hi everybody!

i'm back! someone missed me, that warms my heart. or SG randomly sent me to invite to try and lore me back. either way here i am! also, to whoever invited me, sorry it took over a month to accept the invitation. i don't check the email that was connect to SG very often anymore.

SO I PASSED THE BAR! On the 24th of this month I will be admitted to the NYS Bar Association as a licensed attorney at the 4th judicial department court house in rochester. please no cheer crowds begging me to sleep with them at the courthouse. there will be stockades set up.

other than that i'm still looking for legal work. still single.

but i sell RC Helicopters for a living. and so be honest, steve 20 years ago would be highly satisfied with current steve's occupation.

tuesday is the bar. i'm taking it in buffalo. its sad that my first memory of NY's second largest city will be me taking the bar there.
oh, and wednesday is the bar too.

after that i'm going on a roadtrip. chicago, rapid city, arches NP, Yosemite NP, san francisco, napa, LA, vanhorn tx, san antonio tx, nola, tn, sc back to ny.

msg me if u want to meet up.

my account ends the 4th tho, so hurry up!

my brain is numb. just numb.

only two subjects left to review for the bar, federal courts and domestic relations. then they cut us loose for 2 weeks to study on our own for the bar. i'm confident that i'll do well enough to pass, i just wish i could fast forward past all the work i need to do to actually pass.

if anyone out there is considering law school and a career as a lawyer, please allow me to dissuade you. it sucks and there aren't that many legal jobs out there.

this is so fucking stupid.

oh, i'm still intent on letting my membership expire. does anyone care? nope, didn't think so. thats why i'm leaving. there's plenty of free porn on the 'net.

so i got dumped. saw it coming so i put up the barricades. her reasons were as follows:
religion
politics
lack of passion

lets start w/ lack of passion. i've used this one recently actually. i can't really complain about it and its a pretty valid reason. means we'll probably be friends if neither of us turns into horse's asses.

politics was a problem. at frist it was good because we'd have highly intellectual conversations. but then towards the end she would email something her father said about how the supreme court were a bunch of whores who made a mockery of the constitution, to which i would reply thats a common sentiment among the american population, right and left, and that why we don't vote on them. things like that got her gut. i don't get it, i didn't disagree w/ him. in fact i agreed and validated his viewpoint w/ precedent and further support. it still made her angry at me.

finally, religion. she's roman catholic and i'm an atheist. we had at least 3 multi-hour conversations about this subject. She thought my disinterest in believing in god was arrogant, and i thought her belief in Yahweh but not Ra was hypocritical. Things got serious between us despite this, and way to fast. She actually told me once that she was uncomfortable w/ the idea of raising children w/ an atheist or an agnostic. she brought this up when she broke up w/ me. i called her intolerant, and countered that children who were raised like that would be even stronger and smarter because of their experience w/ multiple viewpoints.

on a separate note, the bar is less than a month. my brain feels like its been run over by an 18 wheeler. i can't wait for this shit to be over, and i'm so glad that i don't have to worry about taking the california bar after this to appease the woman.

Michael Jackson is dead.
Now I don't care what your opinion is about his music or his life choices.
This is a serious blow to the transhumanist movement. To me, Michael Jackson was this mythical person with unlimited funds who would and could waste money on things like transferring his brain into a computer or some other life-support machine. Perhaps he cloned himself and transferred his consciousness to that clone body so that he could re-live his childhood like he always wanted to.

All I know is that I am a little less hopeful that I'll be able to put my brain into a robot body, or my consciousness into a clone or computer before this protein based shell gives out.

this year, i mean it. no more SG for steve.

couple reasons:
i got a gf. this has caused a sharp drop in my demand for porn.
had some bad experiences meeting a SG in person. I know this isn't the entire groups fault. But that experience with the lack of success of making real friends on the site means i'm gone.

I cancelled my account. I won't be here after August 3rd.

This is probably my last blog too.

::bye::

I am a doctor of jurisprudence.

then i took a week off.

now its time to take the bar. thats right, my 3 years of doctoral studies do not qualify me to give legal advice. i have to spend 10 weeks preparing to take a 16 hour test (over 2 days) and then submit to character fitness revue first!

fuck.

Steve's review of Non-Latex Condoms.

So far i've found 3 types (not including animals flesh ones):
Durex Alanti
Lifestyles Skyn
Trojan Supra

Of the three, I have to recommend Lifestyles Skyn. Not because its the best, but because its the least worst.

Lifestyles Skyn is the closest to a latex condom. It stretches, it reduces feeling.

Trojan Supra is the worst i tried. It feels like nothing at all, but it has no elasticity. I MEAN NONE! ZERO! It like using a tarp! The first time I put one on it hurt! Ok, so I don't normally brag about myself. But I'm not a small guy. I've got length, I've got girth. Fully erect I can hit 3 inches wide on a good day. So I went to put this Supra condom on at full erection and it was like squeezing my dick thru an inch wide metal ring. Not pleasant. However, the material is thin, transfers heat, and feels like nothing at all. So I actually recommend this brand if you have a tiny penis. I'm not kidding, if you have a narrow penis, I strongly recommend this brand.

I can't actually give you a rating for Durex Avanti because, and this is interesting, the material they use is not proven to prevent pregnancy! It also isn't proven to prevent the transfer of STDs! Thats right, this condom is worthless.

Really, none of the condoms tested do as good a job as latex does. All of them recommend using a latex condom if its an option, and I can't really disagree w/ them.

Just thought you'd like to know.

Yesterday I attended the last law school class. Not the last one of the semester or school year. It was the last one ever. I have 2 finals, 1 25 page paper, and some other miscellaneous work. But in 19 days i graduate. I finish 7 years of secondary-schooling, completed in almost 8 years. I receive on the 17th my Doctorite of Juris Prudence. I will officially be eligible to take the qualifying exam for bar acceptance. I am (hopefully and probably) less than 1 year from adding the letters esq. after my name.

How do I feel? I don't know. I feel accomplished, even though I could have done more w/ the education. I'm uncertain, because idk if I will pass the bar, and i'm still currently unemployed. I'm relieved, because I honestly doubted if I would get this far. Mostly I'm proud, proud of the years of hard work and dedication this degree will represent; proud of the look in my parents' eyes when they brag to their friends about their lawyer son; proud that I achieved this when so many thought I would fail or give up; proud that I am the first lawyer in my family; proud that I followed the rules and didn't cheat to succeed; proud of my GPA (assuming I don't blow that in the next 2 weeks); proud that I get to help clients.

My life still is surrounded by so much uncertainty. But you know, the dude abides.

So things are going great w/ the girl. She level headed and affectionate. Definite keeper. 4th week of May she leaves for London, for the Law program there. Great program ignoring that its taking my gf away from me.

Next I'll get to see her is in San Francisco when I'm on my road trip.

Also, she wants me to shave off my beard.
I am red beard ARRRRRR!