having the worse time of my life... save me please. give some kinda release, come on give it to me please. hurry up before i go bursting at the seams!!! if u only knew it would be enough to make u cry, starting over baby, its hard thing in life. when all u wanna do is run and hide, and curl up up and hide, it's so hard to give it up and start over again. to start from scratch, to start over from nothing, to start at the bottom and work ur way up all over again. when ur all alone, and no one hears all the words u need to say, everything u need to let go. having the worse time of my life, why doesn't it end...
when do i start to feel again. to love and hate the same person is a curse in itself. i hate her, and can let her go, when i've held her so close. she... she is something else. she, she left me, hurt me and left me for dead all for her own selfishness, without a word to say, other than the spark was gone!!! the spark was gone? i ponder to myself it that was true why am i n this horrible place, this dangerous state of mind, where i plot to ruin her life, destroy her heart, her everything, just like she has done to me. yet unable to raise a hand, outta care for the woman i once loved... and that i mb still do. how do u ever get ever truly give up something so close to u, something u love... idk, but i just cant, that is my blessing, that is my burden... u took away from me everything i held dear, but ur happy as a fucking clam... thats the real fuck job. un-phased un-scarred ready for ur next victim. u r a murder, a criminal, a thief, a cheat, scum and trash rolled into one, u have killed part of me i can never get back, and happy in the eyes of it
i hope u live forever... as i fight to kill the image of u n my mind, and bear the pain and anger that u have caused me, a burden i must bear for eternity. u were the one who wasn't good enough for me!!!
when do i start to feel again. to love and hate the same person is a curse in itself. i hate her, and can let her go, when i've held her so close. she... she is something else. she, she left me, hurt me and left me for dead all for her own selfishness, without a word to say, other than the spark was gone!!! the spark was gone? i ponder to myself it that was true why am i n this horrible place, this dangerous state of mind, where i plot to ruin her life, destroy her heart, her everything, just like she has done to me. yet unable to raise a hand, outta care for the woman i once loved... and that i mb still do. how do u ever get ever truly give up something so close to u, something u love... idk, but i just cant, that is my blessing, that is my burden... u took away from me everything i held dear, but ur happy as a fucking clam... thats the real fuck job. un-phased un-scarred ready for ur next victim. u r a murder, a criminal, a thief, a cheat, scum and trash rolled into one, u have killed part of me i can never get back, and happy in the eyes of it
i hope u live forever... as i fight to kill the image of u n my mind, and bear the pain and anger that u have caused me, a burden i must bear for eternity. u were the one who wasn't good enough for me!!!
misery is normalcy, it is the time-eater, the oblivion that feels our lives between the highs. if u love someone, who u can have, but only for a short time... do u let it go to protect u both?or enjoy the now, and endure the pain later? i miss KLL, i let her go to save the hurt on both ends as she is leaving next yr, for at least 5 yrs, and doesnt want to do long distance. lose her know or later, hurt now or then, i let her go, did i do the right thing? i miss her but i got a girl close to home who treats me good, but i still miss kkl, dont know if either r right, and i wont commit to the one here, cause she wont let me c the other if i do... so i'm on the verge of losing it all... what the fuck do i do...
so aggravated, everything is going wrong all at once, more than usual. can 't i get a break...
in this world, i'm only sure about being unsure! but if i do know one thing, i'd love to work at sg, i could be a personal assistant, roadie, butler, janitor, something... keep up the good work
"i'm spent... how much did i spend... last night... can't worry now... when it felt so right... just right... did i spend the night... up all night... i'd give you all my time... waste it all with you... i'd love to spend up all my time, on you..."
so i'm not so patiently waiting for this new horrorpops cd, i have the first 2, number one is better, hope number three will be as good as the first. Patricia's voice fn melts me, gets me kinda hott too 
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ya knowwell i'd like to let all you out there know, that as of right now, before anyone else does, that i know of, I pronounce Suicide Girls to be my new religion, hopefully i'm the first, and i'll found SG ministries!!!
