How do you deal with anger? How do you swallow your pride and keep your eyes on the prize, as they say?
I put a lot of thought into somehow wording this so it wouldn't just sound like a whine, but I gave up because it basically is a whine.
My situation is feeling rather shit right now. It's shit, but not hopeless - there is a positive way out, it's just a matter of getting there.
The Problem - I hate my job, as I have said here before and lately it just seems to be getting worse. The sheer amount of things that they're doing that piss us off is astronomical. I won't go into details, as it will probably come across as trivial shit to anyone who doesn't work where I do, but it's seriously getting to me. It's getting to the point where it's seriously affecting me both in and outside of work. Like, on the days where I'm not angry or miserable, I basically don't feel anything. I don't care about anything, and I really want to get away from all of this and do something that I want to do, which leads me to another problem - I don't know what I want. I've spent that long trying to like a lot of different things, that I've lost what I actually do like. I don't really know who I am any more.
I don't even look forward to going home now. I mean, there's nothing wrong with my home, I live with my mother, brother and sister, and we all get on pretty much fine (as much as can be expected of course), but that's starting to get to me as well now. I'll be twenty-seven this year and I've done nothing with my life. I still live with my mother, because I can't afford to get a place of my own/can't find another job that pays enough. I still have to deal with a nagging mother, irritating siblings etc. when I really just want to be ou living my life.
Christ, this really does sound like a selfish whine...
But I can't help that it's all getting me down. I know all of these things are really problems with me and not other people (at least the home stuff is not other people), but I don't know how to fix them.
The solution - I hang on somehow for another year, take my redundancy payout and go to another country. I really need to learn to take care of myself away from my mother, the safety net, so I can come back and feel like I've actually achieved something and am worthy of my own standards.
The trouble is, my place of work continues to get worse, in an attempt, we suspect, to sicken people into leaving early so they can avoid paying so many redundancies. I see deliberate attempts to frustrate people, deliberate attempts to upset people and to intimidate people, and I see my friends getting screwed over. My natural inclination is to speak up in our defence and to Hell with the consequences, but I know that this payout will enable me to do things I'll never get to do otherwise. It could really change my life for the better, but I'm already struggling to deal with the way things are now, so I don't know how I'm going to make it another year.
I put a lot of thought into somehow wording this so it wouldn't just sound like a whine, but I gave up because it basically is a whine.
My situation is feeling rather shit right now. It's shit, but not hopeless - there is a positive way out, it's just a matter of getting there.
The Problem - I hate my job, as I have said here before and lately it just seems to be getting worse. The sheer amount of things that they're doing that piss us off is astronomical. I won't go into details, as it will probably come across as trivial shit to anyone who doesn't work where I do, but it's seriously getting to me. It's getting to the point where it's seriously affecting me both in and outside of work. Like, on the days where I'm not angry or miserable, I basically don't feel anything. I don't care about anything, and I really want to get away from all of this and do something that I want to do, which leads me to another problem - I don't know what I want. I've spent that long trying to like a lot of different things, that I've lost what I actually do like. I don't really know who I am any more.
I don't even look forward to going home now. I mean, there's nothing wrong with my home, I live with my mother, brother and sister, and we all get on pretty much fine (as much as can be expected of course), but that's starting to get to me as well now. I'll be twenty-seven this year and I've done nothing with my life. I still live with my mother, because I can't afford to get a place of my own/can't find another job that pays enough. I still have to deal with a nagging mother, irritating siblings etc. when I really just want to be ou living my life.
Christ, this really does sound like a selfish whine...
But I can't help that it's all getting me down. I know all of these things are really problems with me and not other people (at least the home stuff is not other people), but I don't know how to fix them.
The solution - I hang on somehow for another year, take my redundancy payout and go to another country. I really need to learn to take care of myself away from my mother, the safety net, so I can come back and feel like I've actually achieved something and am worthy of my own standards.
The trouble is, my place of work continues to get worse, in an attempt, we suspect, to sicken people into leaving early so they can avoid paying so many redundancies. I see deliberate attempts to frustrate people, deliberate attempts to upset people and to intimidate people, and I see my friends getting screwed over. My natural inclination is to speak up in our defence and to Hell with the consequences, but I know that this payout will enable me to do things I'll never get to do otherwise. It could really change my life for the better, but I'm already struggling to deal with the way things are now, so I don't know how I'm going to make it another year.