MEMBER SINCE: August 2010
occupation: Psychometrist
crush: My favourite person in the whole world
gets me hot: Tall guys, or curvy girls with great smiles.
sign: Taurus
i lost my virginity: To a skid. Bonus points if you know what I'm talking about.
body mods: 4 Tattoos: 1. Pentagram, right shin 2. Spider, left wrist 3. Full moon scene, left shoulder blade 4. Two interlocked hearts, back of neck Piercings: 1. Ears (Who cares, right?) 2. Nipples 3. Right helix
into: Quirky, cool people who know how to have a good time. I like a smart, funny person who's not afraid to show how goofy life can be- someone who can talk about philosophy one minute, and then follow it up by tossing themselves into a snowbank. Life's too short to take ourselves too seriously, you know?
makes me happy: Having a good time with friends and family- I'm a simple creature. Chilling out, playing games with friends at home, hitting the beach in the summer, hitting the hills in the winter.
makes me sad: People who bitch needlessly about things that they can change, but choose not to. People who abuse or neglect children. People who can't see how beautiful they truly are.
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I'm aware of the fact that I am all about power and control. A lot of my life, I've felt out of control, and as a result, I try to assert control over those who I'm in a relationship with. I know this, I'm working on it, and I get why it's an issue.
In my current relationship, I've always held the power, always held the control, and it's not healthy, but it made me feel safe. Secure, because I truly held all of the cards.
This all changed on Sunday, where I made a mistake that could have easily been a really, really shitty thing, but ended up strengthening the relationship that I have with my husband. We're more open, we're communicating better, and the air is clear. More importantly, there is a balance between the two of us that hasn't existed for years.
I know it's better, and I know it's healthy, but I can't help feeling that I am teetering on a precipice, and on one side, there's mania, and the other a dark depression. I'm on the verge of crying, but I've got a huge smile on my face. I've never felt so conflicted.