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so it's been a month today since i got laid off. seems longer. ive sent out somewhere between 20 to 30 resumes, have my resume on monster for public viewing, and i've only had ONE interview. no one else has even called me. i havent even heard back from the job i used to work at who offered me a job.
fuck this sucks.
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oh well, music video time (no theme, random stuff)
MC Lars - Signing Emo
fuck this sucks.
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oh well, music video time (no theme, random stuff)
MC Lars - Signing Emo
MC Lars - Download This Song
Hellogoodbye - Call N Return
Finch - Letters to You
She & Him - Why Do You Let Me Stay Here?
An Angle - White Horse
and last and very much least
my failure of a band
Fury Nine - Sky High
no job updates 
so in my time off, i've decided to grow a beard. i figured now is as good a time as any. i wanted to see what i would look like with one, but all of my jobs in the past either a) didnt allow facial hair, or b) wouldnt let u grow a beard unless u grew it during a vacation or something. i tried growing one before inbetween jobs, but i dont remember if i just got sick of it (itchy) or i had to shave because it wasnt long enough by the time i started the next job
the mustache is bugging the hell out of me
but, here it is, so far. a little more than a week maybe. or maybe a little less than a week... lol with no job, my whole sense of time is messed up
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and since i have nothing else to say, here's some Reggie and the Full Effect
Congratulations Smack + Katy
J Train
Get Well Soon (dammit, wont embed. look it up on youtube, great song, funny video)
Love Reality
Take Me Home, Please
What the Hell is Contempt?
so in my time off, i've decided to grow a beard. i figured now is as good a time as any. i wanted to see what i would look like with one, but all of my jobs in the past either a) didnt allow facial hair, or b) wouldnt let u grow a beard unless u grew it during a vacation or something. i tried growing one before inbetween jobs, but i dont remember if i just got sick of it (itchy) or i had to shave because it wasnt long enough by the time i started the next job
the mustache is bugging the hell out of me
but, here it is, so far. a little more than a week maybe. or maybe a little less than a week... lol with no job, my whole sense of time is messed up
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and since i have nothing else to say, here's some Reggie and the Full Effect
Congratulations Smack + Katy
J Train
Get Well Soon (dammit, wont embed. look it up on youtube, great song, funny video)
Love Reality
Take Me Home, Please
What the Hell is Contempt?
i MIGHT have gotten a job. i went to one of the casinos i used to work for, for a free lunch they sent me for my bday, and i went by the cage to say hi to some people i worked with.
a couple of them were one of the shift managers, and the cage director, and they were sorry to hear that i got laid off from my last job, and they were practically begging me to go back there. well, not so much begging, but there were very welcoming and implied that a job is waiting for me if i want it.
so i applied. i wont know anything for sure until tuesday probably because HR is closed on weekends, and monday is labor day.
but, looks like good news. it's a little bittersweet though for a few reasons. i am SICK of the casino industry, and this casino is a 45 minute commute, thru curvy mountain roads. i'm used to it, but my car isnt what it used to be. so, i'm gonna have to get a new car, which is good, but now i'm gonna have one more bill to worry about, and that makes me have to wait longer to go back to school. so, anyways, i'm looking at it like this: until i find somethign better, closer to home, i'll go ahead and go back to work for them
it's a job, and in this economy, a job is akin to a goldmine.
a couple of them were one of the shift managers, and the cage director, and they were sorry to hear that i got laid off from my last job, and they were practically begging me to go back there. well, not so much begging, but there were very welcoming and implied that a job is waiting for me if i want it.
so i applied. i wont know anything for sure until tuesday probably because HR is closed on weekends, and monday is labor day.
but, looks like good news. it's a little bittersweet though for a few reasons. i am SICK of the casino industry, and this casino is a 45 minute commute, thru curvy mountain roads. i'm used to it, but my car isnt what it used to be. so, i'm gonna have to get a new car, which is good, but now i'm gonna have one more bill to worry about, and that makes me have to wait longer to go back to school. so, anyways, i'm looking at it like this: until i find somethign better, closer to home, i'll go ahead and go back to work for them
it's a job, and in this economy, a job is akin to a goldmine.
went to a job fair today. it was sponsored by last job, and it was only for those of us who got laid off. according to the flyer they gave us, there was supposed to be like 40+ companies there. there were barely more than 20. and half of them just told us to look online to apply. WTF?!?
fuck!!!!!!
also found out from someone that the place i worked, after laying off 400+ employees, they might be laying off some more in november.
this economy sucks. i wanna move to europe
fuck!!!!!!
also found out from someone that the place i worked, after laying off 400+ employees, they might be laying off some more in november.
this economy sucks. i wanna move to europe
I got a job interview lined up for tomorrow, for a full time teller position at a bank in town.
its similar to what i was doing at the casino, but then very different too. if i get it, im nervous about it, because im detail oriented, and ok with numbers and finding discrepancies, but i'm horrible at financial matters.
but, when i first started at the casinos, i almost quit during my training week, so much new stuff to take in.before that, the only experience i had was mcdonalds...
so, i managed to learn my job at the casino, which was LITERALLY a 300page manual that we had to learn in a week....so i think i can do this
wish me luck
in related matters, i'm doing much better than i was when i wrote my last blog. i'm happy that i'm able to sleep at night for more than one or two days out of the week, and i just feel more relaxed, and somewhat at peace. i was sick of the casino industry, and i wanted out for a long time. and now, even though i REALLY miss a lot of people at the casino, i'm a little happier as a person. i still have a long way to go to feel better about myself, but its a start
hope all is well with everyone else
and thanks again to those who left me comments on my last blog
its similar to what i was doing at the casino, but then very different too. if i get it, im nervous about it, because im detail oriented, and ok with numbers and finding discrepancies, but i'm horrible at financial matters.
but, when i first started at the casinos, i almost quit during my training week, so much new stuff to take in.before that, the only experience i had was mcdonalds...
so, i managed to learn my job at the casino, which was LITERALLY a 300page manual that we had to learn in a week....so i think i can do this
wish me luck
in related matters, i'm doing much better than i was when i wrote my last blog. i'm happy that i'm able to sleep at night for more than one or two days out of the week, and i just feel more relaxed, and somewhat at peace. i was sick of the casino industry, and i wanted out for a long time. and now, even though i REALLY miss a lot of people at the casino, i'm a little happier as a person. i still have a long way to go to feel better about myself, but its a start
hope all is well with everyone else
and thanks again to those who left me comments on my last blog
i got laid off.
those mother fuckers.
my left hand has been shaking for nearly 3 days now from being so nervous. first about the possibility of a lay off, and now the uncertainty of what the fuck am i gonna do now?!
i am so fucking depressed. so much shit going on in my life, and a lack of shit going on in my life
it's all too much. i really dont want to live anymore. not just because of losing this job, but how my life is turning out overall.
don't worry about me though, i wont kill myself. i dont have it in me, and i dont want to hurt my friends and family. but lets just say if i get hit by a truck, so be it.
those mother fuckers.
my left hand has been shaking for nearly 3 days now from being so nervous. first about the possibility of a lay off, and now the uncertainty of what the fuck am i gonna do now?!
i am so fucking depressed. so much shit going on in my life, and a lack of shit going on in my life
it's all too much. i really dont want to live anymore. not just because of losing this job, but how my life is turning out overall.
don't worry about me though, i wont kill myself. i dont have it in me, and i dont want to hurt my friends and family. but lets just say if i get hit by a truck, so be it.
I am so nervous, so scared.
my work announced last week that they are going to lay off around 400 people. I think they're starting in my department today.
we dont know anything, who's getting canned, how they are determining it, etc
fuck.
my work announced last week that they are going to lay off around 400 people. I think they're starting in my department today.
we dont know anything, who's getting canned, how they are determining it, etc
fuck.
So it's been a couple days since my cat died, and i found out about my mom, and i've spent almost the entire 2 days dwelling on it.
its been a rough couple of days, but today i went to see my mom, and she seems fairly optimistic about it, so i'm put at some ease now. I'm still worried, and scared and depressed about the whole situation, but on a lesser scale now.
So i'm gonna try to be more positive about it, and start thinking about other things again.
and i remembered i didnt really talk about my trip to comic con. i might go into a little more detail next time i write here, but heres a couple highlights. spoilers are just because of the amount of pictures. i dont wanna slow anyones computer down
--We (sorta) met Stan Fucking Lee. We got to san diego so early to get decent parking, that the con wasnt open yet. so we walked to the nearby seaport village and hung out for a little bit. on the way back, as we were walking thru the marriot hotel to get back to the convention center, out of fucking nowhere, we run into Stan Lee. for those who don't know, he co-created some of the biggest characters in comics, and in pop-fiction period. Spider-man, the X-Men, the Avengers, Hulk, Iron Man, Fantastic Four, Daredevil, Doctor Strange, etc.
So we run into him and my friend practically broke my arm, he hit me so hard to get my attention. We asked Stan if we could get a picture. and he seemed like he wanted to, almost started walking towards us, but then his asshole assistant, or whatever the hell he was, told us "NO TIME" and practically DRAGGED Stan into the hotel. We just sorta stood there in awe, and as my friend put it, "This is like seeing a fucking unicorn, without a photo, no one is gonna fucking believe it". Oh well, i'll remember it.
It's kinda a geek thing, but he's a big influence on me, creatively. One of the things i've always wanted to do is be a story creator, whether it be comics, movies, literature, whatever. I'm not really a great writer, but a lot of the stories and characters i've created have been inspired by the characters and worlds Stan helped create.
its been a rough couple of days, but today i went to see my mom, and she seems fairly optimistic about it, so i'm put at some ease now. I'm still worried, and scared and depressed about the whole situation, but on a lesser scale now.
So i'm gonna try to be more positive about it, and start thinking about other things again.
and i remembered i didnt really talk about my trip to comic con. i might go into a little more detail next time i write here, but heres a couple highlights. spoilers are just because of the amount of pictures. i dont wanna slow anyones computer down
--We (sorta) met Stan Fucking Lee. We got to san diego so early to get decent parking, that the con wasnt open yet. so we walked to the nearby seaport village and hung out for a little bit. on the way back, as we were walking thru the marriot hotel to get back to the convention center, out of fucking nowhere, we run into Stan Lee. for those who don't know, he co-created some of the biggest characters in comics, and in pop-fiction period. Spider-man, the X-Men, the Avengers, Hulk, Iron Man, Fantastic Four, Daredevil, Doctor Strange, etc.
So we run into him and my friend practically broke my arm, he hit me so hard to get my attention. We asked Stan if we could get a picture. and he seemed like he wanted to, almost started walking towards us, but then his asshole assistant, or whatever the hell he was, told us "NO TIME" and practically DRAGGED Stan into the hotel. We just sorta stood there in awe, and as my friend put it, "This is like seeing a fucking unicorn, without a photo, no one is gonna fucking believe it". Oh well, i'll remember it.
It's kinda a geek thing, but he's a big influence on me, creatively. One of the things i've always wanted to do is be a story creator, whether it be comics, movies, literature, whatever. I'm not really a great writer, but a lot of the stories and characters i've created have been inspired by the characters and worlds Stan helped create.
---I met some suicidegirls. Specifically, Nixon, Sash, and Missy. i had hoped to meet Posh, but either she wasn't there that day, or i missed her everytime we passed the SG booth. oh well i guess. I talked to Missy a little bit, and she seemed genuinely surprised and happy when i told her that i've been a member (off and on) since 2002
---So anyways, later on, we got to see another one of my entertainment idols. Kevin Smith. We got to see him speak on a panel about comics in the movie industry (i think thats what it was about). He was on the panel with Judd Apatow (another favorite), Zack Snyder, and Frank Miller (another comic legend). After that, we stayed for Kevin's own panel, about his upcoming movie, Zack and Miri Make a Porno. We knew he was going to be talking about it, and we knew he was going to have guests, but we didnt know who. It ended up being some guy i never heard of,
Justin Long
Pornstar Katie Morgan
Legendary pornstar Traci Lords
Jason "Jay" Mewes
Elizabeth Banks 
and Seth Rogen!
All in all it was a great finish to an awesome day
---Other celebs we saw that day were
Neil Patrick Harris (NPH!!)
Corey Feldman
Stephen Baldwin
Kevin Pereira and Olivia Munn
and Method Man
ok, thats enough for one day. hope everyone is well
so today is about the shittiest day ever.
my cat,who i've had since i was 10, died early this morning.
there was a fairly large earthquake today
and worst of all, my mom finally got the results of her tests, and she has kidney disease. her kidneys are only operating at 40%, which apparently isnt HORRIBLE, but it isnt good either. the kidneys have to operate at 10 to 15% to survive.
i am so fucking scared, and depressed, and sick, and i just cant believe whats going on.
what the FUCK
my cat,who i've had since i was 10, died early this morning.
there was a fairly large earthquake today
and worst of all, my mom finally got the results of her tests, and she has kidney disease. her kidneys are only operating at 40%, which apparently isnt HORRIBLE, but it isnt good either. the kidneys have to operate at 10 to 15% to survive.
i am so fucking scared, and depressed, and sick, and i just cant believe whats going on.
what the FUCK
