good start to my 3 day weekend already! and i hope everyone in SG has a good holiday weekend! cheers!... i plan on purchasing the new SIX FEET UNDER today, i hope best buy has it. i miss the old Rock n Roll plus and Relapse on south st, you could get everything underground there! good ol' days. uhm, yea, thats all i got for now... heres the tune i started my day with, my fav by MOTORHEAD!... OH and im highly upset that i will not be going to MARYLAND DEATHFEST, so many great bands i wanted to see, and the mighty ELECTRIC WIZARD, SAINT VITUS.. if anyone cares to read and has gone and has video i would love to see!

once again i am broke from the weekend but this time its ok. lol a few friends and i threw a party for one my close friends that is in the Coast Guard as is leaving next month for Alaska for 3 years so we thought it would be nice to try to get everyone together incase no one sees him before he leaves. well it was a success, the surprise part not so much, well he didnt know but the idiot drank alllll night friday into the afternoon of saturday lol so i knew he as gonna be dead. so we had a friend just pretty much go wake him and drag him to my club, where we had it. he was definitely in a state of "wtf" so ill take that as surprised haha. it was good time, most of the friends shows up and we all drank pretty hard that night. and of course i started up again when i woke up and had another good day! so it was a good weekend even tho i have no money now to get the things i planned to get.. the new SIX FEET UNDER comes out today and that was on my priority list, i guess im gonna have to wait til i get paid, bummer ;[. i really need a new job, or another, tho i def dont wanna do 2 jobs, but im doing so much work in my current part time job[UPS] and it definitely doesnt balance out on the check, great benefits, but benefits arent gonna get me anywhere, just another rant on my shitty job.. other than that, just living...ttyl

something that came outta me while listening to the new Marilyn Manson..

freeze the body to numb the pain
let the nerve endings die
comatose the world of its ugliness
unspoken words fed as you lie

greedy hands fake their tears
and invest in all their fears
the crosses show their guilt
joining hands proclaiming the end is near

plastic smiles will survive by the dollar sign
the bank is the new church hailing high
your signature is the stamp of ending your life
hand over your soul and we'll supply the knife

filthy eyes follow the slime that pillows our feet
watch them fall and willow in defeat
a hole in the stich is your worst enemy
all is left is your name on a tomb of conrete


im open to criticism. im proud and diggin it, especially since its been kinda hard to open back my creative side with the stupid shit piled in my brain. so enjoy or not.

wellll... today had to wake up early for the maxifacial doctor that deals with my "facial migraines", im quoting because this shit has lasted too fuckin long and im fed up. another medicine i have to try and the next step is he would like to try Botox, yes Botox. supposedly it has become FDA approved and has some purposes for certain health issues and headaches is one of them. im skeptical because i also think i have some sort of nervous/anxiety problem on top of this or is causing this, so i think i may get a second opinion before this Botox. i dont like the idea at all..and i think my drunken fall last weekend fucked up my jaw in the area that migraine affected, so im really aggravated about that, just cant win!.. other than that, im really thinking about not listening to my friends about the motorcycles ive been looking at. Honda Rebel is the style im really interested, most are 250cc which i understand isnt as powerful but it wasnt meant to be, its meant to learn on. if i could find a 650cc Rebel thatd be great but its hard. theres a few '85 '86s but that means theres definitely some maintenance involved, the others are '05 '06 '07 runnin 2grand, id much rather pay 2grand for an '07 250cc that way i wouldnt have to worry much about maintenance, so thats on my mind.. wow, guess i needed to vent, ha... the dvds i ordered came today, horror of course, Grotesque, Entrails of a Beautiful Woman, Entrails of a Virgin, and Suspiria, the first 3 are asian cult horror with tons of gore so i am lookin forward to watching and of course Suspiria is old school and ive only seen clips so im debating which one i should watch after work tonight.. well i think i blogged enough today, im goin to do some exercises before work, ttyl

so the FLYERS got the boot tonight. i am quite disappointed! we should of swept this series just like the damn Penquins! but you cant win them all. i can also say they played horrible, i dont know what they were thinking!!.. on the hockey topic, first, i understand the tradition but i find it funny that people grow "play off beards", soon enough everyone will be baby face again, guess im just a true beardsmen! ha! ;]~

so i am surrending and ending the procrastination of fixing my bike. since i cant seem to figure the tire thing out, i am going to bring it to a local shop and ill just pay for it. on a good note, rubber bands come in handy with stripped screws, i found out! hopin this place will replace everything haha. i miss the gym!

could really use some endorphins.

well i have off from work tonight which is a good thing. i was suppose to go see RAMMSTEIN tonight with some friends but one my buddy was in charge of tickets and never got them, bummed. i havent seen them in years and they have a great live/pyro performance. but not totally a waste i dont have to be in the hell hole. would like to be as productive as possible but theyre calling for rain from today til about next tuesday, grrreeaaatt. and actually i still have to take a trip to work for my check cause im pretty low on cash. and the bank closes early on saturdays. i plan on takin it easy or none at all with alcohol this weekend, i know my post make me sound like an alchy or ex-alchy, but since i acquired anxiety/headache it really doesnt help. i just need to know my limit and chill. if marijuana were legal id quit ha. anyway, so yeah about to get dressed and see where the day takes me..

this was in the mail today and most likely the best thing to come out of today!

just wanna say, way to go Flyers for kickin the Penquins out of the play offs!