Another Winter is dying off. Will this be the Spring where I turn the corner I never seem to get to?
Two years after my transplant and still alone. Still...
Two years after my transplant and still alone. Still...
I saw a dear friend buried this week.
He was all those things people say when they lose someone...Sweet, kind, funny...only in Steve's case it was all true.
His death was also a huge shock to all who knew him. Not simply because of his age but I think due to his disposition. When you brought his name up people just smiled. He was so many good things but also he was not so many things...Steve did not get drunk and pick fights, indeed for many years he was sober. You never heard of him getting arrested, getting a DWI, he wasn't the guy who lost his apartment and needed to sleep on your couch. In over twenty five years I never saw Steve in a bar and avoided him because he was too messed up or drunk.
I am afraid this was what allowed him to fly under the radar with his demons.
When I thought of him, when someone mentioned him I thought, and think of him smiling. Telling bad jokes. Sitting at the drums with a dozen or more bands I was fortunate enough to see him play with over the years.
Steve never cried in his beer (or Soda and lemon) or on my shoulder....Now I wish he had.
We need to look out for one another. Keep an eye on those you love.
Steven your timing was always impeccable till now. This was way too early.
Love Mark
He was all those things people say when they lose someone...Sweet, kind, funny...only in Steve's case it was all true.
His death was also a huge shock to all who knew him. Not simply because of his age but I think due to his disposition. When you brought his name up people just smiled. He was so many good things but also he was not so many things...Steve did not get drunk and pick fights, indeed for many years he was sober. You never heard of him getting arrested, getting a DWI, he wasn't the guy who lost his apartment and needed to sleep on your couch. In over twenty five years I never saw Steve in a bar and avoided him because he was too messed up or drunk.
I am afraid this was what allowed him to fly under the radar with his demons.
When I thought of him, when someone mentioned him I thought, and think of him smiling. Telling bad jokes. Sitting at the drums with a dozen or more bands I was fortunate enough to see him play with over the years.
Steve never cried in his beer (or Soda and lemon) or on my shoulder....Now I wish he had.
We need to look out for one another. Keep an eye on those you love.
Steven your timing was always impeccable till now. This was way too early.
Love Mark
Stepped up to the counter at The Spyhouse today and saw a sawbuck on the floor. It was right in front of the counter. Someone had obviously just dropped it. I handed it to the girl at the counter. Before I took my coffee the guy who lost the tenner came up and claimed it. He was amazed that someone had returned it. Said what a great country this was. He had a thick Caribbean accent.
No real point to this. Just struck me as, I don't know what..
No real point to this. Just struck me as, I don't know what..
The Birthday was so great.
Jameson
Grilled Oysters
Raw oysters
Pate Choux Gnocchi in cheesy love
Top Butt in a Jalapeno Demi
DelMonico grilled expertly
Mahi Mahi with Great Fries
Ho Ho
Cookies
Buterscotch Pudding
And a Nightcap at the CC...
THAKN YOU! DPA, JA, MR, ST, ASW, CT et al.
NOW, Anyone interested in going to see the Minnesota Opera Production of Romep & Juliet?
Jameson
Grilled Oysters
Raw oysters
Pate Choux Gnocchi in cheesy love
Top Butt in a Jalapeno Demi
DelMonico grilled expertly
Mahi Mahi with Great Fries
Ho Ho
Cookies
Buterscotch Pudding
And a Nightcap at the CC...
THAKN YOU! DPA, JA, MR, ST, ASW, CT et al.
NOW, Anyone interested in going to see the Minnesota Opera Production of Romep & Juliet?
Friday 18 January I'll turn 45.
I spent nine years on dialysis. Sick, weak and alone. But not lonely. I think I accepted my situation as a package deal. Home dialysis 4 times a day for eight years and hemo dialysis, the needly kind three times a week for four hours a shot. All left me sick and week and without time to meet or keep up a relationship.
This last year I am reaclimating myself after a transplant. It sounds crazy but NOW I am so alone. Because I guess I know I could be with someone but am not.
Well here's to a new year. Healthier than I've been in years and ready for..
I spent nine years on dialysis. Sick, weak and alone. But not lonely. I think I accepted my situation as a package deal. Home dialysis 4 times a day for eight years and hemo dialysis, the needly kind three times a week for four hours a shot. All left me sick and week and without time to meet or keep up a relationship.
This last year I am reaclimating myself after a transplant. It sounds crazy but NOW I am so alone. Because I guess I know I could be with someone but am not.
Well here's to a new year. Healthier than I've been in years and ready for..
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