age: 31 (Mar 26, 1981)
MEMBER SINCE: March 2003
occupation: student/whatever you want me to be
sign: Fire!! i'm a Ram, baby!
most humbling moment: everyday??
body mods: i lost track...
stats: tiny but explosive
makes me happy: you and you. (you know who you both are.) oh yeah, cant forget: good friends, a good time, good music, rocking out at home in my undies when no one else is home :), good conversations, basically having fun and living life to the fullest.
fantasy: for you to love me just the way i am. don't stay if your heart beats for another. all i want is to be your one and only...why is this so hard?
gets me hot: biting that spot on the back of my neck that makes a shiver run down my spine, causing my whole body to quiver. mmmm!!!
makes me sad: you and you. (same people as listed above.) being far away from "you"#1 and not being able to help you out when i know you need it, not being able to do much of anything until "you"#1 return to my side, missing my usual cheery disposition and outgoing character because nothing seems worth anything when "you"#1 are gone for too long, not knowing if "you" #1 will ever return to me, not knowing what to do about any aspect in my life at this point.
into: biting, hair pulling, all-out passionate lovemaking, and once in awhile i need and love just a good hard fuck.
So here's an update of my lovely shitty life:
>>my 3 year anniversary with my boy was this past new years eve, but i was frusterated w/him due to him not coming home the previous night and not letting me know where he was or at least that he was ok. so instead of spening it together, we both went our separate ways for the countdown to 2004.
>>on the 6th, i find out that my boyfriend spent the night before (the 5th) at the hospital after dropping me off at work because he suddenly couldn't stop coughing up large amounts of blood. he then told me that he had to go back to the hospital for a CAT scan and a spinal tap. (his 3rd spinal tap that i know of, and within the past 4 years that i've know him.)
>>on the 9th i decided to take the nigh off from work so i could spend some time with my boyfriend beause i wanted to support him and all his stress. but to my dismay, he floored me by saying he was taking a trip to colorado for awhile and he wasn't sure if he was ever coming back. he basically stated that he needed to get away for awhile b/c if he continued on any longer in the city w/me, he felt that he wouldn't make it.(stay alive, in other words, due to all the of the building stress.) ((there's a great deal more than the fact that we were having relationship issues and his health condition, but i'll delve into those issue at a later date.))
>>on the 15th,...
she just recently moved into my home as a sublet, which is cool and kinda a relief for me cuz the previous roomie caused a great deal of shit between my boyfriend and myself. she's also a big help in moral support. 
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