Firstly I've been working on this song today. It's still very rough Here's a song!
Also in other news, I saw this girl, twice, been talking to her for a few weeks, but decided that a relationship wasn't really what I wanted, told her this and got a much more negative emotional reaction that I expected. Admittedly the second time we did stuff we probably shouldn't have, but she initiated a lot of those things. But I'd always told her I wasn't sure it was what I wanted, she was a bit younger, we didn't really click on many levels. I was always struggling to maintain conversation and was always going to be putting in the effort for us to see each other. I could see that happening and it not making me happy so I thought I'd end it sooner rather than later, but did not expect the shit storm I got. You'd think we'd been dating for months. But I do admit that I made mistakes, that's for sure. And it's made me realise that I need to wise up a bit and grow up and move on. I want an adult life and responsibilities so I need to stop acting like a kid.
I'm still struggling to decide what it is that I actually want to do with my life and then how to set about doing it. I just know I don't want to do what I'm doing now, and I don't want to be in the place I am now. I had an amazing night on Saturday surrounded by friends and I miss the days when that used to happen more often. I want to get back to the days where I live with friends, I have something meaningful to do with my time at work, and something entertaining to do with friends when I'm not. But maybe I can't make that happen.
Back to the music videos for this blog. This time with Rose Elinor Dougall. She used to be in a band called The Pipettes, who were a retro 60s female pop group. There first album was all kinds of fun, then 2 of them left and the second one was guff. But this is what one of them has been up to since she left. It's a much more grown up sort of thing, but there's still nods to the Pipettes in there.
Also in other news, I saw this girl, twice, been talking to her for a few weeks, but decided that a relationship wasn't really what I wanted, told her this and got a much more negative emotional reaction that I expected. Admittedly the second time we did stuff we probably shouldn't have, but she initiated a lot of those things. But I'd always told her I wasn't sure it was what I wanted, she was a bit younger, we didn't really click on many levels. I was always struggling to maintain conversation and was always going to be putting in the effort for us to see each other. I could see that happening and it not making me happy so I thought I'd end it sooner rather than later, but did not expect the shit storm I got. You'd think we'd been dating for months. But I do admit that I made mistakes, that's for sure. And it's made me realise that I need to wise up a bit and grow up and move on. I want an adult life and responsibilities so I need to stop acting like a kid.
I'm still struggling to decide what it is that I actually want to do with my life and then how to set about doing it. I just know I don't want to do what I'm doing now, and I don't want to be in the place I am now. I had an amazing night on Saturday surrounded by friends and I miss the days when that used to happen more often. I want to get back to the days where I live with friends, I have something meaningful to do with my time at work, and something entertaining to do with friends when I'm not. But maybe I can't make that happen.
Back to the music videos for this blog. This time with Rose Elinor Dougall. She used to be in a band called The Pipettes, who were a retro 60s female pop group. There first album was all kinds of fun, then 2 of them left and the second one was guff. But this is what one of them has been up to since she left. It's a much more grown up sort of thing, but there's still nods to the Pipettes in there.
padam:
You did the responsible thing, so well done!