I'll try to see if my camera works so that I can take some pictures. I'm itching to show how long my dreads are getting to the forum of dreadthusiasts at dread_up_get_up on LJ.
I'm going to the Rainbow Gathering in New Mexico in a week. Wow. That's sooner than I thought. Anyways, its free, minus the $65 for gasoline and some change for nutrient-rich foods. The place apparently has lots of kitchens and free food/classes/everything. Some 20,000 people can end up there around the 4th of July. It'll be the first year I haven't helped my family with their business after like 10 years.
I really need to get out and see the world for once though. I feel like now is the year I have to just give up saying "no" or "next year" to things. For one, I have to. Big committment, ahem- baby- coming into the picture. And for two, I feel like I'm still going through that process in adolescence when you find yourself and who you are going to be. I've got my degree now, but I'm still looking for more schooling, some Spanish, some dentist stuff to get me on my way to being a DDS.
Do I really have time to do everything in life that I want?
I'm going to the Rainbow Gathering in New Mexico in a week. Wow. That's sooner than I thought. Anyways, its free, minus the $65 for gasoline and some change for nutrient-rich foods. The place apparently has lots of kitchens and free food/classes/everything. Some 20,000 people can end up there around the 4th of July. It'll be the first year I haven't helped my family with their business after like 10 years.
I really need to get out and see the world for once though. I feel like now is the year I have to just give up saying "no" or "next year" to things. For one, I have to. Big committment, ahem- baby- coming into the picture. And for two, I feel like I'm still going through that process in adolescence when you find yourself and who you are going to be. I've got my degree now, but I'm still looking for more schooling, some Spanish, some dentist stuff to get me on my way to being a DDS.
Do I really have time to do everything in life that I want?
Okay maybe I do have internet. But I doubt its going to be permanent...
I have news. BIG news. First, I'm graduating in June. I'll have a B.A. in Anthropology. Second, I'm going to visit Alaska in August. I want to see what's its like. I may go to law school, may study to become a forensic anthropologist or a Anthropology professor after some fieldwork, I may go to dental school. I'm confused where to head from here. I'll probably go to CSU Chico since that is a decently small city and I can get a M.A. there. Third, I'm going to be a mother in January. I am about 8 weeks along and I'm thoroughly in love with my boyfriend of almost a year. I can't wait to share the experience of being a parent with him. We are engaged... indefinitely. I cannot afford school unless I remain unmarried. So we'll just have to wait on that.
Fourth, I'm not going to Africa.
Too many commitments, not enough Shannon to go around. I'll probably go later in life, around 30. I heard from my professor that having a child in the field is a great way to interact with people and get information. Motherly trust. Though if I do go to Africa its probably unlikely anyone will talk to me unless I'm a married mother. So I'll have to get that done before my adventures. Or hell, maybe if I stick to the Alaska thing I can study Inuits or underwater archaeology along the Bering Strait. *shrug* I am so full of the future. I can't wait to be a mommy and homeschool my brilliant lil' one about the world while showing him/her it first hand.
Ooo,oo. Or maybe I'll get a PhD in Education and open up my own private school near Anchorage while having a small hydroponic farm in the rustic outlands. *sigh* I'll take my time on these choices. I just want to be able to afford to travel every now and then.
I have news. BIG news. First, I'm graduating in June. I'll have a B.A. in Anthropology. Second, I'm going to visit Alaska in August. I want to see what's its like. I may go to law school, may study to become a forensic anthropologist or a Anthropology professor after some fieldwork, I may go to dental school. I'm confused where to head from here. I'll probably go to CSU Chico since that is a decently small city and I can get a M.A. there. Third, I'm going to be a mother in January. I am about 8 weeks along and I'm thoroughly in love with my boyfriend of almost a year. I can't wait to share the experience of being a parent with him. We are engaged... indefinitely. I cannot afford school unless I remain unmarried. So we'll just have to wait on that.
Fourth, I'm not going to Africa.
Too many commitments, not enough Shannon to go around. I'll probably go later in life, around 30. I heard from my professor that having a child in the field is a great way to interact with people and get information. Motherly trust. Though if I do go to Africa its probably unlikely anyone will talk to me unless I'm a married mother. So I'll have to get that done before my adventures. Or hell, maybe if I stick to the Alaska thing I can study Inuits or underwater archaeology along the Bering Strait. *shrug* I am so full of the future. I can't wait to be a mommy and homeschool my brilliant lil' one about the world while showing him/her it first hand.Ooo,oo. Or maybe I'll get a PhD in Education and open up my own private school near Anchorage while having a small hydroponic farm in the rustic outlands. *sigh* I'll take my time on these choices. I just want to be able to afford to travel every now and then.
I don't have internet anymore... its really sucking! I have to use community computers and thankfully now I'm finished with feeling weird looking up "porn" sites in front of people. At least the people over my back are getting a good look at things for free. Hell, maybe it'll even get them to sign up?
Its a really hot day here in Santa Cruz. I can't imagine how hot it must be in places where the ocean doesn't cool everything down. I really want to be immersed in water right now. I am going to paint my trailer some more then take a cool, long shower with this new Cedar Sage soap I bought. Mmmm, I can't wait! Then I'll watch some Sex in the City, because I haven't seen that in awhile and I just rented Season 5. I didn't even know there was a season 5...
Ah yes. A relaxed Saturday afternoon and night. I have work tomorrow morning bright and early at 6:30. So I'll get to my tasks and bid you all adieu.
Its a really hot day here in Santa Cruz. I can't imagine how hot it must be in places where the ocean doesn't cool everything down. I really want to be immersed in water right now. I am going to paint my trailer some more then take a cool, long shower with this new Cedar Sage soap I bought. Mmmm, I can't wait! Then I'll watch some Sex in the City, because I haven't seen that in awhile and I just rented Season 5. I didn't even know there was a season 5...
Ah yes. A relaxed Saturday afternoon and night. I have work tomorrow morning bright and early at 6:30. So I'll get to my tasks and bid you all adieu.
There's a Beltane party in the Santa Cruz woods tomorrow night that I'm quite eager to attend. I'll be dancing, hooping, hugging, singing, loving, and most importantly.... expressing! I am bummed that I am missing firedrums this year. The tickets sold out and while I knows its possible that I could just enter into it through the forest, its a risk that I'm not willing to take given the high density of people there already. It really wouldn't be fair to the people who bought tickets too. I'm so not a rebel sometimes.
This is a video I took at fire drums last year:
SO MUCH FUN.
I'll have to wait for next year's party. And for Movement Play this July! Wow that'll be a great event.
This is a video I took at fire drums last year:
SO MUCH FUN.
I'll have to wait for next year's party. And for Movement Play this July! Wow that'll be a great event.
Tattoos take a lot of time and consideration... if you really want to care that much about it. And I do, but I also love to embrace spontenaeity, and I plan on doing so with my next tattoo.
I'm going to pay $100 to get some guy's tattoo art on my thigh. I have no idea what its going to be. I am not allowed to make suggestions.
He's quite talented and has already tatted two of my close work friends and they look great. One is a gnarly panda clawing into some guy's head who is wearing a monocle. The other is a black widow blended with a horse skull... now she warmly embraces the nickname spiderhorse.
Such talent! I am so excited. I'll post pictures this week.
I'm going to pay $100 to get some guy's tattoo art on my thigh. I have no idea what its going to be. I am not allowed to make suggestions.
He's quite talented and has already tatted two of my close work friends and they look great. One is a gnarly panda clawing into some guy's head who is wearing a monocle. The other is a black widow blended with a horse skull... now she warmly embraces the nickname spiderhorse.
Such talent! I am so excited. I'll post pictures this week.
Its my friend's birthday tonight. I may catch a spare seat to Fremont to enjoy music and a night of woohoo entertainment. Then again I realize I have court in the morning. IXNAY on the ARTYPAY! I don't want to party tonight anyways. I've had this strange empowering dichotomy run through my life. When I'm faced with two options I ask myself: enlightenment or power?
Example.... I want to drink, take the bus, and go dancing: Will this give me power or enlighten me. I've done this so many times in the past. Its kind of old. I don't think I can get enlightenment from it, especially when I vaguely remember the night anyways. Or Power? I think it would be power because I create the idea that HELL YA! I CAN DO WHAT I WANT!
Another: I want to write a poem but I think I should spend the time handling some reading. Enlightenment: When one feels the urge to be creative, I feel that they should follow that because it can sometimes be sporadic. I feel that I personally have an issue with trying to be creative. I can more easily try to be productive and be successful. But creativity is a flow, and when it comes, it must be addressed primarily! Power? It would only be power if I was trying to take charge of the will to be creative. I think it is more of a leading feeling that surmounts. Inductive... yup. I think creativity must be in the periphery to be harnessed. While productivity is accomplished after certain tasks have been completed.
*I need to stop going to Graduate Thesis Presentations* They are making my mind into JELLY.
Anyways... its a good psychological reflexion tool. Am I doing this for the purpose of enlightenment? or for the purpose of power? And I'm sure it doesn't just fit into those two... but they are accessible to define for me.
But its so windy that all I really want to do is soak my feet in hot water and cayenne and drink a Mexican hot chocolate. I may just avoid that first bit and get my butt down to the local Chocalatiere for some yumness, warmth, and lots of wine/reading!
I go to this place called Chocolate that is in Downtown Santa Cruz. Everything there is so decadent! The food is light, salty, savory, and sometimes cheesy, the desserts are sooooo creamy, sweet, and sprinkled with flavored sugar cyrstals. And the hot chocolate.... *mouth water* Its just below "ow that fucking hurts" hot and right above "ovaltine" blahville.
Yet I will remain steadfast. I can already taste the sweetness and there's no use in repeating history. Maybe I should only try every food once. I'm sure there is plenty of recipes in the world to allow me to eat only one meal once for the rest of my life... meaning every meal I have for the rest of my days is a different recipe. No repeated taste exposures.
Mmmm, I am working out the particulars of what will be in my next set. It'll have to rely on a lot of subjectivity which I am trying to clear up so that it can be more communicable. I will work it out on paper...
Example.... I want to drink, take the bus, and go dancing: Will this give me power or enlighten me. I've done this so many times in the past. Its kind of old. I don't think I can get enlightenment from it, especially when I vaguely remember the night anyways. Or Power? I think it would be power because I create the idea that HELL YA! I CAN DO WHAT I WANT!
Another: I want to write a poem but I think I should spend the time handling some reading. Enlightenment: When one feels the urge to be creative, I feel that they should follow that because it can sometimes be sporadic. I feel that I personally have an issue with trying to be creative. I can more easily try to be productive and be successful. But creativity is a flow, and when it comes, it must be addressed primarily! Power? It would only be power if I was trying to take charge of the will to be creative. I think it is more of a leading feeling that surmounts. Inductive... yup. I think creativity must be in the periphery to be harnessed. While productivity is accomplished after certain tasks have been completed.
*I need to stop going to Graduate Thesis Presentations* They are making my mind into JELLY.
Anyways... its a good psychological reflexion tool. Am I doing this for the purpose of enlightenment? or for the purpose of power? And I'm sure it doesn't just fit into those two... but they are accessible to define for me.
But its so windy that all I really want to do is soak my feet in hot water and cayenne and drink a Mexican hot chocolate. I may just avoid that first bit and get my butt down to the local Chocalatiere for some yumness, warmth, and lots of wine/reading!
I go to this place called Chocolate that is in Downtown Santa Cruz. Everything there is so decadent! The food is light, salty, savory, and sometimes cheesy, the desserts are sooooo creamy, sweet, and sprinkled with flavored sugar cyrstals. And the hot chocolate.... *mouth water* Its just below "ow that fucking hurts" hot and right above "ovaltine" blahville.
Yet I will remain steadfast. I can already taste the sweetness and there's no use in repeating history. Maybe I should only try every food once. I'm sure there is plenty of recipes in the world to allow me to eat only one meal once for the rest of my life... meaning every meal I have for the rest of my days is a different recipe. No repeated taste exposures.
Mmmm, I am working out the particulars of what will be in my next set. It'll have to rely on a lot of subjectivity which I am trying to clear up so that it can be more communicable. I will work it out on paper...
Here is my home!
I live in a forested area with 38 other full-time students who live in trailers. We have travelers that stay in the forest and use our facilities while also joining us for potlucks twice a week. The people here are skilled, smart, and enthusiastic about living in a low-impact sustainable community. I am the manager here and I act as a voice between the University and the housing for these students. My objective is to prevent this community from falling victim to the school's agenda to plow out this land for apartment buildings and the completion of something called the Long Range Development Plan. It plans to cut down 120 acres of trees in the Santa Cruz Mountains to further expand UC Santa Cruz. This is small community is one of the catalysts to reshape the citzens' ideas about sustainability and community. WE WILL NOT SUBMIT. AND MY GNOMES WILL HELP!
^ *grin* these are my gnomes... or some of them anyway. They act as symbols of humans for the bugs and furry things that are near my trailer. In case they do not know what species I am, I have nature-loving humanoids around my trailer.
This is a root which I transformed into a beautiful piece of color and patterns. I haven't finished it yet, but I plan to very soon! I want to host an art gallery in the forest behind the trailer park. There are lots of works of art that appear magically among the trees when I'm in the surrounding wooded areas. I want others to experience that. And I want that to be a symbol of our sustainability and pride in our community!
And here's me with some of my hooooops:
I was able to get some pictures despite my camera blinking on and off every 5 seconds to 4 minutes. I was lucky to get these photos in the time I had. How is everyone's Spring?
I live in a forested area with 38 other full-time students who live in trailers. We have travelers that stay in the forest and use our facilities while also joining us for potlucks twice a week. The people here are skilled, smart, and enthusiastic about living in a low-impact sustainable community. I am the manager here and I act as a voice between the University and the housing for these students. My objective is to prevent this community from falling victim to the school's agenda to plow out this land for apartment buildings and the completion of something called the Long Range Development Plan. It plans to cut down 120 acres of trees in the Santa Cruz Mountains to further expand UC Santa Cruz. This is small community is one of the catalysts to reshape the citzens' ideas about sustainability and community. WE WILL NOT SUBMIT. AND MY GNOMES WILL HELP!
^ *grin* these are my gnomes... or some of them anyway. They act as symbols of humans for the bugs and furry things that are near my trailer. In case they do not know what species I am, I have nature-loving humanoids around my trailer.
This is a root which I transformed into a beautiful piece of color and patterns. I haven't finished it yet, but I plan to very soon! I want to host an art gallery in the forest behind the trailer park. There are lots of works of art that appear magically among the trees when I'm in the surrounding wooded areas. I want others to experience that. And I want that to be a symbol of our sustainability and pride in our community!
And here's me with some of my hooooops:
I was able to get some pictures despite my camera blinking on and off every 5 seconds to 4 minutes. I was lucky to get these photos in the time I had. How is everyone's Spring?
I've been running around the world with a parasol. It keeps me decorated, shaded, and also busies my hand from smoking cigarettes. Its been an interesting journey getting away from smoking. I never even really did it but the high taxes that are commencing for California make it an unrealistic habit. Not to mention drinking - ahhhh! Why so expensive?
The parasol will change my life. I can feel it already in the softness of my brow and shoulders. It is also meditative. I spin it 'round and 'round above my head and when I use the Japanese paper parasol, the colors below me shift from blue to red to yellow. When I use the cotton, fluffy one I feel a deep cool and watch the ribbon flow as it spins above me.
However, I cannot hoop and parasol very efficiently. But I think I can work it into a routine if I keep working on it. Close the parasol, open it up and do an off-the-body move, then use the parasol as a prop for a jumping jackrabbit. Hmmmm
I'm off to run in the forest and play with those little white bugs that look like faeries.
The parasol will change my life. I can feel it already in the softness of my brow and shoulders. It is also meditative. I spin it 'round and 'round above my head and when I use the Japanese paper parasol, the colors below me shift from blue to red to yellow. When I use the cotton, fluffy one I feel a deep cool and watch the ribbon flow as it spins above me.
However, I cannot hoop and parasol very efficiently. But I think I can work it into a routine if I keep working on it. Close the parasol, open it up and do an off-the-body move, then use the parasol as a prop for a jumping jackrabbit. Hmmmm
I'm off to run in the forest and play with those little white bugs that look like faeries.
I just made the longest blog ever about Rousseau, Jefferson, and Durkheim and I accidentally clicked the tiny button next to my mouse and it went back a page and it was all DELETED.
I'm going to paraphrase now... because its too good not to talk about.
Rousseau in Social Contract (1762) wrote about man being born free then living in chains. This was written during the Enlightenment when the Church was oppressing thinkers who wanted to bring their philosophical views to government. Social order, as he states, does not come from nature but instead it comes from something sacred. Which is a way to say that it comes from that entity that flows through all of us, be it God or otherwise... Man found a means to cooperate with one another through conventions we have instilled. It seems like Social order in this context is a utopia that can be achieved, but our conventions are tainted and prevent us from being at that level that we need to achieve freewill. Strange!
Durkheim in Rules of the Sociological Method (1895) believed that people are coerced to follow the expectations of society and that it is inescapable. Like Rousseau, Durkheim also believes that the achievements of society are sacred because they are set up on pedestals by individuals and the conventions of being a part of society requires that the individual honor that Godly system of communication. He has also written about suicide, saying that it is impossible for people to escape the mirroring between society and individual. People who kill themselves from an increased fear and guilt of being alone are feeling that way because they have learned from society that they should feel that way for not being one of the pack.
Jefferson in the Declaration of Independence (1776) was meant to be a promoter of individualism and government. In this piece Man has the inalienable Rights endowed by the Creator. .... I found this to be BULLSHIT that it is not saying society is sacred just like the other texts. Forms of Government are created among these Men, who are in the image of God, and the Right of the People to alter or abolish the Government to institute a new Government is nothing more than these same sacred beings deciding what is the definition of Life, Liberty, Happiness, and Security. I have faith in this document and all that it is meant to be. I think I'm just a little irate that we're trying to push this rhetorical crap on countries who do not have the same ideas as us.
-I don't like this retyping as much as the one I deleted, but it'll have to do. Goodnight!-
I'm going to paraphrase now... because its too good not to talk about.
Rousseau in Social Contract (1762) wrote about man being born free then living in chains. This was written during the Enlightenment when the Church was oppressing thinkers who wanted to bring their philosophical views to government. Social order, as he states, does not come from nature but instead it comes from something sacred. Which is a way to say that it comes from that entity that flows through all of us, be it God or otherwise... Man found a means to cooperate with one another through conventions we have instilled. It seems like Social order in this context is a utopia that can be achieved, but our conventions are tainted and prevent us from being at that level that we need to achieve freewill. Strange!
Durkheim in Rules of the Sociological Method (1895) believed that people are coerced to follow the expectations of society and that it is inescapable. Like Rousseau, Durkheim also believes that the achievements of society are sacred because they are set up on pedestals by individuals and the conventions of being a part of society requires that the individual honor that Godly system of communication. He has also written about suicide, saying that it is impossible for people to escape the mirroring between society and individual. People who kill themselves from an increased fear and guilt of being alone are feeling that way because they have learned from society that they should feel that way for not being one of the pack.
Jefferson in the Declaration of Independence (1776) was meant to be a promoter of individualism and government. In this piece Man has the inalienable Rights endowed by the Creator. .... I found this to be BULLSHIT that it is not saying society is sacred just like the other texts. Forms of Government are created among these Men, who are in the image of God, and the Right of the People to alter or abolish the Government to institute a new Government is nothing more than these same sacred beings deciding what is the definition of Life, Liberty, Happiness, and Security. I have faith in this document and all that it is meant to be. I think I'm just a little irate that we're trying to push this rhetorical crap on countries who do not have the same ideas as us.
-I don't like this retyping as much as the one I deleted, but it'll have to do. Goodnight!-
