You know that feeling where you feel super shitty, but aren't sure why, and just wanna fucking cry at everything and want someone to talk to but you don't know what about, and you don't wanna see anyone but are feeling so alone so you really want someone around, and want to just curl up and EMO out for like 900 years? That's how I feel right now. Its TERRIBLE.
I miss my mom a lot right now. More and more on my mind is the thought that I DEFINATELY need to move to be closer to her after I graduate. She's having a super rough time these days and I'm worried. But I just got an email from her and she does not want me around. I'm contributing to her distress, when all I'm doing is trying to follow my heart and get my shit together. Apparently I'm not capable of doing that, not by her standards at least. She's one of the most important people in my world and has always been there. But now... like ?!?!?!??! Time to grow the fuck up and find myself, obviously. Time to leave the computer. *crying*
One bright spot- my sister. I'm only just realizing her. I LOVE YOU LAYNE.
"It's about time that I came clean with you. No longer fine, no longer running smooth. I thought that I found myself under something new. Just one more line I repeat over and over again till I'm blue in the face with a choking regret. As I talk in circles around you on my bed. Can't say I blame you one bit when you kept it all inside, when you left that night.
It's about time that you got sick of me. No longer fun, and so far from interesting. I thought that I found me a cure for feeling old. Just one more line to keep me sleeping loudly in disgrace with a shameful regret as I talk in tongues to myself in my bed. Can't say I blame you one bit when you kept it all inside, when you left that night.
And all that followed fell, like mercury to hell. Somehow we lost our heads for the last time.
And all that followed fell, like mercury to hell. Somehow we lost our heads for the last time.
And I don't dream since I quit sleeping. And I haven't slept since I met you...
And you can't breathe without coughing in daytime, neither can I.
So what do you say- your coffin or mine?"
-Alkaline Trio
I miss my mom a lot right now. More and more on my mind is the thought that I DEFINATELY need to move to be closer to her after I graduate. She's having a super rough time these days and I'm worried. But I just got an email from her and she does not want me around. I'm contributing to her distress, when all I'm doing is trying to follow my heart and get my shit together. Apparently I'm not capable of doing that, not by her standards at least. She's one of the most important people in my world and has always been there. But now... like ?!?!?!??! Time to grow the fuck up and find myself, obviously. Time to leave the computer. *crying*
One bright spot- my sister. I'm only just realizing her. I LOVE YOU LAYNE.
"It's about time that I came clean with you. No longer fine, no longer running smooth. I thought that I found myself under something new. Just one more line I repeat over and over again till I'm blue in the face with a choking regret. As I talk in circles around you on my bed. Can't say I blame you one bit when you kept it all inside, when you left that night.
It's about time that you got sick of me. No longer fun, and so far from interesting. I thought that I found me a cure for feeling old. Just one more line to keep me sleeping loudly in disgrace with a shameful regret as I talk in tongues to myself in my bed. Can't say I blame you one bit when you kept it all inside, when you left that night.
And all that followed fell, like mercury to hell. Somehow we lost our heads for the last time.
And all that followed fell, like mercury to hell. Somehow we lost our heads for the last time.
And I don't dream since I quit sleeping. And I haven't slept since I met you...
And you can't breathe without coughing in daytime, neither can I.
So what do you say- your coffin or mine?"
-Alkaline Trio
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