I don't know what to write, I'm alive and taking life a day at a time, kinda hard not to be depressed and want to climb into a bottle and drink myself to sleep every night though, I'm definitely rocking turbulent times up here in pdx. I miss everybody I know in LA that wasn't a fake piece of shit.

I feel completely (insert your favorite apathetic, depressed cliche here) All I want to do is sleep, and get drunk, and wake up mid afternoons.

Looking for a job is just about pointless at the moment. I'm on extended vacation..

Maybe someday I won't have to pick myself up off the floor anymore, maybe some day I can be truly satiated with being bored and secure, fat and happy, maybe it's just a mid twenties thing, I already did the train tracks squatter kids city travel bit when I was a kid though, I don't think i'd survive that mess again.

But until that magical day comes where I wake up, and I can be okay with fucking people over to get what I want, I'm going to be right here struggling to stay afloat.

I don't know what to write, I'm alive and taking life a day at a time, kinda hard not to be depressed and want to climb into a bottle and drink myself to sleep every night though, I'm definitely rocking turbulent times up here in pdx. I miss everybody I know in LA that wasn't a fake piece of shit.

I feel completely (insert your favorite apathetic, depressed cliche here) All I want to do is sleep, and get drunk, and wake up mid afternoons.

Looking for a job is just about pointless at the moment. I'm on extended vacation..

Maybe someday I won't have to pick myself up off the floor anymore, maybe some day I can be truly satiated with being bored and secure, fat and happy, maybe it's just a mid twenties thing, I already did the train tracks squatter kids city travel bit when I was a kid though, I don't think i'd survive that mess again.

But until that magical day comes where I wake up, and I can be okay with fucking people over to get what I want, I'm going to be right here struggling to stay afloat.