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I lie in bed awake again. Untouched.
We even sleep beneath separate blankets tonight,
as if an invisable line has drawn itself down the center of our bed.
You cough and say "I love you" but it sounds more like a question.
My body has gone cold.
A warm meal, uneaten, left to sit out all night as tha plate grows chillier.

Outside my window,...
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nudwig:
Oh man, this is why I stay the craggy old/young bachelor hermit. I'm sorry girl, truly sorry... get the fuck outta the suburbs if possible and magic will come again
boxterjulep:
I stand on the rooftop and yell at the night
that's how the conversation begins
from there things settle downand we talk
like civilized entities that we be and hash out
what it is that stinks, the chores left unfinished
no point in keeping it bottled up
up and at them now or the mess will only get worse
speak, damn you, speak!
can't sleep, can't sleep with shit brewing
people live for passion but passion is as much a recluse as anyone of us. stage performance is excellent! in the flesh, off the stage, sometimes very hard to talk to. a different persona? we play hide and seek. problem is we rarely define when it begins and when it ends who is hiding, who is seeking.
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grayblue:
poor craftsmanship, eh? hire union. um, wait...
nouvelle:
hey hey hey...you live in santa rosa? so do i. it's a small world after all. have a beautiful day.
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Up late agian working. I'm sooo excited, I finished the literary magazine that I was laying out and FTP'd it off to the printer tonight. It feels good to have a moment to breathe.

Lying in bed sleepless. All I can think about are the creatures. What does it feel like to be the LAST in a species? To be that final butterfly, elephant bird,...
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nudwig:
dunno, seems to be there in some pics. I mean shit, I AM a total angel... ha haha
chuntcockula:
Hmmm.... Last of the line.. Well, I can't speak for the animals as a last of a species... but as the last male child (mind, male child - our society loves to think everything is centered around us wink) of at least 5 generations....

There are two ways of viewing it.

One, that there is a great need to procreate and by not dong that, I am incomplete and am the sole witness to a disaster. And you then drive yourself nuts seeking the unattainable...

Or two, that I am the culmination of my ancestors. In order to best honor my species (or family, as the case may be) I must strive to do everything I can to honor that to the best of my ability. All of their yesterdays have lighted me the way.... Well, of course to death, but more importantly, to a brief yet important life. What I do with what life they have given me and how they are all part of me.. it is very humbling.

It doesn't really change the tragedy nor heal the loneliness, but at least you don't let the species go quietly sobbing to its death...

Anyway... you like comics, so I guess I would suggest Robinson and Harris' Starman put out by DC... now discontinued but in GN form. One of the major themes is fillial responsability/lineage/ and how that does not necessarily shape who you are, but what you are. Plus, Jack has awesome tats.
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I can't wait to get out of suburbia. How did I end up here? It's the weirdest thing. This house I'm living in is the first place that I have ever lived where I accually got tick-or-treaters on Halloween. I've always lived in places that deter such merriment. It's the first place I've lived where I get junk mail, or have to worry about the...
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boxterjulep:
I don't understand people that wash their cars everyday. I don't quite understand the suburbs either. I took a journey around the bay, eastside, south side, and for the life of me I couldn't tell the difference. The monotony is frightening. Everything is so peaceful but I can't help but get the feeling these people behind their little castle walls are probably the most xenophobic, scared little people on the planet.

The wheelchair gag, I like, I like. I could see doing that in the fishermen's wharf area. give the guests a pleasant memory.
nudwig:
Yer mom sounds cool. My mom didn't really like it when I brought a dead bird into the house as a kid and thought I could bring it back to life with the Operation game. I thought I was doing ok because it wasn't buzzing...
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Ah, a moment...

The moon is beautiful, I cannot wait to see her again.
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I feel like I'm getting a cold. It's probably from staying up all night working in front of this damn screen. Too much stress. I'm almost done with the damn newspaper. It would have taken me half the time if the damn ad manager & editor would get thier shit together. Not to nention send me files that acually work. FUCK!

Right after I FTP...
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boxterjulep:
and yet your dream seems to make sense, a whole lot more than mine. what do you think that "white fluid" was?
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solisis:
word on the streets has it you lived in a missile silo once..... i need to know where this missile silo is. i need to live there.... my dream always has been to live in a titan 2 intercontinental ballistic missile silo.....
please.... please tell
mirkwoodmaiden:
who?
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I realy need to get out. I've been cooped up in this house for days, working my ass off in front of the fucking computer. This is the last of the beautiful weather in California and I'm missing it. Oh well, I love the rain too.

mmm, Ive been doing tons of yoga when I take breaks from this job I'm working on. It keeps...
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shaden:
I've always thought it would be cool to be a ring master with a monkey on my shoulder and a big pot belly. Only problem is I don't have a monkey nor do I drink enough to have a pot belly.

Oh well...there goes that dream...
dia:
try suicidedia3@yahoo.com.
It changed.
Was just suicidedia...
Take a hunchback out to lunch, Jack!
Holy Christ, ich bin surprised to see you here! Or anywhere!
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Late night again. Trying to layout this damn newspaper. Is like fucking Tetris only with out the cool music. Some time when I am not delerious I will finish my profile. Then everyone can view my gleaming gap toothed smile.
dia:
MISS A.... no fucking way! smile I know you!