Nothing too interesting to say, but here goes anyway.
I just spent the week babysitting for a friend while she had herself a much needed vacation, four kids will do that to you, I tried to tell her not to procreate so often...she was not particularly amused however.
anyway, one week, one me, thre of them (The fourth was with her dad) so...of course, all hell breaks loose, I admit...i spoil them, we had fun, no school, way to much park, way too much cooking on the grill....and I learned I fucking love slip and slides...yeah...i do. lol
So she comes back, thinking I had destroyed her house....and get this...it was cleaner than when she left, the kids were good the whole week, and apparently...I am awesome. Go figure!
Taught Alex how to ride his bike, yay me!
Taught Grace how to sew, so she can fix her own stuff, she's pretty bright for a 10 year old, just a little too naieve, and that worries me.
Then, little Miss Hope, the devil Child, The queen of evil....and oh how I adore her! I had to teach her how to care for the garden, she is six, and stubborn, she likes to get Negative attention instead of positive, i do not know why, but...she loves helping me in my garden, I promised her some tomatoes and green bell peppers as soon as they are ripe, her payment for her very helpful assist.
OK, Enough of that.
Anywho, my house is now quite, and I find myself...missing them.
Odd? Maybe, but then, i am 27, and I have avoided serious relationships for the last 5 years, sure, I have had a few shorties...but...those simply do not fill the need for real compainionship.
Why have i avoided serious relationships? AH! there is the big question! See, i was homeless, and I figured, "No need to drag anyone else down", so, I stayed distant from the ladies, I made friends, watched as women who were interested in me, and I was interested in, develop other relationships, and then, I finally got on my feet, ...and still stayed distant...WHY? hmmmn...still...
Nothing too interesting to say, but here goes anyway.
I just spent the week babysitting for a friend while she had herself a much needed vacation, four kids will do that to you, I tried to tell her not to procreate so often...she was not particularly amused however.
anyway, one week, one me, thre of them (The fourth was with her dad) so...of course, all hell breaks loose, I admit...i spoil them, we had fun, no school, way to much park, way too much cooking on the grill....and I learned I fucking love slip and slides...yeah...i do. lol
So she comes back, thinking I had destroyed her house....and get this...it was cleaner than when she left, the kids were good the whole week, and apparently...I am awesome. Go figure!
Taught Alex how to ride his bike, yay me!
Taught Grace how to sew, so she can fix her own stuff, she's pretty bright for a 10 year old, just a little too naieve, and that worries me.
Then, little Miss Hope, the devil Child, The queen of evil....and oh how I adore her! I had to teach her how to care for the garden, she is six, and stubborn, she likes to get Negative attention instead of positive, i do not know why, but...she loves helping me in my garden, I promised her some tomatoes and green bell peppers as soon as they are ripe, her payment for her very helpful assist.
OK, Enough of that.
Anywho, my house is now quite, and I find myself...missing them.
Odd? Maybe, but then, i am 27, and I have avoided serious relationships for the last 5 years, sure, I have had a few shorties...but...those simply do not fill the need for real compainionship.
Why have i avoided serious relationships? AH! there is the big question! See, i was homeless, and I figured, "No need to drag anyone else down", so, I stayed distant from the ladies, I made friends, watched as women who were interested in me, and I was interested in, develop other relationships, and then, I finally got on my feet, ...and still stayed distant...WHY? hmmmn...still was not stable, I know they say that all you need is love, but love pays no bills, love puts no food on the table, and love does not allow me to treat a woman to nights out and allow me to gift her with little tokens that just say "I enjoy sharing my life with you"
Now, I have a good job, I have no ...errr...'Alternate bills" to pay (Yep, clean as a whistle!
)
and I find myself pondering the words of a little girl, Grace asks me as i sat down to watch a movie with them..."Why don't you have a wife?"
I had no answer, and worse, the question stuck with me. Why indeed?
I guess it's time to buckle down, push aside my worries about socializing, and at least try to find someone I would enjoy spending my life with!
sounds like a plan...in theory at least.
I don't know, maybe I have simply ben alone so long, I will never be able to accomplish this very important life goal.
I mean...at least my requirements are not steep
Must be female
Must not be into drugs hardcore (Pot is fine, it's natural and therefore not a "drug" as I see those as manmade)
Must be able to tolerate me for who I am (Yes, we need to get along!)
and...must not be Christian, or open to other religions or lack thereof
thats it. thats all I got.
and yet...I feel as though I hould be looking for a needle in a haystack
I dunno, lets just end this rant before I bore you to death! lol
I just spent the week babysitting for a friend while she had herself a much needed vacation, four kids will do that to you, I tried to tell her not to procreate so often...she was not particularly amused however.
anyway, one week, one me, thre of them (The fourth was with her dad) so...of course, all hell breaks loose, I admit...i spoil them, we had fun, no school, way to much park, way too much cooking on the grill....and I learned I fucking love slip and slides...yeah...i do. lol
So she comes back, thinking I had destroyed her house....and get this...it was cleaner than when she left, the kids were good the whole week, and apparently...I am awesome. Go figure!
Taught Alex how to ride his bike, yay me!
Taught Grace how to sew, so she can fix her own stuff, she's pretty bright for a 10 year old, just a little too naieve, and that worries me.
Then, little Miss Hope, the devil Child, The queen of evil....and oh how I adore her! I had to teach her how to care for the garden, she is six, and stubborn, she likes to get Negative attention instead of positive, i do not know why, but...she loves helping me in my garden, I promised her some tomatoes and green bell peppers as soon as they are ripe, her payment for her very helpful assist.
OK, Enough of that.
Anywho, my house is now quite, and I find myself...missing them.
Odd? Maybe, but then, i am 27, and I have avoided serious relationships for the last 5 years, sure, I have had a few shorties...but...those simply do not fill the need for real compainionship.
Why have i avoided serious relationships? AH! there is the big question! See, i was homeless, and I figured, "No need to drag anyone else down", so, I stayed distant from the ladies, I made friends, watched as women who were interested in me, and I was interested in, develop other relationships, and then, I finally got on my feet, ...and still stayed distant...WHY? hmmmn...still...