I know there are people out there who read these things and care about the kids.

I'm going to be participating in a charity event here in Washington on July 20th to raise funds for St. Jude Children's Research Hospital, for those who don't know the focus at St Jude is on caring for and curing children with cancer. Below is a link to a donation page for those who care to support and help the kids.

St Jude Research Hospital Donation page

If you have any questions feel free to ask me directly.

Interesting story for those of you who may have read a blog I posted on May 15th of this year.

To re-cap, I had bought concert tickets as a b-day present for a fwb, who waited til the last second to tell me she was dating someone and didn't feel comfortable going with me anymore, nice guy syndrome took over and I gave her the tickets anyway.

About a week ago said former fwb makes contact again after nothing since May, and tells me that for the previous two weeks I've been appearing in her fantasies again which drove her to contact me. By a very strange coincidence I had a dream about her right around the time she claimed to have started having uncontrolled fantasies about me. As far as I know she's still dating the other guy, but she wants to meet up. I'm not sure what her intentions or desires are, but the coincidence of the timing has my curiosity up.

Any insights or even just raw opinions would be more than welcome on this issue, just your take on what I've written here, please no debates on other peoples comments. Thanks

I've noticed that there are certain people in this world who consider themselves to be the foremost expert on all things great and small having to do with both social and personal aspects of life. These individuals have extremely rigid views of how things should be and as such see no room for differing opinions, and openly presume to inform the rest of the world of just how wrong they are in every thing they are doing on a day to day basis.

For the better part of my life I have allowed such people to cause me great distress, I would take their criticism to heart and set myself to the task of fixing these "problems." Yet it seemed that I was forever falling short of this goal, and eventually I would give up trying to fulfill what others thought I should be, but sooner or later I would try yet again to meet the expectations of those who wish only to make others feel insignificant. This being a symptom of a futile search for validation, I have come to the following resolution.

To those who wish to provide unsolicited advise, criticism, or life coaching, however constructive you believe it to be, consider this. I have two pets, a dog who will most likely be a part of my life for the next 10 to 13 years, and a snake who will probably live another 20 to 25 years. I form my life to fit their needs as well as my own, any person who wishes to hold the same sway over my life should also be an equal part of my life.

If our relation, what ever it may be, will have an effect on your life even 5 years down the road, your input is welcome but do not expect that merely because you speak that your words will change me. Of course those who have proven themselves to be trusted friends may always speak their mind with me, and can expect their words to be taken to heart. Any person whose input is requested can also expect their words to carry weight, though it will also be expected that those individuals understand that a request for input does not ensure a change will follow.

Those who know me, know how far I will go to keep a promise, and I promise to disregard any unworthy input provided by self important individuals who place themselves above others for no more reason than holding a differing opinion. Such a narrow mind is incapable of forming thoughts broad enough to provide positive life lessons and are as such not worthy of the time and consideration a lesson of this nature would require to achieve its full potential.

Just a reminder to anyone looking for something to do on the 4th of July...

There is going to be a themed paintball game at North West Paintball Park that day, with a camp out at the park the night before. The theme of the game is "Alien Invasion" it's a lot of fun, there are usually lots of very intense fire fights, and a lot of fun to be had, this is an annual event that has seen many first time players turn life long paintball fanatics.

The Park is located at 368 Ne Waaga Way, Bremerton, WA

If your even remotely interested in this event or curious about paintball in anyway, please feel free to ask me any questions you may have and I will be happy to answer them to the best of my ability.

If you don't have your own gear they do have rental packages, with gun, mask, and paint.

The theme game is broken up into two 45 minute games with regular walk on games being played before and after to keep thing up tempo and keep the adrenaline flowing.

I don't know what anyone else thinks of this but all the paintball talk I've been doing lately got my wheels turning, and I know of a few women who have tried to get a paintball photo shoot on a field but could never get a field owner to allow it.

My thought on a paintball set is a little bit different however, what if someone were to do a set of the coming home from a day of paintball scenario? Walk in the door wearing/carrying your gear covered in paint from the games, pealing your clothing off piece by piece and dropping it in the washing machine, checking for welts as your go, then hopping in the shower to clean up.

Anybody whose ever actually gone through this process before knows the amount of color that washes off of your body at this point is rather surprising. Not to mention the "I don't remember getting shot there" aspect of the process.

This is mostly for those in the South Puget Sound area of Washington State, just due to the location of the topic, but to anyone looking for something to do on the 4th of July...

There is going to be a themed paintball game at North West Paintball Park that day, with a camp out at the park the night before. The theme of the game is "Alien Invasion" it's a lot of fun, there are usually lots of very intense fire fights, and a lot of fun to be had, this is an annual event that has seen many first time players turn life like paintball fanatics.

The Park is located at 368 Ne Waaga Way, Bremerton, WA

If your even remotely interested in this event or curious about paintball in anyway, please feel free to ask me any questions you may have and I will be happy to answer them to the best of my ability.

Why is it that there is always at least one person who want's to get into an ethical debate over a matter of opinion?

I make one little post regarding my opinion in relation to the question of mandatory drug testing for welfare recipients and next thing I know I'm being informed by someone of a differing opinion, of how narrow minded and basically how wrong I am.

I'm not saying that they're dumb for having a different opinion than I do, I'm not even saying they're dumb, I'm just saying that when I state an opinion, that all it is... my opinion. You are free to have a different opinion than I have, in fact, please tell me all about it and why you feel that way. I only ask that you not do so in the form of an attack on my opinion.

I respect that you think differently than I do, please return the favor.

Bonfire party tonight at a friends place, air horn is installed and working very well considering it was found in the scrap bin, I would share but air horns are best when heard... not as much fun when only seen. So if you see me driving my truck around and you would like to hear it... ask and you shall receive.

Tomorrow will probably be cleaning mostly, grillin with guests on Monday, hopefully we'll be outside most of the day but still nice to have the place clean for company.

Got the belt problem fixed on the truck, no new weird dreams, and have an air horn that got saved from the scrap bin waiting to be installed.

I had plans for three days of my up coming four day weekend but Sunday just got canceled so now I have plans for Saturday and Monday, with Sunday and Tuesday off still.

Anyone got any suggestions as to what I could do with my free time?

If I'm gonna keep having weird ass dreams like this I think I'd rather go back to not having them or not remembering anything about them, Second dream in a week that I can remember vivid details about and it's more fucked up than the last one. At least the last one had a story line to it... I think. At any rate I was walking around the property of the apartment community I live in and for some reason the guy from "Dirty Jobs" and all those Ford commercials was here, and was hitting baseballs around in a haphazard fashion. Every so often he'd break a window and each time it happened to be a window of an elderly couple who would come outside and repeatedly yell, "FUCK YOU!!!!" at him at the top of their lungs.

Normally if I saw someone doing something like that I would tell them to knock it off (don't really feel like replacing any glass on either of my vehicles or having a busted window in my apartment) but instead I was just sitting back and watching the stupidity and laughing my ass off as he was getting screamed at by old people. What made it even funnier was that the harder he tried to apologize the angrier the old people got, at one point he was on his hands and knees squeamishly saying, "I'm sorry, I'm sorry, I'm sorry, I'm sorry, I'm sorry, I'm sorry," and they just kept yelling louder and louder.

Does this mean anything or am I just that fucked up in the head?