guinnessdylan

You know when you have conversations with a group of people and the topic moves along nicely, only for someone to chip in with a comment that pushes the mood down.

That’s how I feel with my Suicide ghost friend … I love him, but I really hate him for popping up all the time and often out of the blue.

I do love him...
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We’ve had a nice heatwave in the UK during June but the climate has been somewhat temperamental this past week certainly in the London area where I am.

That said hot nights, busy days at work, and an endless feel of unrest has left me rather.. well rather restless.

God decided to unleash the heavens this evening.. and I took the opportunity of my regular...
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I see visions of people everywhere but often more present in clouds .

To fade away. Like the sunset.

I’d like to commemorate a man who never got to live, cradling his newborn.

Notes on cleaning.. no one else need to read btw I find it nice to have a bit of a thought diary on here every now and then.

I think it was the great Charlie Brown (or was it Chuck Palahniuk?) who was quoted as saying

“ The things you own end up owning you. It's only after you lose everything that you're free to...
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I don’t feel like dying today. Progress comes in small pauses

If all known life is composed of particles formed from one central source could it be that our consciousness is really an awareness and historic observational memory on events that occurred billions of years ago. It explains why no one can really govern their future or their past because it already happened a long long time ago.

The universe and its infinite wonder is predetermined visible without nearby interference.
In reality, the vision of wonder is obscured by the candy floss of life’s troubles being pulled apart in front of our eyes.

If we wait long enough, the universe will become clear once more. Like the night sky.

I hate it, I love it. I feel content in the sadness that creeps into every pore of my being.

The love of sadness is a feeling I cannot escape.

The sadness that invaded my waking hours into sleep from early steps.

The sadness I know that will never leave my soul as I draw my last.

The sadness that I take on exiting every
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Tiredness kills my emotions, I really am so tired . Go out tired, eat tired . Live life love lost tired

When will life end or will I become less tied to being tired . Becoming tired never planned but old age creeps on me like an alarm clock.

will I become less tired or carry on.

I don’t want to fall asleep or let myself be the person with dark thoughts or let the dark part of my self take over how I am feeling. I am scared to let that side of me take control of how I am thinking and feeling. It is almost as if I am scared of the side of myself that has negative, critical and...
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I see two body shapes on the floor I think they are plastic dummies but then maybe children playing a game. As I cross the street I can hear the sound of pain and worry as the age of the faces become clear these people have life experience beyond mine and those around.. offering to help despite no wanting the blood is clear that distress...
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