yeah, so I was reminded why I ended my membership tonight. Chatted for an hour with a seemingly decent chick and then she blocks me. What the Fuck? I'm sick of this rejection bullshit. Not like I was even trying to hook up or some bullshit. Just hanging out and chatting about whatever. I'm not that bad a fucking person to talk to. Fuck! I hate the fact that I feel like I need people when I keep getting blown off by everyone, even complete strangers. This is bullshit. I put on the happy face and I am interested in getting to know people. Why the fuck am I constantly in a state of being rejected by someone? This is the fucking internet. Just be cool and quit judging me on whatever the fuck it is that you were judging me on. I guess it was my profile, or the way in which I talked. Fuck if I know. I'm so fucked up right now. I have women that I tried to get closer to, telling me that they shouldn't have bailed on me the way the did (read trying to fuck my friends after I took them on a few dates) because I'm a good guy... Of course they are telling me this now that they are in serious relationships with other people. Fuck YOU all! I'm so sick of this fucking riddle.

-Dave

Tired of your bullshit. Treat me like a person.

Someone paid for 3 month of this for me... Weird. Thanks, I guess.

Things I don't remember
How'd the hell'd we get here?

I keep thinking about that year I came back home and then I escaped into an online drunken oblivion. From What i don't really know. Can't really remember, but I'm sure that I felt the same as I do now. Listless, and/or waiting for something. I really need to get out more. I'm trying. It's hard when you don't have the words to say to people. I usually end up quiet in some smoke filled space...

I'm excited... Just a month or so and I'm starting school. I have orientation next Friday!

Fuck I hate the people I work with..... They keep asking me why I'm going to school... and their tone is like I'm wasting my time. FUCK THEM. FUCKING ASSHOLES! Not my problem that they are stuck in dead-end jobs for the rest of their lives. My superviser is an ex-con, and was in prison for fucking dope. He's a college grad but he can't get a job because he has a serious fucking felony. He thinks college was a waste of time? It was only a waste of time because shortly after he started dealing dope to support his fucking loser habit. Now he can't get a job with his degree because no respectable business will hire a felon... Well no shit! What a fucking moron......

Our checks didn't come in today. What the Fuck?

maybe, i dunno.... some combichrist?


that might be too rough......




fuck it.

My mind is ramblin',
From place to place,
Tell me, tell me,
What must I do?

..........

i am still living with your ghost.

not so lonely and drinkin' with some good friends.

take the hinges of the door..............

one more day till vacation time. yay. I'm blaring music and drinkin' lots of beer. Here's to me, the best you've never had.

I'm chillin' here at the casa, waitin' on my bitch ass friend to get back from seeing his marine recruiter. Why do people go into the armed forces to be grunts? That's just idiotic, and I cannot seem to convince my friends of that. I mean it doesn't bother me that you think you should serve for this country or whatever, but maybe you should go in with a career in mind. Instead of saying, I want to shoot shit. That's fucking stupid. There are very few careers geared towards shooting people.... That's all I'm saying.

You should have seen the way...