Right... blog time again. like i said before, i dont do this very oftenas i feel im just moaning about things but hear go's
April.... i met this girl. I met her at the drag racing as she was well into it, as i came to find out she pretty much lives and breathes it, so allready the biggest thing that goes on in my life we have in common and it pretty rare to find a girl into motorsports.
We got on great! loads in common but enough difference in taste to make things interesting. Unfortunaley this was always going to be long distance as she lives south of london and im a born and bread northern. we knew this from the start and we kind of agreed that it was only going to be a bit of fun at racing weekends.
Everything was great for about 2 months, we got on like a house on fire and the fun at weekends went out the window pretty dam quick. I know this sounds soppy and unrealistick... but you know when you think you've found 'the one' we shared hobbies, she didnt get the marrage thing, didnt like kids, really down to earth, i got on with her folks, she got on with my mates and gave as much piss taking back to them as they gave us... She was great!
but things went a little toooo fast. We talked AALLLLL the time, texts from the moment we got up untill last thing at night, facebook chat as soon as we got home (my phonebill was 180!!!!), it never stopped! it anoyed me a little when i was trying to work on the car and im sure we talked whilst she was busy (at work mostly) but we just liked tlking to each other and never seemed to run out of things to talk about.
We started joking about her moving up hear (we'd only been together 2 months and she live 300miles away) but then the joking got a little more serious as she didnt like it where she lived, its cheaper to live up hear and we just wanted to spend more time with each other.
it got to her birthday, i got her exactally what she wanted... TOOLS!!! (Top lass!!!! beats shopping for jewelry anyday!!!) but she went a bit quiet around her birthday.
Her ex bodyfriend (about 12 months before we got together) was a bit of a bastard to her, i wont go into it but he needs seeing to, thats all i can say. Obviously if he was like this, she never got the soppy side of a relationship off anyone before... and thats what did it. Having a tosser for a boyfriend and being single for 12 months, she got used to her freedom, She said that she was used to having her own freedom and felt that telling me what she was doing on an evening was like being answerable to someone (i was only trying to seem interested...) and the when we told each other we loved each other and we missed each other, that it made her feel uncomfy..... i just dont get it. also that everything went too quick for her... so that was it. Over.
I agree with everything she said and understand how she feels... so i dont hate her. We've stayed friends and for a couple of weeks after we talked every other day... but its getting less and less and now its like she doesnt even want to talk. She said she still had all those feelings for me... she just wanted her freedom.
I havnt seen her since early june and all this happend since then, its hard to actually picture her saying what she said so its been hard to take in. Ill see her again at the racing at the end of the month... about 2 and a half weeks... i want her back! and if she still does have all those feelings for me then i want her to think about it.
a lot of my friends have said she just needs some time... which i can see, but i cant help but doubt them, its hard to stop thinking about her as we never fell out although it is getting easier now she doesnt seem to want to talk as much, its just that little thing to hold against her in my head to make me stop thinking the world of her.
im not really looking forward to seeing her at the racing as i know its going to go one way or the other, we'll fall madly back in love with each other or it'll just be awkward friends. i dont want it to ruint the weekend but i think it might.
i still think about her all the bloody time... so much so this is the first time iv been able to type this up without talking like the sun shines out of her arse, been meaning to do it for weeks.
on the happier side of life.... the mustang is great! (reminds me of her all the time...grrr) and im thinking about buying a Harley (which im sure will remind me of her as she was into bikes too... GRRRR)
i just have to live though all this shit, as i know it wont stop untill i see her again and see how it goes between us.
Bummer
April.... i met this girl. I met her at the drag racing as she was well into it, as i came to find out she pretty much lives and breathes it, so allready the biggest thing that goes on in my life we have in common and it pretty rare to find a girl into motorsports.
We got on great! loads in common but enough difference in taste to make things interesting. Unfortunaley this was always going to be long distance as she lives south of london and im a born and bread northern. we knew this from the start and we kind of agreed that it was only going to be a bit of fun at racing weekends.
Everything was great for about 2 months, we got on like a house on fire and the fun at weekends went out the window pretty dam quick. I know this sounds soppy and unrealistick... but you know when you think you've found 'the one' we shared hobbies, she didnt get the marrage thing, didnt like kids, really down to earth, i got on with her folks, she got on with my mates and gave as much piss taking back to them as they gave us... She was great!
but things went a little toooo fast. We talked AALLLLL the time, texts from the moment we got up untill last thing at night, facebook chat as soon as we got home (my phonebill was 180!!!!), it never stopped! it anoyed me a little when i was trying to work on the car and im sure we talked whilst she was busy (at work mostly) but we just liked tlking to each other and never seemed to run out of things to talk about.
We started joking about her moving up hear (we'd only been together 2 months and she live 300miles away) but then the joking got a little more serious as she didnt like it where she lived, its cheaper to live up hear and we just wanted to spend more time with each other.
it got to her birthday, i got her exactally what she wanted... TOOLS!!! (Top lass!!!! beats shopping for jewelry anyday!!!) but she went a bit quiet around her birthday.
Her ex bodyfriend (about 12 months before we got together) was a bit of a bastard to her, i wont go into it but he needs seeing to, thats all i can say. Obviously if he was like this, she never got the soppy side of a relationship off anyone before... and thats what did it. Having a tosser for a boyfriend and being single for 12 months, she got used to her freedom, She said that she was used to having her own freedom and felt that telling me what she was doing on an evening was like being answerable to someone (i was only trying to seem interested...) and the when we told each other we loved each other and we missed each other, that it made her feel uncomfy..... i just dont get it. also that everything went too quick for her... so that was it. Over.
I agree with everything she said and understand how she feels... so i dont hate her. We've stayed friends and for a couple of weeks after we talked every other day... but its getting less and less and now its like she doesnt even want to talk. She said she still had all those feelings for me... she just wanted her freedom.
I havnt seen her since early june and all this happend since then, its hard to actually picture her saying what she said so its been hard to take in. Ill see her again at the racing at the end of the month... about 2 and a half weeks... i want her back! and if she still does have all those feelings for me then i want her to think about it.
a lot of my friends have said she just needs some time... which i can see, but i cant help but doubt them, its hard to stop thinking about her as we never fell out although it is getting easier now she doesnt seem to want to talk as much, its just that little thing to hold against her in my head to make me stop thinking the world of her.
im not really looking forward to seeing her at the racing as i know its going to go one way or the other, we'll fall madly back in love with each other or it'll just be awkward friends. i dont want it to ruint the weekend but i think it might.
i still think about her all the bloody time... so much so this is the first time iv been able to type this up without talking like the sun shines out of her arse, been meaning to do it for weeks.
on the happier side of life.... the mustang is great! (reminds me of her all the time...grrr) and im thinking about buying a Harley (which im sure will remind me of her as she was into bikes too... GRRRR)
i just have to live though all this shit, as i know it wont stop untill i see her again and see how it goes between us.
Bummer