Yep , it's one big roller coaster here . Up , down , get thrown off the tracks & burn .
I've been unemployed for a week . Just didn't feel much like posting it cause it's such a downer . Except for some reason I've felt very "up" since it happened . I did like the actual job , but hated several things about it . It was probably the most frustrating job I've had . It should have been a very easy job , but the fact is that about 40% of the people in the lab didn't want to work , actively avoided work every chance they could , and the supervisors never held them accountable . And then you add me driving about 150 miles each day to that & all I can say is , is it any wonder I was burned out ? Is it any wonder I feel relieved ?
So I'm looking forward to a new job . And for some reason I feel very positive about finding one this time . First time that's happened . Also I already got ok'd for unemployment , which was the one thing I was slightly worried about .
So , life goes on . And so do I ...
I've been unemployed for a week . Just didn't feel much like posting it cause it's such a downer . Except for some reason I've felt very "up" since it happened . I did like the actual job , but hated several things about it . It was probably the most frustrating job I've had . It should have been a very easy job , but the fact is that about 40% of the people in the lab didn't want to work , actively avoided work every chance they could , and the supervisors never held them accountable . And then you add me driving about 150 miles each day to that & all I can say is , is it any wonder I was burned out ? Is it any wonder I feel relieved ?
So I'm looking forward to a new job . And for some reason I feel very positive about finding one this time . First time that's happened . Also I already got ok'd for unemployment , which was the one thing I was slightly worried about .
So , life goes on . And so do I ...
So much for positive posts . This one will be a bit of a downer . A bit .
So , new car right ? Very happy & excited , right ? Haven't even made a payment on it and a guy swipes the back of it with a dump truck . Pretty much knocks the bumper off & dents the trunk . However , no one is hurt & his insurance is paying for everything ( as they should ) . In a rental until it's healed up . I only hope it doesn't take as long as my last accident to fix ( shouldn't , no damage to anything important this time ) .
Things like this are why I feel a affinity with Loki ( the god , not the Marvel character ) . Loki is all about chaos , and we all know that life is too . Unless you're in the 1% who can afford to be chaos free . I'm not so lucky . The thing most people don't know about Loki is he did almost as much good for the other gods as he did bad . Hell , he's the reason Thor has a hammer . Odin's 8 legged horse ? From Loki ( literally ) . But when he felt as if the other gods always remembered his mischief and never his good offerings , he turned on them .
Another thing about his turning though . It's all preordained . It has to happen so Ragnorok can happen , and things can be restarted again . So maybe he's not as chaotic as first thought , eh ?
So , new car right ? Very happy & excited , right ? Haven't even made a payment on it and a guy swipes the back of it with a dump truck . Pretty much knocks the bumper off & dents the trunk . However , no one is hurt & his insurance is paying for everything ( as they should ) . In a rental until it's healed up . I only hope it doesn't take as long as my last accident to fix ( shouldn't , no damage to anything important this time ) .
Things like this are why I feel a affinity with Loki ( the god , not the Marvel character ) . Loki is all about chaos , and we all know that life is too . Unless you're in the 1% who can afford to be chaos free . I'm not so lucky . The thing most people don't know about Loki is he did almost as much good for the other gods as he did bad . Hell , he's the reason Thor has a hammer . Odin's 8 legged horse ? From Loki ( literally ) . But when he felt as if the other gods always remembered his mischief and never his good offerings , he turned on them .
Another thing about his turning though . It's all preordained . It has to happen so Ragnorok can happen , and things can be restarted again . So maybe he's not as chaotic as first thought , eh ?
Christ , that was a long time between posts . Let's get more positive , eh ? Good thing #1 , I got a new phone . I had a Palm Pre Plus & by the time I got rid of it I was ready to throw it through a wall . It was ok as far as function went , but it would run out of power within 8 hours , sometimes less , for no good reason . And the screen was messed up by the end because I didn't care anymore . Now I have a Android Bionic & am loving it . And to top it off , I found out yesterday I get a 25% employee discount through Verizon for working @ the Red Cross .
Good ( and even better ) thing #2 . I got a new car ! It's a Kia Rio sedan & I am in total love with it . It doesn't look or feel like a cheap piece of crap in any way shape or form . It;s got heated , folding side mirrors ! It's got a back up camera !!! Seriously , I think Kia has some of the best looking cars going today . And I have the 10 year 100k warranty too , which I am happy about .
So maybe life is taking a upturn for me again ? After last year , I could cure use that .
Good ( and even better ) thing #2 . I got a new car ! It's a Kia Rio sedan & I am in total love with it . It doesn't look or feel like a cheap piece of crap in any way shape or form . It;s got heated , folding side mirrors ! It's got a back up camera !!! Seriously , I think Kia has some of the best looking cars going today . And I have the 10 year 100k warranty too , which I am happy about .
So maybe life is taking a upturn for me again ? After last year , I could cure use that .
Been a long time since I posted , so here goes . First things first . We had to say good bye to our big Newfy Strider yesterday . He was 12 , which is beyond their normal life span . He had a good , long life full of fun & games . But the had gotten to the point that he couldn't get up off the floor without help . He basically laid around the living room all day until one of us helped him get up to go out & do his business . I know I wouldn't have wanted to live like that , so hopefully it was the right thing to do .
I'm still driving my moms old car , despite how badly I want to trade it in for either a new Focus or Civic . The stupid car doesn't have power windows , and it's a hatchback but it doesn't even have a rear wiper ! GAH !!! Only a 80 year old woman would order a car like that . And that would be my mom .
Now . I have been in a relationship with the same person for about 13 years . We never have sex . She's obese and on anti depressants constantly . The last couple of times we've had arguments about something , she has basically told me to get out . So I'm planning on doing just that . Hopefully , in the near future . I have someone else who is seriously into me & is also in a bad relationship that is dissolving . As soon as I can I am out of here . I honestly think it will be better for both of us anyway . I just don't want to rush this in any way . I want it to flow with as little drama as possible . I guess we shall see if this happens .
I'm still driving my moms old car , despite how badly I want to trade it in for either a new Focus or Civic . The stupid car doesn't have power windows , and it's a hatchback but it doesn't even have a rear wiper ! GAH !!! Only a 80 year old woman would order a car like that . And that would be my mom .
Now . I have been in a relationship with the same person for about 13 years . We never have sex . She's obese and on anti depressants constantly . The last couple of times we've had arguments about something , she has basically told me to get out . So I'm planning on doing just that . Hopefully , in the near future . I have someone else who is seriously into me & is also in a bad relationship that is dissolving . As soon as I can I am out of here . I honestly think it will be better for both of us anyway . I just don't want to rush this in any way . I want it to flow with as little drama as possible . I guess we shall see if this happens .
Thanks to all for your well wishes / advice . I had the meeting with the credit counselor & my lawyer and it went well . He says now I just wait 6 weeks & if no one contends it it's all over . He doesn't think anyone will . While waiting for my meeting , I got to stop in at a local brewpub in downtown Lancaster called Springhouse Brewing . Had a tasty oyster stout , one of my favorite styles of beer that not many breweries make .
Now , after my car got repossessed , my mom gave me her old car . It's a 07 Hyundai Accent . It's not as bad as you may think . It's got less then 50k miles on it & is in really good shape . One thing it did need was new tires . I was going to replace them next pay check , but on my way home last night one of them blew out . Fortunately my GF bought me a new set of tires as a early Christmas present . And the car does feel much better on the road now .
I take my GF for granted way too often & I want to say here that she's too good for me in many ways . Why she puts up with my f'd up life I'll never know .
Now , after my car got repossessed , my mom gave me her old car . It's a 07 Hyundai Accent . It's not as bad as you may think . It's got less then 50k miles on it & is in really good shape . One thing it did need was new tires . I was going to replace them next pay check , but on my way home last night one of them blew out . Fortunately my GF bought me a new set of tires as a early Christmas present . And the car does feel much better on the road now .
I take my GF for granted way too often & I want to say here that she's too good for me in many ways . Why she puts up with my f'd up life I'll never know .
Yep , bankruptcy . My lawyer filed for me this week . He says that if no one contests it , that it should only take about 4 hours of my life . And looking at my situation , he doesn't expect anyone to fight it . I am now the proud owner of a 07 Hyundai Accent . It's my moms old car . She gave it to me then bought a 2010 . I guess she's decided that she likes Hyundai too . It's not a bad little car , and makes me realize how much I missed driving a hatchback . So easy to park , & better on gas mileage then what I was driving .
So , I work at the Red Cross building in Philly , and the nurses are on strike . The nurses belong to a union , while most of us working in the building don't . Needless to say , we aren't getting much work in right now . All I know is that I've been there for over 2 years , know people who've been there longer , and they haven't gotten a raise in 3 years . The nurses want a 20% raise over the next 3 years & 5 more call out days a year . So I am slightly bitter . I have nothing against anyone doing better for themselves , but for christ's sake look at the fucking economy . The only people getting rich are the one's who already are well off .
So , this has been a cheerful update . I haven't even mentioned that the muscle spasm in my neck is back & more painful than even . Because I'm sick of talking about it . And this has been depressing enough without it . Think I may have a drink tonight & listen to something to raise my spirits . Just have to figure out what .
So , I work at the Red Cross building in Philly , and the nurses are on strike . The nurses belong to a union , while most of us working in the building don't . Needless to say , we aren't getting much work in right now . All I know is that I've been there for over 2 years , know people who've been there longer , and they haven't gotten a raise in 3 years . The nurses want a 20% raise over the next 3 years & 5 more call out days a year . So I am slightly bitter . I have nothing against anyone doing better for themselves , but for christ's sake look at the fucking economy . The only people getting rich are the one's who already are well off .
So , this has been a cheerful update . I haven't even mentioned that the muscle spasm in my neck is back & more painful than even . Because I'm sick of talking about it . And this has been depressing enough without it . Think I may have a drink tonight & listen to something to raise my spirits . Just have to figure out what .
So , life gets better ??? Looks like I'm heading for bankruptcy . It's my own fault honestly . Bought a car I can't afford , it got repo'd , and now I can't think of any other way to deal with things . I suppose I should look for work closer to home , but dammit , this is the first job I've had that I actually liked . So , I have a appointment with a lawyer Monday to talk about going about things . Hoping it goes simply , I do not have a brain for legal wranglings .
Called off work today . I have a hour & a half drive each way every day & today I got stuck in traffic for a hour & couldn't take it anymore . So I called out sick . Fuck it .
I haz a good thing happening this Friday , but I don't want certain people to know about it so I can't write it out . Let's just say it's got to do with something I posted in a certain thread a couple of weeks ago . Fuck dry spells too .
Phillies open this Friday , that doesn't have anything to do with my plans though . Just looking forward to this season finally getting started . We've had some cats adopted , & just brought in 3 new kittens . They're so tiny , they fit in my palm .
I haz a good thing happening this Friday , but I don't want certain people to know about it so I can't write it out . Let's just say it's got to do with something I posted in a certain thread a couple of weeks ago . Fuck dry spells too .
Phillies open this Friday , that doesn't have anything to do with my plans though . Just looking forward to this season finally getting started . We've had some cats adopted , & just brought in 3 new kittens . They're so tiny , they fit in my palm .
So far , so good with out Paxil . I've noticed that I am in a more balanced humor . A lot less snapping in anger with out thinking , and surprisingly a lot more laughing at funny things . All in all , I think I made the right decision here . And while I'm posting this , let me say that I still really love this site . It always can make me laugh , get me happy sexually , give me things to think about , and just plain entertain me in general .
