I think I have cabin fever. Ok, not really, but I'm bored as fuck. I haven't played Gurps or board games for 3 weeks. That is pretty much my social life. It's what I go out and do. But no, I haven't done any of that, and I'm bored. Yeah, sure, I could go out and do something else, but what? Shut up, it's rhetorical.

And somethings are just kinda bugging me. I don't know.

I need a change in my life, for the better. A new job, a band, something good. But that's all on me. It won't just happen.

Mariya asked if Matt can go to be with her so she can have him around when she gives birth. That's cool and nice and all, but it'll be around my birthday. Fuck. So she fucking owes me.

Making myself cranky. Gonna go play video games.

Ugh.....not sure if we're playing games tonight. It's Logan's wife's birthday today, which I don't mind. If he is gonna spend the day with her, he's being a good husband. That is important. Hank is a schmoe and got 1 hour of sleep last night and whatever and junk and stuff.

I guess long weekends are only fun if you have something to do. I did pretty much nothing. Yeah, it was fun just being lazy for once, but also, I was bored a lot.

I counted my graphic novels. I have 48 on my shelf, not counting the ones I lent to Hank. It's a nice start.

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Well, no games tonight either. Logan says Hank will go through times of not wanting to play games for a month or 2, then he'll be motivated again. Oh well. Dungeon Defenders with Michael tonight. Hell yeah

Another boring day. Yesterday was boring cause things didn't work out for Gurps. So I played guitar and Dungeon Defenders all day, then read some comics.

Today, I played drums, will probably play video games all day. *sigh* lol Sad, that those fun things aren't entertaining me.

James is in town. I kinda hope he'll want to hang out today before he goes back, but if not, oh well.

My perspective of certain things are changing, and I kinda don't like it. But it happens. All I can do it deal with it.

Mike is supposedly coming back to visit. I don't want anything to do with him. He's a loser. Just pure and simple.

I have the final issue to Irredeemable. I'm sad. I haven't read it yet. I got both covers, cause it's just kinda monumental that way. I decided to wait on reading it until I get the last issue of Incorruptible, then just finish it all together. It's been great. I love both series, but it kinda needs to end with how it's going. Can't go on forever. *sigh*

James is coming back into town for the weekend. Woo! Might hang out with him sometime. He was saying if he had a bunch of money he would get a bunch of new things, new computer, new car, I was thinking new wife. haha She doesn't really like me, so why the fuck should I like her? It never really works when your best friend is in a relationship. Doesn't happen often.

And speaking of which. I'm needing a girlfriend. One of my friends is now single after 5 years, and he isn't taking it well. And things are just kinda going in a way that it would be good for me to have one. Yep.

I am beginning to feel more and more capable at playing the guitar. Mainly I like the lessons that help me play right now. The stuff that doesn't make sense at the moment isn't fun to practice.

I was really upset a couple of nights ago, but I just sorta let things get out of hand in my head, and realized I was being stupid. But as a result of that, I woke up at 5:30 yesterday morning. Fuck. I only got 3 hours of sleep and was awake for 19 hours. Thankfully I got more sleep last night.

I've been getting into Trivium a lot. I really like them. I don't like bands that do things for the sake of doing them or because it's catchy or something. I like things that are real and done because it needs to be there. And I'm picky. But they are a nice mix of old school and new school metal. The song Demon reminds me of slayer.

Got guitar lesson soon. Then work. Ugh......I hate work.

I also really really really need a tattoo. I got a fake one on Sunday and it's still there, and it's just awesome having something on my skin. Makes me feel bad ass, even if it's fake. I want the real thing that much more now.

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Apparently Trivium went on tour with a bunch of european metal bands and got booed by the crowd cause some people are either all american metal bands or european bands.

Me, I would do the whole fucking set and kick ass even hard. And if I was on tour with a band that was getting booed that I liked, I would be like "How about that band?" and if the crowed booed again, I would say "Well fuck you. We're gonna play a song dedicated to all you fuckers" and have it be a nice pissed off song.

Assholes

Things have changed since last year. I kinda miss the way things were, but I know how it ended, and it's not really worth looking back.

I have more to look forward to. Opportunities to grasp, memories to make.

Allison invited me and a bunch of friends to go to the Oregon coast for July 4th. I should go. Go out and do something. Hang out with tons of friends.

The past is done, nothing can change that. But sometimes, I wish things went differently.

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Apparently the trip is cancelled. Oh well I guess.

But I've gotten into Trivium and like them a lot. Did a bunch of recording yesterday, probably do some more today.

So, I like Trivium now. Pretty fucking bad ass, and I like how they feel about music and how it should be done.

I'm pretty bored right now. Nothing going on. Didn't play Gurps last week cause they guys were bastards and decided not to play. Hopefully we will tomorrow.

The "B" button on my keyboard is coming off. Fucking stupid, but I ordered a new one to fix it.

The Legend of Korra is soo good!! The first couple of episodes were good, but a little slow, but it's really picked up and moving. YOU SHOULD WATCH IT!!!

Some celebrity people are just fucking cool. I've written to R.A. Salvatore and Tim Seeley. I got a quick response form both of them. I didn't really like what Salvatore wrote to me, but Seeley is pretty fucking cool.

I wrote a letter to him and he asked if he can print it, so I'm stoked for that. Hopefully it'll be in the next issue.

I want to be like that when I'm rich and famous. Be there for the fans and stuff. I know how fucking cool it is for well known people to reply and stuff, so why not do the same? It's like winning a contest. Yes, you have won, you were picked. Everyone is the winner. Everyone needs to feel special.

If you met or got a response from a celebrity, who was it and what was it like?

Couple of awesome things.

Hank is kinda a know it all. Sometimes he'll just say "Did you know...." and tell you something. Not all the time, not annoyingly, and it is interesting most of the time. But he does it more than other people I know.

Well, he say the chimpanzee movie and was talking to us about it and stuff that happened and called them monkeys. Chimpanzees are not monkeys. They are primates. I took 2 anthropology classes, of course I know that cause I had it drilled into my brain. Obviously, I corrected him. Also, monkeys have tails. Clue #1.

NEXT!!!

I jammed with Logan today in his garage and took my drums. It was pretty fun. I was nice and didn't do any crazy stuff, just to let him get used to and comfortable playing with drums. He had fairly good sense of rhythm. He wasn't thrown off that much if he was. But the funny part is he would talk crap to me about being a drummer and being dumb and shit like that. Today he said I'm pretty good at drums. Well, I know that, I'm am good. But just good to hear from someone who was talking shit to me about it. And he wanted to give it a try and I let him. He's not too bad. Better off start than I ever had, but I had no musical experience when I started.

So yeah. Good times.

Wow, Gurps was awesome today. We had a fucking epicly huge battle that lasted pretty much the entire session. We fought around 40 goblins. None of us died, but we got beat pretty hard, except Alec. What a bastard. He didn't get hit at all.

Makes up for last week, which was political, and boring.

It was a good thing I was well enough to go cause the guys would have been slaughtered.

Next week should be interesting. We will need to find a new adventure to create more havoc. And yet, there's just so much more that we haven't meddled with.