One of my Guys had this on in the break room. An elder was teaching one of the boys about the birds and bees using crawfish
the analogy he used about a woman with her hands in the dough when you ask her if she likes them VS the one that's all
and
was spot on. Dump the silly bitch and marry the one with her hands in the dough, she's making the crust for the crawfish pie because she BELIEVES in your ability to catch them and bring them home. She believes in her man. That's just some good stuff..
I've had so many amazing experiences and hoped to share, but today in fact right now as I lay on the bed understanding fully the Matrix in a way I just cannot say I ever have, in this moment I feel overwhelming longing that just keeps magnifying. I miss him. I long for him terribly. I miss 3am calls while i'm asleep and he is fearless. His voice, his embrace.It feels like the moment someone picks up the phone to call you only you look at the phone unknowing, before it rings. I've grown so much and all I can see is how trivial everything is when all I want is Us. I just want us to Be....
~TWIN FLAME FREEDOM~
Two souls unite...
Beyond all limitations.....
and mundane concepts..
They know the depth of the union...
The souls rejoice in the trance intermingling......
In that knowing... there are no expectations..
Pure unconditional acceptance...
Pure freedom and flow....
What liberation in that essence of allowance..
Oh how sweet to be perfectly in the perfection..
What else matters in this union...But the union itself......
Freedom is the elixir..
Freedom is the truth of the expression
of this most divine interaction......
Trust in the Soul
The Soul knows ....it all...
aaaaaaah
such
Sweet
FREEDOM................
I Love You......By LIORA copyright 2010 www.twinflame1111.com
I am infatuated with Anais Nin
“Man can never know the loneliness a woman knows. Man lies in the woman's womb only to gather strength, he nourishes himself from this fusion, and then he rises and goes into the world, into his work, into battle, into art. He is not lonely. He is busy. The memory of the swim in amniotic fluid gives him energy, completion. Woman may be busy too, but she feels empty. Sensuality for her is not only a wave of pleasure in which she is bathed, and a charge of electric joy at contact with another. When man lies in her womb, she is fulfilled, each act of love a taking of man within her, an act of birth and rebirth, of child rearing and man bearing. Man lies in her womb and is reborn each time anew with a desire to act, to be. But for woman, the climax is not in the birth, but in the moment man rests inside of her.” ― Anaïs Nin, The Diary of Anaïs Nin, Vol. 1: 1931-1934
The past few weeks have really tried my soul in every manner possible. 26 hours on an hour sleep- no wonder the second half of the interview day turned to crap. In fact the second I landed in Houston shit rolled downhill. Obviously I am not voted on the island and I don't know if it is attracting companies that I find Vile due to their lack of integrity or the fact that they don't want me that is causing such a huge emotional upheaval. I've learned to really look at things they way they are- not the way it feels most comfortable to deal with,. Sometimes that view is just more painful than anything another human can inflict.
Speaking of realizations- I accidentally deleted all correspondences from the boy when someone put me on a God awful chain message that about twenty people kept responding too. In my effort to opt out and purge my poor phone of a bunch of unknown numbers and conversations- his got lost in it. it upset me and then I thought " Well what is there to remember anyway? His Never wanting to communicate with me? his girlfriend making me feel like a leper while pretending to be Him ( due note I dont know that it was her that responded to a text I had no business sending! Or maybe the last text of I still don;t want you around but that was my girlfriend that replied not me.! He's so eloquent and polite always but really He just doesn't want me either. Sounds like a great big Pity party, it's not. I prefer to live in truth rather than hide in shadows and lies. Not a pleasant trip to the highest self- but I've nothing more to lose so what the hell!!!
From Addictive to Enlightened Relationships Unless and until you access the consciousness frequency of presence, all relationships, and particularly intimate relationships, are deeply flawed and ultimately dysfunctional. They may seem perfect for a while, such as when you are “in love,” but invariably that apparent perfection gets disrupted as arguments, conflicts, dissatisfaction, and emotional or even physical violence occur with increasing frequency. It seems that most “love relationships” become love/hate relationships before long. Love can then turn into savage attack, feelings of hostility, or complete withdrawal of affection at the flick of a switch. This is considered normal. If in your relationships you experience both “love” and the opposite of love — attack, emotional violence, and so on — then it is likely that you are confusing ego attachment and addictive clinging with love. You cannot love your partner one moment and attack him or her the next. True love has no opposite. If your “love” has an opposite, then it is not love but a strong ego-need for a more complete and deeper sense of self, a need that the other person temporarily meets. It is the ego’s substitute for salvation, and for a short time it almost does feel like salvation. But there comes a point when your partner behaves in ways that fail to meet your needs, or rather those of your ego. The feelings of fear, pain, and lack that are an intrinsic part of egoic consciousness but had been covered up by the “love relationship” now resurface. Just as with every other addiction, you are on a high when the drug is available, but invariably there comes a time when the drug no longer works for you. When those painful feelings reappear, you feel them even more strongly than before, and what is more, you now perceive your partner as the cause of those feelings. This means that you project them outward and attack the other with all the savage violence that is part of your pain. This attack may awaken the partner’s own pain, and he or she may counter your attack. At this point, the ego is still unconsciously hoping that its attack or its attempts at manipulation will be sufficient punishment to induce your partner to change their behavior, so that it can use them again as a cover-up for your pain. Every addiction arises from an unconscious refusal to face and move through your own pain. Every addiction starts with pain and ends with pain. Whatever the substance you are addicted to — alcohol, food, legal or illegal drugs, or a person — you are using something or somebody to cover up your pain. That is why, after the initial euphoria has passed, there is so much unhappiness, so much pain in intimate relationships. They do not cause pain and unhappiness. Theybring out the pain and unhappiness that is already in you. Every addiction does that. Every addiction reaches a point where it does not work for you anymore, and then you feel the pain more intensely than ever.
This is one reason why most people are always trying to escape from the present moment and are seeking some kind of salvation in the future. The first thing that they might encounter if they focused their attention on the Now is their own pain, and this is what they fear. If they only knew how easy it is to access in the Now the power of presence that dissolves the past and its pain, the reality that dissolves the illusion. If they only knew how close they are to their own reality, how close to God.
Avoidance of relationships in an attempt to avoid pain is not the answer either. The pain is there anyway. Three failed relationships in as many years are more likely to force you into awakening than three years on a desert island or shut away in your room. But if you could bring intense presence into your aloneness, that would work for you too. Eckhart Tolle~shared by Liora www.twinflame1111.com
Speaking of realizations- I accidentally deleted all correspondences from the boy when someone put me on a God awful chain message that about twenty people kept responding too. In my effort to opt out and purge my poor phone of a bunch of unknown numbers and conversations- his got lost in it. it upset me and then I thought " Well what is there to remember anyway? His Never wanting to communicate with me? his girlfriend making me feel like a leper while pretending to be Him ( due note I dont know that it was her that responded to a text I had no business sending! Or maybe the last text of I still don;t want you around but that was my girlfriend that replied not me.! He's so eloquent and polite always but really He just doesn't want me either. Sounds like a great big Pity party, it's not. I prefer to live in truth rather than hide in shadows and lies. Not a pleasant trip to the highest self- but I've nothing more to lose so what the hell!!!
From Addictive to Enlightened Relationships Unless and until you access the consciousness frequency of presence, all relationships, and particularly intimate relationships, are deeply flawed and ultimately dysfunctional. They may seem perfect for a while, such as when you are “in love,” but invariably that apparent perfection gets disrupted as arguments, conflicts, dissatisfaction, and emotional or even physical violence occur with increasing frequency. It seems that most “love relationships” become love/hate relationships before long. Love can then turn into savage attack, feelings of hostility, or complete withdrawal of affection at the flick of a switch. This is considered normal. If in your relationships you experience both “love” and the opposite of love — attack, emotional violence, and so on — then it is likely that you are confusing ego attachment and addictive clinging with love. You cannot love your partner one moment and attack him or her the next. True love has no opposite. If your “love” has an opposite, then it is not love but a strong ego-need for a more complete and deeper sense of self, a need that the other person temporarily meets. It is the ego’s substitute for salvation, and for a short time it almost does feel like salvation. But there comes a point when your partner behaves in ways that fail to meet your needs, or rather those of your ego. The feelings of fear, pain, and lack that are an intrinsic part of egoic consciousness but had been covered up by the “love relationship” now resurface. Just as with every other addiction, you are on a high when the drug is available, but invariably there comes a time when the drug no longer works for you. When those painful feelings reappear, you feel them even more strongly than before, and what is more, you now perceive your partner as the cause of those feelings. This means that you project them outward and attack the other with all the savage violence that is part of your pain. This attack may awaken the partner’s own pain, and he or she may counter your attack. At this point, the ego is still unconsciously hoping that its attack or its attempts at manipulation will be sufficient punishment to induce your partner to change their behavior, so that it can use them again as a cover-up for your pain. Every addiction arises from an unconscious refusal to face and move through your own pain. Every addiction starts with pain and ends with pain. Whatever the substance you are addicted to — alcohol, food, legal or illegal drugs, or a person — you are using something or somebody to cover up your pain. That is why, after the initial euphoria has passed, there is so much unhappiness, so much pain in intimate relationships. They do not cause pain and unhappiness. Theybring out the pain and unhappiness that is already in you. Every addiction does that. Every addiction reaches a point where it does not work for you anymore, and then you feel the pain more intensely than ever.
This is one reason why most people are always trying to escape from the present moment and are seeking some kind of salvation in the future. The first thing that they might encounter if they focused their attention on the Now is their own pain, and this is what they fear. If they only knew how easy it is to access in the Now the power of presence that dissolves the past and its pain, the reality that dissolves the illusion. If they only knew how close they are to their own reality, how close to God.
Avoidance of relationships in an attempt to avoid pain is not the answer either. The pain is there anyway. Three failed relationships in as many years are more likely to force you into awakening than three years on a desert island or shut away in your room. But if you could bring intense presence into your aloneness, that would work for you too. Eckhart Tolle~shared by Liora www.twinflame1111.com
OMG, OMG OH MY GOD I am trying not to freak the fuck out right now. I have to schedule my interview by Next Friday and Interview by the last week of the month. i have to go shower and sleep and wake and pray on this. My stomach is flipping out. Atleast my mom and brother are supportive. I really could be flying around the country, the world. WOW
( still fucking mortified)
I am cross on sharing this with B, it makes me a little sad - but...we'll see what happens.
( still fucking mortified)I am cross on sharing this with B, it makes me a little sad - but...we'll see what happens.
As I rush to shower and slumber and return to work early AM, I had to stop and release for a moment....Not that kind of release you pervs
I received an email about a position I applied for back in July at the urging of my old roomie and dearest friend from Orlando. Someone she'd befriended at prenatal classes ( or something of the sort) urged her to become a flight attendant. It was talk for about a year and one day she applied. That was June.
My dearie would also toss it casually that I should look into it. I really didn't pay any mind, I mean great for her....Me???? I just didn't see it. Alas I did throw out my resume since I knew my time in S. Florida was nearing close and partly because - WHY NOT RIGHT???
I thought briefly about it the other day since she was on a layover near me. Every other word is blah blah ...I love being a flight attendant and blah blah you really should do this..blah blah LA and blah blah you would love it and I see LA for you... I know she really from the core of her soul does enjoy the freedom of working as little or much as she wants. She interviewed over the summer, trained in September and I literally had to shove my foot up her scared buns to just let whatever happens happen and go with it.
Back to my email- Apparently ( I did Know this) a merger and interviews in waves and I suppose they are on to the next wave- My resume is forwarded and if they are interested I will get an invite to interview!
I am excited mostly at the idea that things are manifesting in a quick and positive way, also the idea of traveling domestic and international ....Just wow. I am also excited knowing that a hub is being opened at LAX. If this came to fruition - that could be my home base and that would put me downtown LA where I would love to experience being a city chick for awhile
Ultimately I believe Santa Monica is where I would want to settle if I had a family, if NOT > Fuck IT I've made peace with that Too!!!!
The only person besides Steph that I have told is B and although supportive as always - seemed a little not as happy as, I imagined he would be. I'm glad things have gone the way they have with him, he could have been a huge distraction for me- I choose instead to focus on ME. He has been an angel. More and More I see not only the obvious reasons we crossed paths...I see the huge way his presence helped me grow. Hopefully it has been twofold!!!
Funny I realized while logging on - my desktop vision board not only has Yoga and Vegetarianism ( both of which I have resumed recently) but a picture of a plane, a woman with a suitcase (which on close inspection of the original pic is a flight attendant) and somewhere in the corner not really easily seen is a woman sitting in an airport! I did this vision board nearly two years ago. It was intended as visions of me traveling!!!!:
April is The Keys for my girls wedding and meeting friends in Vegas end of the month. I have really not ever known the kind of peace and faith that I have realized the past months and I although I have always enjoyed being with Me, I really enjoy my own company and doing my own thing. I'st difficult to just have someone around for the sake of having someone..... Life is just so amazing, mysterious and magical. Glad I woke up
I received an email about a position I applied for back in July at the urging of my old roomie and dearest friend from Orlando. Someone she'd befriended at prenatal classes ( or something of the sort) urged her to become a flight attendant. It was talk for about a year and one day she applied. That was June.
My dearie would also toss it casually that I should look into it. I really didn't pay any mind, I mean great for her....Me???? I just didn't see it. Alas I did throw out my resume since I knew my time in S. Florida was nearing close and partly because - WHY NOT RIGHT???
I thought briefly about it the other day since she was on a layover near me. Every other word is blah blah ...I love being a flight attendant and blah blah you really should do this..blah blah LA and blah blah you would love it and I see LA for you... I know she really from the core of her soul does enjoy the freedom of working as little or much as she wants. She interviewed over the summer, trained in September and I literally had to shove my foot up her scared buns to just let whatever happens happen and go with it.
Back to my email- Apparently ( I did Know this) a merger and interviews in waves and I suppose they are on to the next wave- My resume is forwarded and if they are interested I will get an invite to interview!
I am excited mostly at the idea that things are manifesting in a quick and positive way, also the idea of traveling domestic and international ....Just wow. I am also excited knowing that a hub is being opened at LAX. If this came to fruition - that could be my home base and that would put me downtown LA where I would love to experience being a city chick for awhile
Ultimately I believe Santa Monica is where I would want to settle if I had a family, if NOT > Fuck IT I've made peace with that Too!!!!The only person besides Steph that I have told is B and although supportive as always - seemed a little not as happy as, I imagined he would be. I'm glad things have gone the way they have with him, he could have been a huge distraction for me- I choose instead to focus on ME. He has been an angel. More and More I see not only the obvious reasons we crossed paths...I see the huge way his presence helped me grow. Hopefully it has been twofold!!!
Funny I realized while logging on - my desktop vision board not only has Yoga and Vegetarianism ( both of which I have resumed recently) but a picture of a plane, a woman with a suitcase (which on close inspection of the original pic is a flight attendant) and somewhere in the corner not really easily seen is a woman sitting in an airport! I did this vision board nearly two years ago. It was intended as visions of me traveling!!!!:
April is The Keys for my girls wedding and meeting friends in Vegas end of the month. I have really not ever known the kind of peace and faith that I have realized the past months and I although I have always enjoyed being with Me, I really enjoy my own company and doing my own thing. I'st difficult to just have someone around for the sake of having someone..... Life is just so amazing, mysterious and magical. Glad I woke up
Sad, Small, Enlightened, Grateful..
Sometimes words seem so insignificant yet the words I was blessed to hear today said so much more than I can ever convey as I humbly allow myself to just BE in what I feel.
Sometimes words seem so insignificant yet the words I was blessed to hear today said so much more than I can ever convey as I humbly allow myself to just BE in what I feel.
And I'll cross oceans like never before
So you can feel the way I feel it too
And I'll mirror images back to you
So you can see the way I see it too
This moment is the only truth
Tomorrow an illusion
Security the prison of our own undoing~
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I found this on a page I love A lot:
I want to be free! I want to live boldly in color. I want to feel confident. I want to feel light and proud of myself. I want to smile more. I want to cry less. I want more people to understand. I want to feel open all the time. I want to be seen. I want to have the courage to show up for myself. I want life to be less complex. I want to know the joy of playing. I want to be less guarded. I want my heart to rejoice. I want to say the things I have to say, knowing that the person I am sharing with can also share their truth transparently. I want peace. I want to dance, I want to sing. I want to be able to make noise where ever I go and not feel embarrassed or ashamed. I want my teeth to be clean and my breath to be nice. I want my jaw to relax. I want to celebrate love. I want to be touched. I want more hugs. I want to be held. I want to know children, and parents who are conscious. I want to be in love. I want a partnership. I want to build something with someone. I want to create more. I want to struggle less. I want life to be fun and experience pleasure. I want ease and flow. I want gifts of trust and confidence. I want more people to live from the heart. I want to be everything I ask for in others. I want to follow my instincts and design my heaven on earth. I want the resilience to take things slow and see them grow fast. I want to transform. I want to be the change. I know I am and yet I still resist. I am sensitive and I want to be able to better move energy, so the intensity is directed and moving. I want to shed the collective heartache. I want to heal my own. I want to take the leap. I want to know that it is the leap I am meant to take
.
Yummmmm.......I thought I lost this place....
Urggggg Freaky Fuckers!!!!
On break - the waves sing such a beautiful melody as the colors of the dusk dance and play...
I've been studying a lot about Twin Flames lately. I remember hearing the term some time ago and being frustrated I just could not find a lot about it. Aggravated the little I did find seemed to come from the same source, and suddenly It is everywhere- amazing information - I feel transformed and I love it!!!
OH OH OH--- I am SOOOOO very excited about
I found this on a page I love A lot:
I want to be free! I want to live boldly in color. I want to feel confident. I want to feel light and proud of myself. I want to smile more. I want to cry less. I want more people to understand. I want to feel open all the time. I want to be seen. I want to have the courage to show up for myself. I want life to be less complex. I want to know the joy of playing. I want to be less guarded. I want my heart to rejoice. I want to say the things I have to say, knowing that the person I am sharing with can also share their truth transparently. I want peace. I want to dance, I want to sing. I want to be able to make noise where ever I go and not feel embarrassed or ashamed. I want my teeth to be clean and my breath to be nice. I want my jaw to relax. I want to celebrate love. I want to be touched. I want more hugs. I want to be held. I want to know children, and parents who are conscious. I want to be in love. I want a partnership. I want to build something with someone. I want to create more. I want to struggle less. I want life to be fun and experience pleasure. I want ease and flow. I want gifts of trust and confidence. I want more people to live from the heart. I want to be everything I ask for in others. I want to follow my instincts and design my heaven on earth. I want the resilience to take things slow and see them grow fast. I want to transform. I want to be the change. I know I am and yet I still resist. I am sensitive and I want to be able to better move energy, so the intensity is directed and moving. I want to shed the collective heartache. I want to heal my own. I want to take the leap. I want to know that it is the leap I am meant to take
.
Yummmmm.......I thought I lost this place....
Urggggg Freaky Fuckers!!!!
On break - the waves sing such a beautiful melody as the colors of the dusk dance and play...
I've been studying a lot about Twin Flames lately. I remember hearing the term some time ago and being frustrated I just could not find a lot about it. Aggravated the little I did find seemed to come from the same source, and suddenly It is everywhere- amazing information - I feel transformed and I love it!!!
OH OH OH--- I am SOOOOO very excited about
I want a reading from this woman - after I order the ebook and the cd's - her music is so soothing and I always feel good after hearing/reading her videos on Youtube!
And As always I leave with a song to look back on ....
(Just in case I need to feel what I've written- GPS for the soul 
I feel as though I am walking through parallel universe at times..
I don't know why this song makes me cry as I type; I've yet to see the film or read the books..
I feel like I am on a journey. It's peaceful this time which is a very nice change from the past few years. I wish it weren't such a lonely and painful journey, I suppose the thought is futile....it would just be something we did if not a choice to reach one's highest self despite the sacrifices and constant longings.
Upon my Aunts passing I felt such curiosity. Did she long for love or simply find no use for it? Did she live her fullest life the way she desired? For many having the white picket fence, children and pets, that is who they are and what they live for, or so i'm lead to believe. Still I wonder- did she live her life as she desired? I struggle to believe yes, deep inside I am really sad because I don't know many that have. She died with no known lover, no children of her own although as an educator - she had thousands whose lives she enriched. She was a servant of the church with a commitment that rivals any earthly relationship, she lived for her family and taking care of her mother. Who I am to question the choices she or any other make?? I am sad with a knowing I don't recall; sad I wont see her again or get to laugh with her- my aunt had jokes!! In fact I come from a cast of characters and I am so blessed this family opened it's arms to me.
Peace my heart... Peace, my heart, let the time for the parting be sweet. Let it not be a death but completeness. Let love melt into memory and pain into songs. Let the flight through the sky end in the folding of the wings over the nest. Let the last touch of your hands be gentle like the flower of the night. Stand still, O Beautiful End, for a moment, and say your last words in silence. I bow to you and hold up my lamp to light you on your way. ~Rabindranath Tagore
I wonder how I would feel Living in Japan awhile...
I don't know why this song makes me cry as I type; I've yet to see the film or read the books..
I feel like I am on a journey. It's peaceful this time which is a very nice change from the past few years. I wish it weren't such a lonely and painful journey, I suppose the thought is futile....it would just be something we did if not a choice to reach one's highest self despite the sacrifices and constant longings.
Upon my Aunts passing I felt such curiosity. Did she long for love or simply find no use for it? Did she live her fullest life the way she desired? For many having the white picket fence, children and pets, that is who they are and what they live for, or so i'm lead to believe. Still I wonder- did she live her life as she desired? I struggle to believe yes, deep inside I am really sad because I don't know many that have. She died with no known lover, no children of her own although as an educator - she had thousands whose lives she enriched. She was a servant of the church with a commitment that rivals any earthly relationship, she lived for her family and taking care of her mother. Who I am to question the choices she or any other make?? I am sad with a knowing I don't recall; sad I wont see her again or get to laugh with her- my aunt had jokes!! In fact I come from a cast of characters and I am so blessed this family opened it's arms to me.
Peace my heart... Peace, my heart, let the time for the parting be sweet. Let it not be a death but completeness. Let love melt into memory and pain into songs. Let the flight through the sky end in the folding of the wings over the nest. Let the last touch of your hands be gentle like the flower of the night. Stand still, O Beautiful End, for a moment, and say your last words in silence. I bow to you and hold up my lamp to light you on your way. ~Rabindranath Tagore
I wonder how I would feel Living in Japan awhile...
