It has been a long time since my last confession. I have been working too much lately. and I am a long way from home. 2000 miles is enough to make a person reevaluate thier place on this rock. I am planning a trip home end of next month, a trip to Vancouver in November, and another trip back to the midwest in December, then in January back the the great northwestern place we so dearly know as Seattle Washington.

HHMMMMMMM........xo................maybe more tomorrow

This is bracelet I made using a piece of parrot wing gem stone. It has filigre work on the sides, and fits a 6 inch wrist. The metal work is sterling silver.


This is a heart shaped filigre necklace. It is made of sterling silver wire, and has 6 individual bezel set diamonds for a total of 0.30 ct. It measures 3 inches across, and hangs from a 22 inch chain.


This penant measures 3x4, and displays a nice colorful piece of Lapis. It is set in a gallery wire that carries a vintage look. The pendant is hand laid filigre wire work. The entire piece is sterling silver. It does not have a chain, but it will accept any chain that is less than 6mm around.

Well it is offical our untimely demise has offically hit home. Cessna announced 4600 layoffs Thursday morning. I did receive a layoff notice. Back to hookers and herion i guess.

As I sit here withering and wasting away
I wonder why, why another day

When I was in the hospital I had no hope
they said calm down and take this dope

all they had to offer was their controlled pills
but dont do drugs, cause that stuff kills

further and further into the hole i fell
they said just talk, talk, talk until you feel well

fake ideas, half ass groups and broken dreams
my plans would have succeded by any means

I am making a formal post so I have something to stick to. I would like to post an update at least once a week, even if I am the only one who reads it. I feel I am in a point in my life when I need help and feedback from those around me. Yet nobody in here understands me, or what I am trying to work through.

Earlier this year I was hospitalized for plotting my own demise. I have so much love in my heart to give the world; yet I only display rage and hate. I have taken their drugs and therapy sessions. I have gone into groups and solo sessions. I do not feel any of these things have helped me. I am running short of options.

Then there was nothing

I have deceided not to renew my account at this time. It will expire June 17th this year. About 7 weeks away I know, however I do not feel I will change my mind at this time.

To all who have been there to chat with, Love ya
To all who were too good to talk to me, Fuck ya

xo
Chris

I received a large package of copper findings today, should produce some very nice new earrings and necklaces. I will post some pictures when I have more time.


Find more of these here here

Isn't amazing how a trip to the hospital on behalf of a dear loved one changes our whole outlook on life in general. I must ponder life in a new light this evening.

From the blood in my veins, I wish anybody whom reads this Happy St. Patricks day. Ironically I believe the day was originally celebrated in England not Ireland; also I think St. Patrick was actually of Scotish decent. I'll have to check on that now!

xo
Chris