ya know... i haven't been on here for so long, and everything has changed so much that i couldn't even figure out how to update my journal. anyway, if i still even have anyone on here that still gives a damn, i thought i'd stop in and say hello. i'm living in the middle of freakin nowhere, with no one i'm really interested in spending time with. i miss my pgh and la friends so much, and especially the clubs i used to go to. now all i have are these redneck ass bars filled with redneck ass drama. it's sucking the life right out of me. when i first got here i walked into a bar and asked the bartender what kind of vodka they had ('cause i really wanted a martini) he looked at me and said "vodka?". i said, "you do know what vodka is, don't you?" "well all we got is beer here" *sigh*
my best friends now are named xanax and valium. haha.. how pathetic. anyway, how have you been?

thanks to whoever bought me the gift account!

should i... take a job that's really close, and laid back, or a job that is kinda far away, pays better, but i have to sign a 3 year contract?? the contract scares me... the place is very structured with lots of rules and i'm not used to that. what if i hate it? i'm stuck there 'cause if i break the contract i will be sued (it has happened). i know i'll make more there, though. maybe alot more. the business is much more established and very busy... where the one thats closer has only been open for 3 years, but it's more casual and comfy. i'm talking day spas in case you don't know what i do.

shit. i hate making decisions

I know, I know... shut up...

Thanks for all the birthday wishes and stuff. I've been busy moving to the middle of fucking nowhere... yep. I hope I don't start sayin ya'll

i miss everyone so fricken' much...

i just read every one of my old journals, which was kinda depressing. i can't believe how much has changed over the past year and a half. pretty much everything, i guess...
i was about to get into it, but changed my mind. i'll just say that i really miss getting into trouble with the best friend i ever had. 'cause we had a hell of alot of fun doing it. i wish we weren't so far apart.

i passed my state boards!!! i even had an interview at a salon last night. feel kinda iffy about it, though. boyfriend is getting transferred in july, possibly sooner. we made a list of all the places we wanna go. not to get all my Pittsburgh friends hopes up, but Baltimore was our #1 pick. that's the closest to PA with a job opening. so keep your fingers crossed. what's a surfer boy gonna do in Maryland? i get really homesick, so he's trying to get me closer to my family. he's the sweetest.

my hair is purple again! it's purdy

i haven't smoked since Tuesday, and i've never felt worse. my head hurts, i'm tired and really pissed. no. i mean, i'm reeeeeaaally pissed. what's even better is that my boyfriend also quit and he's just as bitchy as i am.

Hero is the prettiest movie EVER, by the way.