I recieved another letter tonight from my friend Timmy who is on a mission in Paraguay! Whenever I get mail from him I get the fattest smile on my face. His letters always seem to bring me to tears but in a good way. He is the greatest friend.
I just wrote a letter in response to him and I decided to post it on here like I did my last letter to him. If you would like to read it you can go back in my blog to Wednesday, December 23, 2009 to get what the previous conversation was about. I really don't expect anyone to read the whole thing though, it being a super long letter and all. It just goes into detail about a few of the guys I've been on dates with the past couple months.
"Timmy,
Oh my gosh, you have absolutely no idea how big the smile on my face was when my mom handed me the letter from you! Especially because I thought it was going to be my bank statement, haha. I don't now if I've told you this in my last letters to you or not but I have to say that your letters always make me cry, but in a good way. Oh and I just had an ice cream sandwich, try not to be too jealous. =p
I laughed so hard when you wrote "Stop having sex. Now, If I'm interpreting this correctly, "Hunan" is sex. If not, I feel like an idiot." Hunan isn't sex, it's actually Hunan. Hunan is chinese fast food. =D You best not worry about me having sex with him. I'm a smart girl, I know better than to have sex with an ex! I've actually had no action whatsoever besides kissing with anyone else.
I would have written you more since the last time I wrote you but I didn't want to write a tiny little letter just telling you that Cris and the girl I was talking about (Victoria) are now boyfriend and girlfriend. I found that out on Christmas eve. Surprisingly it didn't hurt as much as I thought it was going to, only because I saw it coming and prepared myself for it for so long. Ever since then I've been a lot better actually. That was the breaking point for me. I don't cry over him anymore, I don't freak out when he doesn't text me, I don't think about him throughout the day nearly as much as I used to. We do still talk a lot and act like good friends. There is still a little bit of bitterness there towards him but like you said.. in time that feeling will go away. I've accepted that we may never be the best of friends and as tight as we used to be but we are still pretty damn close to that. Which I thought would be impossible. Granted we haven't seen each other since I d
ropped off his Christmas present to him that one night early December, I'm kind of interested to see what would happen and how I'd feel if we did see each other soon though.. I don't know. I'm proud that usually I'm never the one who texts first (He always comes to me first) and that there was a period that we didn't talk for four days. Which is extremely odd for us. During the four days though I felt fine. =]
In the meantime I have gone on a few dates with a few different people. I've come to the conclusion that I really dislike the majority of guys. Maybe it's just Rohnert Park?
The first guy took me to the exploratorium in San Francisco (Didn't pay for my ticket) and then after we walked around China Town to find some food (that I ended up paying for both of us). I don't know, is that not good date material =? Am I right? Another time with the same guy he asked if I wanted to go to the movies. I told him i had no money (I did, I just wanted to see what he'd say) and he said "Oh, I guess another time then." He didn't even offer to pay! There have been other times where he has been cheap and I don't know.. I don't need a guy to pay for everything I'm just saying. If you ask me out I would think you'd pay. After that I would just nit pick him and find reason not to like him. He also got really...obsessive? He would text me all the damn time, always asked what I was up to, if I wanted to do anything later.. blahblah. I didn't text him back for an hour one time and he anded up going to my best friend Frank asking him where I was and why I wasn't texting him. It was an hour Timmy! Like come on!! He just turned me off after awhile..
Other guy (Shane) I've been friend's with for a few years now. Around my birthday (January 24th) we would just flirt innocently. Subtle. Hand holding here and there as well. Shane is a really nice guy. Christian, saving himself for marriage, good morals, church every sunday, sweet guy, plays in a band for his youth group, never yells..ect. He asks me on a dinner date and we set the date for some weekend. So the day before the date I go to a kickback at a friend's house and he happens to be there. Keep in mind that Shane is not a drinker. I had a beer that night so I was completely fine. My best friend Frank is a very heavy drinker [calls himself a lush (an alcoholic who admits it) something like that] and pure pressures Shane into drinking. Shane starts taking shot after shot and I can tellll that's hitting him hard. He's not acting like his normal self. Spouting stupid things out of his moth that don't make sense..just, yeah, it was all bad. We let him sober up some (he's our ride home) and when he said he was okay to drive we pile in the car for him to take us home. About half way down the street he says "Wow, it doesn't feel like I'm moving my feet." So he's driving drunk. Naturally I'm the last one to be dropped off. I go to give him a hug goodbye and I see he's going in for a kiss. So I think okay I'll just give him a little kiss. No. He grabs my back and pulls me in to him and starts mackin. Soo, I keep going and oh my...he's a horrible kisser. He kisses waaaayyy too hard and sucks on my lips to the point where they sting. he alternates between the bottom and top lip every time and he started using tongue. Ew. He doesn't graze with his tongue he just shoves it into your mouth as far as he can get it and just... wiggles.. gross, bleh. He's also a really LOUD sloppy kisser. I go to pull back from him a little and comes closer to me and ends up climbing on top of me in the passengers seat. He ends up reclining the seat we are in and I'm thinking oh shit, what is happening right now? My phone bleeps because I get a text and as we are making out I look in the drivers seat where my phone ended up and all I can think about is I omfg, I need to tell Frank all about this. Oh my god he's a terrible kisser. I tried to slow him down and make him better at it, but it wasn't happening. There was no helping this guy.
So I'm sitting there thinking, when the hell is this going to end he starts kissing my neck and all of a sudden I feel his hand go to my crotch and he just rubs... I'm shocked and pull his hand away subtly and then he just starts unziping my jacket. AH! I really didn't know what to do. I push him up off me a little bit and tell him "You have church tomorrow morning and I need to go." He get's off and walks me to my door. I go inside and get on the phone to call Frank to tell him what happened and I look in the mirror and notice I have hickey allllll over, up and down both sides of my neck. Oh hell to the no. To say the least I did not like him anymore. The next morning he texts me after church like nothing happend and asks if we're still going to dinner. i agree to him but I planned to tell him I couldn't continue with him anymore. Apparently he talked to Frank the next morning to ask what happened between him and I because he noticed his passenger seat was reclined. Frank told him that it wasn't the worst thing in the world but pretty bad and that he probably ruined his chances with me. ha.
Next guy I'm just going to cut real short. I thought we were just doing something as friends but he told everyone that we were on a date without telling me. I found out because his friend called while we were driving and he put him on speaker and his friend asks "Are you still on your date?" and Tyler (the guy i'm with) tries to play it off all cool. Another friend of ours we ran into also asked me why I was on a date with Tyler. I was a little creeped out.
Now I'm giving guys a break and I'm actually HAPPY being single. Shocker, right?
Paraguay sounds really open and pretty though from the way you describe in your letter. Jungle intrigues me. You have a camera right? Are you allowed to take pictures and such? 110 degrees is HOT but I love weather like that! Not everyday without a pool which you probably have to do though, haha. I bet you miss home too. I know everyone misses you a bunch! =]
Love Adrienne
PS- I sent this on FB on fed 28th but Happy Birthday!
I just wrote a letter in response to him and I decided to post it on here like I did my last letter to him. If you would like to read it you can go back in my blog to Wednesday, December 23, 2009 to get what the previous conversation was about. I really don't expect anyone to read the whole thing though, it being a super long letter and all. It just goes into detail about a few of the guys I've been on dates with the past couple months.
"Timmy,
Oh my gosh, you have absolutely no idea how big the smile on my face was when my mom handed me the letter from you! Especially because I thought it was going to be my bank statement, haha. I don't now if I've told you this in my last letters to you or not but I have to say that your letters always make me cry, but in a good way. Oh and I just had an ice cream sandwich, try not to be too jealous. =p
I laughed so hard when you wrote "Stop having sex. Now, If I'm interpreting this correctly, "Hunan" is sex. If not, I feel like an idiot." Hunan isn't sex, it's actually Hunan. Hunan is chinese fast food. =D You best not worry about me having sex with him. I'm a smart girl, I know better than to have sex with an ex! I've actually had no action whatsoever besides kissing with anyone else.
I would have written you more since the last time I wrote you but I didn't want to write a tiny little letter just telling you that Cris and the girl I was talking about (Victoria) are now boyfriend and girlfriend. I found that out on Christmas eve. Surprisingly it didn't hurt as much as I thought it was going to, only because I saw it coming and prepared myself for it for so long. Ever since then I've been a lot better actually. That was the breaking point for me. I don't cry over him anymore, I don't freak out when he doesn't text me, I don't think about him throughout the day nearly as much as I used to. We do still talk a lot and act like good friends. There is still a little bit of bitterness there towards him but like you said.. in time that feeling will go away. I've accepted that we may never be the best of friends and as tight as we used to be but we are still pretty damn close to that. Which I thought would be impossible. Granted we haven't seen each other since I d
ropped off his Christmas present to him that one night early December, I'm kind of interested to see what would happen and how I'd feel if we did see each other soon though.. I don't know. I'm proud that usually I'm never the one who texts first (He always comes to me first) and that there was a period that we didn't talk for four days. Which is extremely odd for us. During the four days though I felt fine. =]
In the meantime I have gone on a few dates with a few different people. I've come to the conclusion that I really dislike the majority of guys. Maybe it's just Rohnert Park?
The first guy took me to the exploratorium in San Francisco (Didn't pay for my ticket) and then after we walked around China Town to find some food (that I ended up paying for both of us). I don't know, is that not good date material =? Am I right? Another time with the same guy he asked if I wanted to go to the movies. I told him i had no money (I did, I just wanted to see what he'd say) and he said "Oh, I guess another time then." He didn't even offer to pay! There have been other times where he has been cheap and I don't know.. I don't need a guy to pay for everything I'm just saying. If you ask me out I would think you'd pay. After that I would just nit pick him and find reason not to like him. He also got really...obsessive? He would text me all the damn time, always asked what I was up to, if I wanted to do anything later.. blahblah. I didn't text him back for an hour one time and he anded up going to my best friend Frank asking him where I was and why I wasn't texting him. It was an hour Timmy! Like come on!! He just turned me off after awhile..
Other guy (Shane) I've been friend's with for a few years now. Around my birthday (January 24th) we would just flirt innocently. Subtle. Hand holding here and there as well. Shane is a really nice guy. Christian, saving himself for marriage, good morals, church every sunday, sweet guy, plays in a band for his youth group, never yells..ect. He asks me on a dinner date and we set the date for some weekend. So the day before the date I go to a kickback at a friend's house and he happens to be there. Keep in mind that Shane is not a drinker. I had a beer that night so I was completely fine. My best friend Frank is a very heavy drinker [calls himself a lush (an alcoholic who admits it) something like that] and pure pressures Shane into drinking. Shane starts taking shot after shot and I can tellll that's hitting him hard. He's not acting like his normal self. Spouting stupid things out of his moth that don't make sense..just, yeah, it was all bad. We let him sober up some (he's our ride home) and when he said he was okay to drive we pile in the car for him to take us home. About half way down the street he says "Wow, it doesn't feel like I'm moving my feet." So he's driving drunk. Naturally I'm the last one to be dropped off. I go to give him a hug goodbye and I see he's going in for a kiss. So I think okay I'll just give him a little kiss. No. He grabs my back and pulls me in to him and starts mackin. Soo, I keep going and oh my...he's a horrible kisser. He kisses waaaayyy too hard and sucks on my lips to the point where they sting. he alternates between the bottom and top lip every time and he started using tongue. Ew. He doesn't graze with his tongue he just shoves it into your mouth as far as he can get it and just... wiggles.. gross, bleh. He's also a really LOUD sloppy kisser. I go to pull back from him a little and comes closer to me and ends up climbing on top of me in the passengers seat. He ends up reclining the seat we are in and I'm thinking oh shit, what is happening right now? My phone bleeps because I get a text and as we are making out I look in the drivers seat where my phone ended up and all I can think about is I omfg, I need to tell Frank all about this. Oh my god he's a terrible kisser. I tried to slow him down and make him better at it, but it wasn't happening. There was no helping this guy.
So I'm sitting there thinking, when the hell is this going to end he starts kissing my neck and all of a sudden I feel his hand go to my crotch and he just rubs... I'm shocked and pull his hand away subtly and then he just starts unziping my jacket. AH! I really didn't know what to do. I push him up off me a little bit and tell him "You have church tomorrow morning and I need to go." He get's off and walks me to my door. I go inside and get on the phone to call Frank to tell him what happened and I look in the mirror and notice I have hickey allllll over, up and down both sides of my neck. Oh hell to the no. To say the least I did not like him anymore. The next morning he texts me after church like nothing happend and asks if we're still going to dinner. i agree to him but I planned to tell him I couldn't continue with him anymore. Apparently he talked to Frank the next morning to ask what happened between him and I because he noticed his passenger seat was reclined. Frank told him that it wasn't the worst thing in the world but pretty bad and that he probably ruined his chances with me. ha.
Next guy I'm just going to cut real short. I thought we were just doing something as friends but he told everyone that we were on a date without telling me. I found out because his friend called while we were driving and he put him on speaker and his friend asks "Are you still on your date?" and Tyler (the guy i'm with) tries to play it off all cool. Another friend of ours we ran into also asked me why I was on a date with Tyler. I was a little creeped out.
Now I'm giving guys a break and I'm actually HAPPY being single. Shocker, right?
Paraguay sounds really open and pretty though from the way you describe in your letter. Jungle intrigues me. You have a camera right? Are you allowed to take pictures and such? 110 degrees is HOT but I love weather like that! Not everyday without a pool which you probably have to do though, haha. I bet you miss home too. I know everyone misses you a bunch! =]
Love Adrienne
PS- I sent this on FB on fed 28th but Happy Birthday!
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How often are you on this site? You seem worth getting to know but some people only drop in every week or two.
Hope you don't mind the friend request from a random guy an ocean away, you've piqued my interest.