So, I just finished that commenting thing I do, where I have hopes that something I say will have some effect - a positive one- on somebody. I can get negative effects all day. If there were a way to run a consultation service on psych ops for destroying someone's mente, well, I'd probably be all but an Antichrist.A RICH one. I'ma keep looking for that angle, and enjoy my current pissing battle at work. You know, I try to avoid them, but call me Sith Lord Darth Delgato cuz the dark side calls, and runs strong in my veins. Anyways, not what I wanted to mention today. I would like to be more mature, but some people, well, I stoop to levels. And I destroy them on their level. I am so missing my calling. ANYWAYS..
That song "Apologize", One Republic? Awesome. Was Pre-Timbo even. I really need to look up their producer.
At a crossroads, and I think I have a plan. Going with risk, just waiting on the opportunity. It's taking ALOT to not just up and quit. If management would LISTEN they wouldn't have to worry so much about the probable union involvement. Their problem, not mine. I am debating forcing their hand on my transfer, but I get the feeling in 2 months, I'll still be itchy. And while I am all about burning the bridges, it would be rude. And I don't know it's warranted, yet....
Maybe it's just that mental frailty that comes with fuktup sleep patterns, but...I know what I want to do. I know what I'm supposed to be doing. There's this overwhelming knowledge coursing thru me. I don't wanna look back and wish I had. I'm more of a "Look back and go OOPS" kinda guy. My mom is gonna be mad about me doing the 401k thing, but it actually makes economic sense.. I dunno, this is all cryptic and stuff I guess. It's not that I'm embarrassed, it's just that I know I should be working harder, but life makes it hard, and I'm full of excuses. I'm bout it bout it though. I got my eye on the ball, and I'm about ready to swing for the bleachers.
That song "Apologize", One Republic? Awesome. Was Pre-Timbo even. I really need to look up their producer.
At a crossroads, and I think I have a plan. Going with risk, just waiting on the opportunity. It's taking ALOT to not just up and quit. If management would LISTEN they wouldn't have to worry so much about the probable union involvement. Their problem, not mine. I am debating forcing their hand on my transfer, but I get the feeling in 2 months, I'll still be itchy. And while I am all about burning the bridges, it would be rude. And I don't know it's warranted, yet....
Maybe it's just that mental frailty that comes with fuktup sleep patterns, but...I know what I want to do. I know what I'm supposed to be doing. There's this overwhelming knowledge coursing thru me. I don't wanna look back and wish I had. I'm more of a "Look back and go OOPS" kinda guy. My mom is gonna be mad about me doing the 401k thing, but it actually makes economic sense.. I dunno, this is all cryptic and stuff I guess. It's not that I'm embarrassed, it's just that I know I should be working harder, but life makes it hard, and I'm full of excuses. I'm bout it bout it though. I got my eye on the ball, and I'm about ready to swing for the bleachers.
annisa:
your comment that you left me had a positive impact..thank you