I think I use youtube as a replacement for real human contact. . . because no one wants to talk to me in real life. Or at least, no one I want to talk to wants to talk to me.
Sigh. I'm sure I should look into this psychology further but. . .
I don't know that I have the energy now.
I'm not enjoying much of anything at all. I'm going to try a cup of tea but that means actually MAKING the tea and that seems too much to do.
I should work on my wannabe of a book. I guess if I can get three chapters and a good pitch up I can get an advance and time to finish it without going further into poverty.
On a school note: they expect me to pay them 1500 because I owe them six thousand something that they gace me for living expenses because they were counting on that final PEL grant. It's not my fucking fualt they counted their chickens before they hatched. And I certainly did NOT see six thousand something or I'd have been able to live off it for five months as opposed to four. Or is it three? I don't know. I've given up on the illusion that I'll be able to pay my bills. So soon I'll lose the internet and not be able to come on here. That would be tragic.
Sigh. I'm sure I should look into this psychology further but. . .
I don't know that I have the energy now.
I'm not enjoying much of anything at all. I'm going to try a cup of tea but that means actually MAKING the tea and that seems too much to do.
I should work on my wannabe of a book. I guess if I can get three chapters and a good pitch up I can get an advance and time to finish it without going further into poverty.
On a school note: they expect me to pay them 1500 because I owe them six thousand something that they gace me for living expenses because they were counting on that final PEL grant. It's not my fucking fualt they counted their chickens before they hatched. And I certainly did NOT see six thousand something or I'd have been able to live off it for five months as opposed to four. Or is it three? I don't know. I've given up on the illusion that I'll be able to pay my bills. So soon I'll lose the internet and not be able to come on here. That would be tragic.