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ok it transpired and am sitting here talking to my guy and our friend.
feel good.

I am having my first menage a trois Saturday nite. I have been in threesomes before but always drinking or other some state of mind. It will be me, the guy I've been seeing for 9 months (not an exclusive relationship) and another woman. He is bringing over a friend that he knows and that he thinks we will hit it off. I'm nervous/excited/etc
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Today would have been Daddy's 83rd birthday. Today has been a good day. Quiet, sane, compared to the way it's been the last few weeks. Feel like I'm on a rollercoaster.

My insomnia is due to unrequited love....to an extent. Love that is returned sweetly yet is not constant. Also I think I have allergies or something. thank you friends for trying to help.

so how many nights can one go without sleep? I used to have insomnia and thought I outgrew it. These days I'm doing good to sleep one good night a week. I cannot function at work I am so tired. I keep thinking I'm so tired I have to sleep but then I don't again. I know it's a snowball effect but this sucks. I...
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Weather continues to be beautiful. difficulties with work and relationship but it's working out on both ends. Couldn't sleep last night after about 2am and tonight will sleep like a babe.

hello there. feeling better. totally preoccupied with things going on. The weather has been beautiful and have been working in the yard. Does anyone else out there get so totally off on springtime?

late at night, watching the tube, thinking about getting high or reading, anything but this drinking thing I do. Why is everything so hard, so difficult, so full of angst. I know I'm a decent person. I know I try to pay my bills. But life totally sucks. Why do credit card interests run 18 to 25 % yet accruing interest on a CD is...
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hey. well here I sit. I'm sorry, there is nothing to say, just that I'm still here talking about people being together. My boss is still totally out of control and gets all kinds of excited, pissed off, whereas I sit there and try to chill and chill with our officers and office staff. It works out real nice when i'm there. When the boss...
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hey. yesterday I got to see Carole King doing a promotion for John Kerry. You guys are too young to remember but she had a fantastic album out in 1971 called Tapestry. She is like, a classic rocker albeit tamed. She lives in Idaho. It was so cool it made my day. It was a beautiful day yesterday, too. Sunny, no wind, warm. Back to...
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hello, how is everyone? Work is tolerable yet still hypocritical. I have been drinking less and it has been extremely depressing but I want to cut down in order to save money, be healthier, and....be less depressed. Hence I have spent the week crawling into bed when I get home with sweatpants and sweatshirt, and heavy blankets over me with a book feeling very.....depressed. I...
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Between money woes and boss complaints, I've reached the end of my patience. I work at an animal shelter. Does anyone want to adopt ME???? JUST kidding, hanging in there. Good things: reading good books. Hanging with my pets. Listening to NPR. happy Valentine's Day everyone.