equation.) :p


Well... it's 1pm time for me to put pants on (or not), get out of bed (or not), and start my day!




Much love to all of you.
Sorry it has been forever.






ps. I'm going to make a GF application.
pps. & a FWB application.
ppps. & a NFTHOW (nerdy friend to hang out with) application.

Merry Christmas! Happy New Year! etc. etc.

My birthday was AMAZING! Thanks Miri for coming out for the festivities!
That chick is pretty rad. Meeting her in person makes me even more confident that she should already be pink.
And... she's prettier in person. (not possible!... but true)
Honestly though, I'd love to hang out with her again. She's pretty awesome.

Ps. I didn't, yet, finish that tequila rose.


Christmas with my mum and my nephews was a pretty good time too. I was only in CT for 3 days. I had to wake up early on sunday to beat the blizzard back to Mass. Then I had to work right in the middle of the storm. The worst part of the storm hit S.E. Mass between Midnight & 6am. Funny... that's almost my ENTIRE shift.
And if you kids don't know by now.... I drive a big box truck for the USPS. I maxed out at 40mph on the highways. WOAH!

Anywhoo...

Thanks to those of you who sent me happy birthday wishes! It was great. I <3 yous all.
Rainbow is fucking awesome too. If you don't know her by now, maybe you should make friends with her.

2011 looks like it's starting off Spectacular!
I have a good feeling about this year.
This is the year I ACTUALLY turn things around for the better. 27 yrs old must be the key.

I once had a prediction about myself. I had this vision that was as clear as day back in 2000 or 2002.
My "vision" was that I was going to have a "Heart Attack" at the age of 26.

I am now 27 and I haven't had a heart attack.... although... last year I was hurt by an old love... I found new love. I saw that love leaving me before she left... and then she did. I knew it was coming. I still love her. I mean. . . I care about her. I have love for her. I am not IN-LOVE with her. She's just a really good friend.

I think I needed that.

Maybe that was the "heart attack".

Maybe she was my defibrillator. Maybe I needed to meet her to get back on with my life and choose my own destiny. (funny that she has no idea what she's doing now though.) I'm trying to cheer her up and boost her confidence like she did for me... but to no avail right now.


Anywhoo......

2011 is starting great!

1 of my FAVORITE tv shows is back on the air!!!!

PRIMEVAL!
I <3 Hannah Spearritt!!!!

I'm really a sucker for brunettes, but this blonde is so friggin cute! (& maybe the british accent helps)



Well... this is actually longer than I intended...
I've got to go download some Pokemon! (yes I'm a nerd)

for those of you who play.. there's a download at Gamestop from today until the 9th! GO GO GO. :p


I'm also going to make a few appointments today for things that I actually need to survive.
Like.... the Dr; the Dentist; Insurance agent??



Not sure when I'll update again, but I'll be taking a ride to Johnny Cupcakes sometime this week to pick up a shirt. Anyone want to take a ride?



OH! and my boss for the USPS is changing me from UNDER the TABLE to ?Over? the Table.
I may even get insurance! maybe.

I would love to substitute again... if they would just stop asking me to sub on MONDAYS! arrggh!



okay. I'm going to stop.
gotta get the ball rolling.
Only 4 hours of sleep... but sooo much to do!


..... and..... GO!

It's my BIRTHDAY!


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Now make this girl pink, will ya? > Miri

k thanks.

I don't know where to start... if anywhere. So, I'll just say this > I < 3 Rainbow.

AND.... what should be stated even more is that EVERYONE should check out Miri's new set!

This girl is gorgeous. She is sweet. She should go pink. I honestly think she should've gone pink when she started.

I don't normally promote stuff (or people for that matter), but dammit.... this girl is hot!






With that said... If anyone knows who or what Johnny Cupcakes is then you may or may not know that he invited all of his employees, family, and a handful of loyal customers to play dodgeball with him.
I am a huge fan of his and the company he created and I was lucky enough to be invited to play. It was a blast. 2 hours of getting pelted with balls. (wait... that sounds dirtier and more homosexual than i meant it)
Anywhoo... it was a blast. I was invited to do it again this coming thursday, but I will be in CT by then. Oh well. Next time for sure!

I've been a little bit more open with myself and more open to new people. It's like I'm finding the old me that I lost so long ago. That me was afraid of being reprimanded in some way if I spoke to new people... especially girls for ANY reason. I'm glad I can do that again. I need to build my confidence more. It's a good quality to have.
I still want to be respected and respectable, but confidence (not cockiness) couldn't hurt.


also... it's been rough at the post office. Putting in long nights. not sleeping well.
So, I'm going to bed early tonight.
Like now.

Gooodnight!


please love Miri like i do.

I can't believe my 10 YR Highschool reunion is coming up. Yikes! Makes me realize I haven't done enough to progress myself forward in life.

ANYONE IN BOSTON HIRING?
ANYONE IN LONDON HIRING/HAVE A ROOM TO RENT?
DOES ANYONE HAVE theater or film experience they can share with me (professionally).


I'm not looking for hand outs. I'm looking for info.
Like my father says, "no one's going to toot your own horn."
So this is me asking for info to get me back on track.


I really want to live in Boston. I've been saying that for a long time. My friend is moving out of his apartment in Jan. He needs a new one and a new roomie. Maybe I'll be making enough $ by then.

Oh yeah. I need a career. Jesus baby gnome herders! Do I need a long sustainable career or what!




in other news: I took a really cool picture the other day. I was in the shower and... you know what, I'm just going to leave it at that. You can decide for yourself what it is, or ask me and i might show you.