Well I finally remembered to cancel my account.

My boring site: http://agentultra.com

LJ: static-panic.livejournal.com

Check me out on #asciipr0n or rgbbs.org

Best of luck.

rpmchallenge.com -- I'm writing and recording an album this month. I'm supposed to try and finish it before the end of the month. Last night I was practically tearing my hair out. I hear these great songs in my head, but lack the interface to get them out. It doesn't help that bursts of creativity are accompanied by a bout of mania.

Maybe I need drugs or something.

Anyway... yeah.

Cory Doctorow is a cool guy and I'm such a nerd.

Meh.

My SG account has become quite neglected.

I'm probably just going to turn in and forget about it. I heard about all the bad stuff; and while I can't claim that I know the whole story -- it sounds pretty lame anyway.

I'm questioning a lot of things right now. Like what's important and stuff. I'm still on the fence about SG, so for the few people that do keep up with me on here; sorry if I seem "gone-ish."

Really, I'm just out there trying to get by and don't have enough time to waste anymore.

First day at the new job. Totally awesome.

Lots of firsts today.

First time working in a company that employs more than 8 people full time.

First time getting my own phone and extension.

First time working in a company as a developer with some kind of version control system (something I've yearned for for years).

Same for bug tracker -- it's incredible, but I work with developers who "get it."

First time working in a company that focuses entirely on internal projects.

First time working in a swanky downtown office.

First time getting my own workstation that I can do whatever I want with (I installed linux first thing).

First time getting my own phone, extension, and company voicemail box.

It's pretty cool. I think I'm totally going to love this job. I need to start collecting cube-goodies... even though I don't have a cubicle. It's still important. I work at an animation company -- everyone's a geek and they all have cool office toys!

I do have to learn how to be more sociable though -- I've been working at home full-time for 4 months or so now. It's not going to be hard though. Everyone is so nice! And energetic!

Awesomeness abounds!

I suppose I'm not the only one to notice, but I could be crazy --

Are there a crazy number of some of the best SG's going archived?

I'm sad that Charlie is gone. She was some kind of awesome. I will miss reading her awesome entries. And her totally bitchin' sets.

Change. You can't always get what you want.

Got the job. Whee.

Throwback album of the week: Days of the New - Self Titled. Freaking awesome.

The audio quality on the album is superb. They recorded it very well -- really crisp clear sounds.

And of course the songs are rythmic and moving, with a few guitar solos here n there. Very crafty musician-ship on this one. Hard to believe some times that they were only 17 when they wrote this stuff.

Interview went so awesome. It was for a company that produces this show. I've seen said show before and was totally stoked when I walked in their offices. Needless to say, I think I got it.

Anyway, check out this comic. It's freakin sweet. Pet squid on a leash. Oh yeah.

Another interview in 55 mins.

Nervous and oddly complacent. My mind is certainly elsewhere. I hope it comes back in time to help me out with this one.

This is me after an interview. Writing a blog entry and pondering my desperation -- positive, yes; but I still NEED this job. Every little detail of every moment comes to mind; criticizing my abilities and sense of self. Am I cut out for this? Do I really know what I think I know? What if it doesn't work out... what then...

I obviously keep applying for jobs, says the practical man within me. However, even if I do get this job, it could be up to two weeks before I start and possibly another two before I see a paycheque -- which is definitely not good. If I even get a job somewhere else, it's more or less the same.

Problem is I haven't even paid off all my debts this month and definitely don't have enough for rent this coming month -- let alone those rounds of bills. I've been bitten in the ass by a bad client who keeps 'deferring' payments. Everything would probably be fine if they would just pay their invoices. Such is the world though.

The agony is so deep though that I have a hard time feeling it now. It's one of those things we gain strength from -- resiliance in a sense. Those of us who are able to comprehend in spite of impending madness eventually see the world in subdued colour; rising above the pressures and pains in our lives, leaving them behind in the dull waters below the surface of our minds. Rising to meet the sun that can no longer just be a sun; but a symbol that is like clarity. It shines a light on colours that make them more than just colours; instead they become a myriad of possibilities of each colour's potential to be more like itself in different ways.

Such is the world.

PS: NanoWrimo is starting again in a couple days. Yes I've entered myself again and this time I will make it to 50k damnit!