Looking back I wont stop loving him
Looking back I say FUCK HIM
Looking back I hurt myself
Right now I wonder if he was right. That no matter how much I grew I somehow devolved. That is not verbatim but that was the jist of it. I thought the same of him...*sighs*... but this is about me...
I've thought a lot of vindictive things in the past, now I just sort of look back and kick myself for being so mentally corrupt. Ive been through a lot, Ive changed but with time ive grown bitter. I blame that on him but it was poor decisions that got me to this destination.
I'm trying not to push people away and I'm trying to not get the better of myself. But my inner demons make themselves very much known. I just wish sometimes that I didnt have people that I was close to because then it would make things easier for me to just fade away.
Looking back I say FUCK HIM
Looking back I hurt myself
Right now I wonder if he was right. That no matter how much I grew I somehow devolved. That is not verbatim but that was the jist of it. I thought the same of him...*sighs*... but this is about me...
I've thought a lot of vindictive things in the past, now I just sort of look back and kick myself for being so mentally corrupt. Ive been through a lot, Ive changed but with time ive grown bitter. I blame that on him but it was poor decisions that got me to this destination.
I'm trying not to push people away and I'm trying to not get the better of myself. But my inner demons make themselves very much known. I just wish sometimes that I didnt have people that I was close to because then it would make things easier for me to just fade away.