So now I must prepare to do something I never thought I would need to. I must start a new chapter in my life. I must learn to walk alone now. I must learn to live life for myself.
The last 15 years of my life were dedicated to someone I thought would be there with me to the end. We both vowed this. I guess that this was only taken seriously by me. I know that we have changed a lot since that day. But that never lessened the commitment that I made that day. The promise that I pledged that day. To love this one person until the end. No matter what obstacles came before us.

Our life recently has been stressful. I know this. When I was laid off in April I never dreamed I would still be looking in July for a new job. But these are the struggles that we needed to face together. Now I need to face them alone.

I hope that one day I can find someone who will love me. I hope that my life can now be lived for the right reasons.

I am scared of what is down this new road that life has presented me with. I feel alone and cold. But I know these feelings will fade in time. How much time is anybodies guess at this point. How much time does it take to stop loving someone, that you have loved everyday more than the last over 15 years.

I know what I need to do. Now it is time for me to do it.

So now I must prepare to do something I never thought I would need to. I must start a new chapter in my life. I must learn to walk alone now. I must learn to live life for myself.
The last 15 years of my life were dedicated to someone I thought would be there with me to the end. We both vowed this. I guess that this was only taken seriously by me. I know that we have changed a lot since that day. But that never lessened the commitment that I made that day. The promise that I pledged that day. To love this one person until the end. No matter what obstacles came before us.

Our life recently has been stressful. I know this. When I was laid off in April I never dreamed I would still be looking in July for a new job. But these are the struggles that we needed to face together. Now I need to face them alone.

I hope that one day I can find someone who will love me. I hope that my life can now be lived for the right reasons.

I am scared of what is down this new road that life has presented me with. I feel alone and cold. But I know these feelings will fade in time. How much time is anybodies guess at this point. How much time does it take to stop loving someone, that you have loved everyday more than the last over 15 years.

I know what I need to do. Now it is time for me to do it.